...in the Interim

The Interim is where we sit petulantly and impatiently (and where it is fine to do so)

I am impatient. I have always been. Yet, I am not impatient enough to make a fool of myself anymore just to not be bored because I am impatient. Not a lot of people would know this about me if I didn't say it. It is because I have either learned how to deal with my impatience in terms of waiting for things to happen in my life...or I really have just grown out of it and am now learning how to grow out of that thought that people who have known me a long, long time about my being very dearly impatient.

And I am impatient because my entire life has been a remarkable show of people telling me one thing and me getting happy and anticipating the outcome and then when I am let down, because I got overly happy about things without regard to the idea that things that are great and things that we desire and things that we are manifesting no matter what they are take time for them to happen. This is not news. This is not something that we do not know. This is not something that has not been around for as long as humans have been on the planet to see the sun rise and set. Impatience. It is something I know well, is something that I wear well (because I am so good at not showing my impatience) and it is something that all of us knows is not going to go away anytime soon...at all.

It is called "The Interim."

The Interim

This would make a great name for a new thrash metal band or for the title of an album by a thrash metal band, but in reality, the Interim is that place where all those great things that we want to see in our lives that are meant to come along and fill that Void we all dislike so much  brew or simmer and come to their full fruition. It is that place where our impatience and our doubt and everything that scares us like so many spiders, lives, and it is where all of those things that we don't like and don't want to face are at. The Interim is that thing where, just like being upset at the idea that we are told that we have to check in for our flight hours in advance, only to have to deal with our flight being delayed (and now we are heavily annoyed at the idea), we are meant to think about if what we see with our mind's eyes is really worth the wait, is worth the pain that we know we have to endure in the soul and is that place where, without it, we would have nothing worth having.

Of course, when we are in the Interim we are not thinking this way. In fact, when we are in the Interim, we are doing and thinking anything other than why we are in the Interim. And the truth is that while we are there, a whole lot of doubt is there, too, and so is a whole lot of thinking that maybe what we are asking for...that maybe we are not worthy of it.

Well of COURSE we are worthy of it, all of it, no matter what it is. If we know that it is what we are headed for, and we know, too, that who we are deserves what we want, and we know that what we want is ours anyway and that all we have to do is brew over it in the Interim, and the Interim is that place where who we are matters the most, then why would we not see the Interim as somehow being a valuable and worthy place to be? Why is it that we are not realizing that we are waiting for our very selves in the space called "The Interim"? The Interim is that place where what we are made of is put into practice long before the reality of the Void which needs to be made full with the Truth of us is made full. It is that place where all of those dreams and all of those desires and everything we have ever wanted is at, but is a mess, just like we will be when we are in the Interim.

It is the ultimate void 

The Interim is the ultimate Void in that without it, we would be too well aware of the idea that the actual void is what is being seen to at that moment. It is that place within that feels empty, and that place where what we think we want versus what we know we need can become the same thing if we are willing to ponder it as the truth in manifest. When we can see things from a new point of view and when we are able to truly accept things as they are and look at them everyday and every time as being a brand new sheet of paper upon which the end of the story, we know, does not change, the way to getting there can.

The Interim is that place within where we keep our tears and our anger and also where it is that we believe we are meant to hurt and to feel like a fool. In reality it is like the Great Cave, the great space in which those blessings and those wishes and dreams are able to become all they are meant to, right there in the meantime which is also and can be thought of as the Interim. It is that place where, in times of the greatest trials we are talking to the angels, and understanding, eventually, that the pain is meant because without the pain we will not know what is not pain.

We cannot know what is loss without the Interim, because loss does not come about without our having something to lose. We cannot know what it is to have our heart broken if we also do not know what it is that we want to believe is Love but is not and never was. The Interim is a place of wonderment and finding out things that we have only heard about and is where we get the messages from Spirit in the most magnificent ways and in ways that before the Interim, we would never bother to believe were meant to be what they are.

The Interim is where we are told by our soul that we are not right intended and that while it is that we know what we want is great and awesome and good, it might not be what is right for us at all and at that point the Interim is a place where, like a good mother does her children, we get schooled by the Universe. It is that place where we do not want to be patient, and where, like a kid at a birthday party who waits for cake and ice cream eventually gets their piece of cake but when they do, it is no where near what it was when we first wanted a piece of cake and it sucks because it is our birthday cake and still, we were made to wait.

The next time that any one of us has a "why me" moment, and we want to know why it is that we are hurting, and why it is that we are seeing everyone else get what they wanted for so long and so badly, remember that in the Interim is where we are, and in the Interim is the thing that has to be in order for us to know our value through our measure of strength and our measure of character. The Interim is where our integrity is tested, and the Interim is the place where how strong we are matters, and how patient we are also matters. It is where we know that we are supposed to be, even though we also know for sure that it sucks, a lot.

The Interim is like the dentist's office...no one wants to go there, but sometimes, the pain of going there is lots less horrible than is the thought to have to go without what it is that we know we are headed to.

What we are headed to, by the way, and no matter who thinks or says what, is going to be anyway, no matter what. In my case, the Interim is filling the void. In my case, the Interim is seen as being more of a place where I am creating the reality that is in manifest and in the Interim that is my own are also the bricks which lay upon the foundation which heartache and loss and disappointment and shame built.

The Interim is that place where we get to have control, of everything...even though we think otherwise. The Interim is that place where really, we can tell ourselves and believe that what we initially thought, the part of us that tells us that whatever is going to happen and is meant to happen is going to happen anyway...that part gets to have fun and have a party and be happy that, in the Interim, we are the star of the show and we get to direct the flow of things.

And unlike Las Vegas, what happens in the Interim never, ever stays in the Interim, because one day, it becomes what was the Void.

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Accommodation of the Void

THE VOID

The Void. Ugh!

Even thinking about it in terms that can be thought as even being semi-friendly makes a lot of our brains itch. We loathe a void. A void means that we are empty of something and that the void demands to be filled. What we are not realizing is that there is a reason for the void and once it is that we understand the reason, there will be no more void. Too many of us are not accepting this. Too many people believe that a void is a bad thing when in reality it is only a neutral thing and doesn't carry any negative energy until we choose to believe that it is something other than what it truly is, which is merely and only a void.

Nothing in existence did not first come from a void. A void is really only an empty space that is waiting for the right and matching energy to come through to it and fill it. The reason that there is a void created is because that which was there to begin with no longer fits and neither does the energy that used to be there.

It is very easy to become upset by the emptiness that we think is there that the Ego creates in making it seem as though SOMETHING needs to be there to fill the space of emptiness within. It is not that the void is there to make us feel like there is nothing there because, again, the void is just that - an empty space. It does not have any bearing on whether or not what is there when it is refilled is what we want there and when it comes right down to it all, the reason that we feel like it is an emptiness is NOT because of anything other than the cultural conditioning that we have always been subjected to.

The Culture of Having to Have

The Egotistical culture that we have all been witness and party to has taught the majority of us that in order to be whole we have to have things because the energy of having things creates a real energy of wealth. Wealth is not the same as abundance. The reason that we are so not at peace with the void is because we have, for a whole lot of generations, been conditioned to believe that when we are without something tangible and when we have no proof that there need not be any'thing' in the void that somehow, we are not complete. It is not that we need to fill the Void, but that we believe that without the void being full all the time that we are not whole. The truth is that without the void we cannot create the energy which fills the void. Ours is a culture that glorifies "having" instead of Being.

When we are Being, we are not in need of having. Yes, it is as simple as that. When we are just being and doing so in the manner that is doing what we do and getting along in life and not being needy to fill a void that does not yet require being full is when we are getting it essentially right. It is in the void that we are at our most creative, and when we are in creation mode it is at that time that we are being who and what we are meant to be. When we worry about the void not being full is when we are filling the void with negative energy. The negative energy creates within us a feeling of lack, and when we have a feeling of lack we feel the things that we desire the most that we are still not yet ready for.

The one thing that most of us do not realize is that when we are trying to fill the void with energy that is not the correct energy we are doing ourselves no big favors. We are not meant to fret over the void. The void is there and meant to be like a clean canvas upon which an artist creates a new masterpiece, or perhaps is the silence that is the beat between notes in a song. The void is meant as a piece with which we are turning the blackness that is the nothing into the colorful beauty that is ourselves. Some folks believe themselves to be lonely, and in that loneliness they also believe that they need to have someone else fill that void, when in reality, all that is happening is that the Soul-You is prepping that space for the right person and the right time and the right conditions in the sense that is "Soul." This same thing is also applicable to anything at all.

The problem with the void, which really is not a problem until someone else reminds us that there is nothing in the void (thereby making it a negative thing), and a lot of the time the someone who it is is our very selves. I know a few people who think that the void that has been created by them by the past actions of their former selves requires that whatever or whoever was there not very long ago is meant or supposed to be there now. What is not understood by these people is that there is a reason that we have created that void and the reason is always that we know we deserve better than what was there. This is not to say that the thing or the person that was there in the past is not somehow lesser in means of what is valuable or not valuable. It is to say that what they and their energy brought to us was meant to help create the void so that we could also and in turn create newness in the absence of that which was there before.

We have been taught to fear the nothingness that is the Void. We have been conditioned to believe that when there is essentially "no thing" that we have less. Sometimes it is the no-thing created that gives us more. We are scared to death, not of finding out about how little we are able to do or to have, but more, of our power. We are afraid to know that we have been powerful all along and we are afraid to face the nothing that is there because in the nothing we are responsible for creating the something that we want to know is there. What we are not aware of, at least from the ego point of view is that we are always creating in the no-thing. We are always making our lives be what they are, and it is when we have effectively been able to create the void that we become afraid and we are afraid because we know that we are magnificently and truly able to make the life that we see in our thoughts. We are scared to know what we are capable of, and in the void, rather than creating energy that is going to propel us forward and into the next stage of growth, we remain in the void with the idea that we have to fill it with tangibles, and the tangible is only the last part of the thing that is the Void. When the tangible is created, we create another void.

We are scared of the void because we are responsible for it. We are responsible for it and that terrifies us because we do not want to create the wrong thing but what we are not realizing, again, is that there is nothing that we can do within the void that is wrong if we create in that space that which is brought by Love. We are scared of the power that is the freedom that we paradoxically love and loathe. We love it because it means that we can be and do whatever we wish, and we loathe it because we believe that we have to fill it with something that will impress other people. This is not the truth. We are not meant to create for others, but with others, the life that we see in our heads and want with our souls.

We can see the Void as merely a void, as a space to create that which is not yet here and present and in manifest.

You can accommodate the void by not accommodating it but by rather and only accepting it as it is, or you can accommodate the pain that you have the option to fill the void with.

Either way, the Void's presence is proof of your power as a Creator...

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Sometimes, she talks to spiders

Fear is empowerment gestating

There is no one on the planet who does not know that I do not like spiders one little tiny bit. I mean, yes, if I have to tell you guys this then I will-I had a "pet" spider who the kids and I named Chuck and who used to live in the blinds above my kitchen sink for a very long time (in terms of spider time, that is) - it is not truly that I 'hate" spiders, but that I fear them immensely. The reason that I fear them immensely is that when looking at one, and in thinking about how big we humans are to something that small, at least in terms of spiders that the majority of us see cruising around in our reality, we can only think that some of those tiny little critters with 8 legs...some of them can kill us.

Painfully.
In the ugliest possible way.
Immediately.

I cannot stand them because I am scared of them. I do not want to suffer a deadly bite, and I do not want to go through the things that I have read about how deadly some spider venom is. However, over the years, because I have educated myself about the most deadly ones to my locality, I can, in my fear, also feel a bit of empowerment in that even as I cannot control the spiders, I can protect myself from them in just knowing what it is that I know of them and can act accordingly.

We forget sometimes that this is their world, too, and we forget that everything in the natural world is meant to teach us through whatever characteristics they hold that make us afraid of things that are not bigger than the nail on my big toe. I say that I hate spiders, but in reality I have great fear of them, of what some of them can do, but when I think in terms of relation to me and my smallness on the planet and how many other people are here and sharing the Cosmic web with us, I can see clearly some of the lessons that the spiders teach me.

What the spiders told me

Yes, there are some of you reading this who know that there is a joke behind my telling people that I "talk to the spiders," and in different circles it has different meaning and energy. One circle is, at this time, and those within that circle are likely beside themselves with laughter just knowing what that phrase means and that we all have that one memory of me (ahem) "talking with the spiders." Then there is another group for whom the phrase "What the spider told me" carries a much more important energy and one which is nourishing and healing and one, paradoxically, that tells me that rather than be only afraid of the power of the venom of some spiders, that I need to learn what lessons and teachings these creatures hold for me.

It is not the fear that they could kill me, but that I would not see them coming or perhaps would not feel it if I were sleeping, and that I could get bit by one. It is not really that they scare me so much as that they are really not very beautiful to look at but are, instead, very menacingly beautiful when really studied. And there is a reason that they are menacing and a reason that now, I realize, they are what they are and they do what they do, and yes, this is what the spiders told me.

They tell me that  these very intricate creatures speak to the fear of everything that I cannot see or yet foretell. They tell me that even though my fears might seem small, that they are, as well, quite powerful. They tell me of my own Power and the creative nature of the Feminine Divine and they tell me that my own destiny is mine to create alone and that on my own I am and have the very power to be a Divine force in Life. They tell me that I Am dearly a creative dominatrix, but not where that word would apply but rather, out in the Light, unafraid to be as intimidating as I have been told I am but cannot see because I do not believe that I have an intimidating, neither threatening nature unless it is that I have, myself, been intimidated or feel the tiniest bit threatened. They tell me that, as this 'dominatrix' who is not what people think it is or I Am in the sense that anyone might be thinking, I am the very one who is creative in thought which allows me also to be creative in the manifestation that follows.

Spiders tell me that mine is a world that is completely within my power to create, that I alone must create it and that no one else will survive for me and that I must create the reality that I need to have so that, in tandem with my needs, the things that are desired will also be what is manifested. They tell me of the great depth of patience that I am possessed of, and of the things that I am meant to create, not only for me, but for those with whom I share my own world. They speak to me of secrecy and hidden places in the darkness and of the ugliness that creates the beauty in life. They tell me that my power is not in the things that I speak only, but those aspects which are completely and totally the darkness of me that can only tell the intimidating truth of me. They tell me that the reason that, for years, I have felt as though I have been hated, that really, I have not been hated, but rather, misunderstood.

Once we have the ability to look at the things that scare us we can begin to ask why they scare us and how they apply to who we are. Who we are is a collection of everything we have been through in our lives, of all of the events in our lives, good, bad, neutral, and it is the web of power that we create for ourselves through our fears and the things that broke our hearts and made us cry, brought us to our knees and made us beg for mercy in the silence that is the tears which roll down our faces in the middle of the night, staring in the darkness at the invisible ceiling that we know is there, and hoping that the faceless yet beautiful entity on the other side of that ceiling somehow will hear us, finally, and that somehow will see our broken state and will salve us so that we can save ourselves.

These critters will always be foreboding to me, will always carry a bit of a threatening intimidation for me, no matter what, but they will also always tell me that the reason that they are these things to me is also that in many peoples' eyes, I am like the spider who showed up one day, revealed the fear that lurks within and through the venomous nature that is the intimidation that others perceive to be there, I am able to make different the thought about people who, like me, know things before we are meant to, know your whole life story and exactly who you are at that moment in time, for real, and who, by my very nature, even as I have a darkness in me that is stinging and hurtful, am really only scary until you realize through learning about who I am for real, that I am anything but.

All this I learned while in conversation with the Spiders....

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The Universal Law of Discipline

Unbridled, but Disciplined - this is how we should be, but this is how we are not

You need to take a look at your damned self and know that you are so not the cat's okole that you think you are

Get over yourself already, seriously. There are a whole lot of people on this planet who seem to think that they are just THE cat's ass and you are not. If you were, you would not need to be out in the world and telling people that you are the cat's ass. The "cat's ass" is that person who thinks that they are just the best at everything, who does not screw up, who thinks they know better and more than most do. I am sorry, geniuses, but there are no people on the planet who are able to not screw up. Period. You are not that great at a whole lot of things and you KNOW you are not, because we all know we are not all great at everything that we do. We have been great at a whole lot of things, all of us has been, but we cannot now nor ever say that we have always done everything perfectly.

The difference between excellence and perfection

No one is perfect, but everyone has the opportunity at being their most excellent at anything they do, and all it takes is being focused. Being able to focus on anything takes discipline. Parents know that teaching very young children not to be distracted is not an easy job and it requires discipline on both the part of the parent and the child. The parent has to be disciplined enough to not lose their patience with their kid as they learn to focus, and the young child has to not lose focus on learning whatever it is that he or she is learning, and all of disciplined behaviors take TIME and PATIENCE and a LOT of screwing up, over and over and over again until everything that you are trying to learn is at its best and highest level of excellence that it can be.

No one can ever be perfect. Perfection is meant for those of us who have gone on to the next consciousness, and also for those who like being made crazy by not wanting to believe that they are not perfect. There are a LOT OF PEOPLE on this planet who think they are perfect, and more who, if you tell them that they are not, will end up coming unglued with you because you had the guavas to say it. This is why discipline in learning your own soul's mission and purpose are SO important. If you already think you are so perfect, and then someone else comes along and tells you otherwise, and you get ass hurt because of it, that might be a sign that you already know the truth and the truth is that you know that you are not all the cat's ass that you think you are.

You are anything but perfect, really

Perfect is boring, pretentious and snooty. Perfect is someone trying to hard to be better than anyone else, but the truth is that no one is better than me, or you, or anyone, really. The pursuit of perfection will drive a person to the brink of madness and the pursuit of perfection is something that we are taught by someone else, usually our parents.More than that...perfect is a lie, because no one is and no one can be truly perfect. To be perfect means that you are without flaws, and last I checked we all have the ability to screw up. Without the ability to screw up, then and only then are any one of us on this planet perfect.

Perfection and excellence in the things that we do are different. We can hope for a perfect outcome of something, but to get to that outcome, the conditions must be excellent for it. We can be perfectly matched with people who could help us with the things that we do in our lives and in our work, but we, ourselves, are not now and nor will any one of us be truly perfect unless we are talking in terms of being imperfectly perfect. Then we are as perfect as we can imperfectly be.

To be excellent, you just have to learn to focus, and to learn to focus takes discipline

Humans are the most undisciplined group on the planet. We are this way because we have the ability to reason, and the ability to reason makes it so that we have the option to be, or not be, a douche bag perfectionist. No one taught or teaches a perfectionist how to not see what is not there - they only see what is not perfect and already there, and they judge it. This is the reality of someone who thinks that they are perfect. Perfection means that you have no flaws and that who you are is the standard that everyone else must live up to or be told is not good enough. The mark of a perfectionist is the same one that says that yours is good, but they know someone else's that is better, and normally it is theirs.

Yet, to be excellent (yes...hello to all of my San Dimas, California friends !! Bill and Ted RULE !!) requires diligence, the sort that it takes to get the job done. To be able to discipline one's self to that point of being able to focus on one thing at a time, knowing that all of the 'things' involved in the entirety of the whole, no matter what it is, will benefit. Yes, you will screw up, but no one doesn't. You will make a fool out of yourself, but no one doesn't. You will do a whole lot that is less than attractive and you will be horribly and terribly dismayed at the idea that you are not perfect. You will think that the only person in the world who is as big a loser as you think you are is you and that you are alone in that loser energy. Lemme tell you this much, you are not a loser if you are trying your hardest, and you are not a loser if you know you have done your best and have done all that you are capable of doing. You are not anything that you know you have never been on the negative side of things as long as you know you are on the right Path to wherever it is that you are meant to be.

No, you do not now nor have you ever had to be perfect. Perfect can not ever be, because perfect means that we have to die from this life time, and we - the all of us - we have a whole lot of work to do still.

The Universal Law of Discipline makes us have to go from the coal, which is rough and wild and harsh and dirty, to the gem contained within, which is brilliant and shiny and gorgeous. We have to make it through the fires of refinement, also known as the hard times, in order for us to become the person who we are meant to be.Heartaches hurt us, but they teach us, and adversity makes us know that there are times when we have to think quickly and be on top of things.

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A needed break from the Universal Laws of Spirit.

It is time, you folks...

Kokua me, yeah?

I needed to take a break from the teachings of the Universal Laws for a moment. While I will not divulge to anyone what my day was like - it was not great, not bad, but there was a lot of heavy, negative emotions that I went through, and yes, all of it regarding the collective heartache that is the soul of the majority of people who are my age, who were raised as though your backyard was Turtle Bay or some other awesome Hawaiian town, even if it wasn't, I am calling on you all, right this moment. I noticed something about my thoughts today, and it was all about my kids, and a lot of stuff came to the surface for me today. Yesterday, I was talking with Danni about someone we both know whose issues are all tied to the people who we each grew up with. You see, and this is not saying that my parents were awful...there is a difference between awful and what was my ..."vanilla plain" life, unless I imagined it in my own head all that time and just dearly adjusted.

Maybe I am way off, and I know that there are a lot of you right now hating on me, acting like I was talkin' stink about your Mom Guys, but I am not. What I am about to say is the truth, and it is the truth that not too many of us can deny. Our childhoods, while they were fun because it is fun being a Hawaiian kid and growing up with all your uku-billion cousins - all dat small keed time stuffs...yeaaaaah, brah...dassit...you know it!! Come with me, let's go, you folks, all the way back to our childhoods, with the old Hawaiian ways and the old Hawaiian Rules, that, while I will always have respect for rules, I cannot respect the idea that who we are, for many years, has been based, not on a mutually earned respect between the children who we were, and the adults who used to be our parents. Now, I am not - NOT saying that they did a bad job, because the other side of what I am going to write about next is awesome.

But I will leave that "awesome" til later on in this writing. Right now, I do not want you to think that I am chewing anyone out. I am reminding us all that we do not have to use intimidation, you know..."dirty kine leekenz..." the kine leekenz you get wit' one komoboko slippah...red...size 12... I didn't realize when I was a little girl that it was the energy of respect "earned" from scaring the daylights out of us was what I always felt. As a child, I always felt the feelings that other people had for me. I always knew who I could trust and who I could not, but because of the blood relation, I was forced to trust people who I knew better than to.I have prevented it with my children, and people KNOW to NOT GO THERE, because I do not and WILL NOT hit my kids. They are good kids. They deserve my Respect and I deserve Theirs. It is a mutually agreeable energy and Love between my children and I.

I know that they know that I am never going to turn my back on them, that I am never going to try to make it seem as though what I have to go through is because of them, because it isn't. I have raised my three, thus far, to be the best them that they can be, no matter what.

I was, like many of us Hawaiian raised children, while we are who we are, and proudly so, and they taught us that pride, I will say that I notice that a whole lot of my island friends, and especially my cousins and I, we chose to do it different this time. When it came to be our turn to raise the children, to live up to our collective Kuleana, we did not fail the 'Aumakua. Our Ancestors, the Elders, The Wise Ones, the Gods, The Guides...my beloved Nana...(I Love You!)...we listened to them. We took from that collective harshness that was good leekenz, and we turned that tragedy into Love. I don't know about you guys, but I do not recall being able to describe my most vivid memories of this fearful respect as ever being anything other than something to make my little soul want to run and hide. I can see every single one of these people who, when I was a little girl, threatened to hurt me, physically, by "geeving" me "leekenz wit' da' spoon/slippah/belt.:..whatever was there. There was even one time when I witnessed someone - an adult - ball of their fist and punch her kid in front of a bunch of us other kids. That ain't cool. That's the kind of people who a whole lot of us were raised with.

The sort who scared the shit out of us, just so that we would "Respect" them. I don't know about you, but I think I will take the actual respect that I get from my kids, than the sort that collectively, we have, many of us, for a lot of way too old school kanakas who are in their winter time now who did this. While I will not divulge the name, I can only guess what the hell else went on when I was not around. I saw a lot when I was around. I heard a lot of threats and I heard a lot of name calling and I heard a lot of things that no kid should have to hear.

I am not the only one, either, and in many cases, a lot of us still use this sort of ...whatever the hell you want to call this...it won't matter, because it is abuse, period.

The jokes about "gon' get gooood leekenz," and my favorite, when another family member would laugh when he found out about what happened to me, and made comments about the "two carnation leis around the eyes." And I dare you to NOT try to think about it, or that fucker, now that I said that, about a carnation lei. Yup, this is the other kind of thing that we all grew up with - adults who wanted respect but were like this, all the time, and bullying us and making us cry. It was like they enjoyed it, all of them. And please, don't sit there and act like I am the only one who felt or feels like this, because I am not. It is a sick joke to think that most of the time we were told that this was normal and acceptable and it is not. GENERATIONS of island people have made abuse, using religion and whatever the hell could be used, acceptable, and in some peoples' minds - humorous. It was not humorous to me to hear it. It was not humorous to me to be afraid of these people. It is not humorous now to me that there are people with whom I share blood who look back and laugh.

It is not funny, but it is sad. It is sad because this was acceptable. This was acceptable because until now almost all of us were afraid to stand up and say something.I am not scared anymore. I cannot speak for us all, but I could and likely am saying the words that they don't want to say. I am not scared. I was terrified as a kid but as an adult it is my Kuleana to the children who are my blood, and, as well, all of the other children of my heritage, to show them that the peaceful way is the better way. I am angry. I look back and see that there were a lot of things in my childhood that were very dearly abusive and that I am not the only one for whom this is the truth. There are a lot of eyes on this right now, a lot of Maoli eyes, and there are some who are hating these words, possibly me, too, and there are those eyes which are like mine.

Always wet. Always thinking that you will never be good enough, that you could have done a better job. The emails that I receive daily tell me this, that I am not the only one, and asking me to address it. Here it is.We grow up being told to value our family, and then we grow up into these adults who are angry and don't know why because the truth is that we know we have nothing to be angry about that we can do anything about. That is where the grand dividing line is. My generation of Hawaiian parents is NOT scared to change for the better. We are not afraid to not trust our kids enough to be who they are while still respecting us. We are not scared to know that they Love us, that they Love us without being afraid of us. We are not afraid to be different than the generations which preceded our own.

I was brought up to hear phrases like "I don't care who says what, but in my house, you will respect me, because I command respect." Wow! Those are some REALLY BIG Words which are loaded down with a VERY HEAVY ENERGY. I know that I am not the only one right this moment who is feeling that old, tight, harsh energy, because you are thinking about the same things that I am, and that means you have a "Wild Auntie" or two and they scared the shit outta you. Well, guess what? There is a NEW wild auntie in town, and she loves rock and roll, and she loves to eat burgers, and she likes being good to her kids and to her nieces and nephews. If I could go back to all those times that I was afraid, that I felt small in the spirit, that I was so nervous all the time at screwing up and fearing being called "lolo" (stupid), or something as equally soul crushing as it is to feel like if WE screwed up (you know...were KIDS????) that somehow, it was because we were STUPID and NOT CHILDREN WHO WERE STILL LEARNING. I heard "you will eat what I fixed and put in front of you and like it or you will starve," a whole lot. This is not getting real respect, because years later, when we are all adults at the same time, we look back and realize, a lot of us that is, that we were all somehow scared to disrespect.

This is what a whole lot of us went through, and I have heard stories that break my heart about so many other things that are so much more terrible than what I recall and what I am being asked to write about. But we did it, you guys...our generation, we did it. We broke out of that cycle, at least a lot of us have. And it is a beautiful thing, indeed.

I am reaching out to all of the rest of the Island Chains, from Old Hawai'i Nei, all the way down into the lower parts of the planet, to the Maori tribes of New Zealand. We are the generation of parents who have been, for twenty years now, rebuilding what it means to be a parent who's children do not need to respect them for fear of being hurt if they are not afraid. Our kids are not scared of us. This is a good thing. We have brought into this awareness the beauty that is Ohana without the ugliness that is placing fear into people.

There is no need for that at all.

Please, Kokua Me, and remember our Kuleana that is Aloha and not fear. Fear is not respect, and the respect caused by fear is not the truth of respect. It is the respect that we have to have for all of Life, even and especially the lives which are the ones which we brought to this planet. They are ours to raise and then to send out, not as example of who we are through them, but more, as the product of Love through the Soul come to life. They are ours to Love, not to make afraid of us.

To all of you Kanaka Parents, Island parents, who see your own childhood here in these words, remember that fear and know that the reason you let it go is because you believe that this is the reality that is respect. No, it is not. It is not your truth, but someone else's.

You have the option to change it, and, as well, you own family history...

Think about 'em, yeah?

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The Universal Law of Detachment

Detachment isn't a negative thing until you make it that way

Detachment. We hear about it and talk about it a whole lot in the world of the weird, as much as we dislike it, the act and the art of letting go of the end result that we see in our heads, that our Ego wants but that our soul knows is not always what we see in our minds. What we see with our mind's eyes is, as I mentioned in a blog about desire, only symbolic, most of the time, and that when we see what we see there it is only indicative of the energy of what we see symbolizes for us. With my mind's eyes, I see myself, really, debating with a certain "civil rights activist" whose last name has made me refer to said person as "The Sharpy." Laugh all you want, but I see it, because that is the thing that I most so enjoy - making it known to people that perhaps their ideal of what is "equal" needs to include more than just the simple hatred that someone plants in the world and makes the reality of certain people be what it is. If I never get to that televised debate I will not die, but I can imagine that it is there, and I can draw from that energy that which I will need to further my own cause, which is really only the world getting a clue about getting along and getting what we all need so that we can all collectively get on with life in a harmonious way.

Then there is that other thing that I see with my mind's eyes, the one that looks like a sprawling home on a couple of acres of land, not so that I can host big fat gnarly parties (okay maybe so I can do that but who is counting, really?) but more, so that I can finish raising my children in the manner that is being gentle to the earth, the manner that is learning to respect life and living, the manner which is helping others if they can, and the manner that is an energetic exchange with Mother Gaia as she helps us raise our own food and live off of the land that is ours, regardless if the paperwork, the deed, has a landlord's name on it.

And still, there is more than just those two things, but those are pretty big things, and those two things mean a lot to me, and the truth is that I will be more disappointed if I keep the thought in my head that I MUST have those things in the manner that I see them or else I will be prone to having large, adult-sized two year old tantrums. Had this been last year, right around August, and while it was that there was a whole lot of new change coming into my life and while it was that there were people coming into my life as there were also people leaving it, the one thing that I learned throughout this last year and a few months is that in order to have what we need, we must detach from what we see, because if we stay focused only on that one thing, we will be disappointed at the end result because we were not open and neither willing to trust that Spirit has us well protected in Her hands, that who we are depends fully on how much we trust what we see there as being only the symbol of what it is that we are desirous of, and that most of all, Spirit, in all of Her grandness and glory, never does not Know what She is doing, namely when it is on our behalf.

And it is ALWAYS on our behalf, no matter how crappy the things that you are going through are. Never in your life will you have the permanent experience of life being crappy at all times and at a constant. This is called being attached to what you are going through right now, and this is also part of the Universal Law of Detachment.

Letting Go

Letting go is never what a person who is not familiar with the ways of Spirit, the ways of the Soul within us each, understands because to them, being new, spiritually, to all of these things and terms and such, letting go of anything means that they are losing something, and to a point they are correct.

The thing that they are losing is the better chance at being disappointed in the outcome, and a lot of the time, the outcome that we see in our heads cannot compare in terms of way coolness to the actuality that is on its way to us. This is what I mean when I say that we cannot outdo Spirit, because She never does not know what She is doing. Spirit, the Great Mother, Grandmother Spirit, Na 'Aumakau....no matter what you refer to the Great Big Universe as Being...Spirit ALWAYS KNOWS AND DOES BEST, which is why we need to learn to trust. Not only in Spirit, but in ourselves.

When we can trust that we are good enough to have the things that are symbolized by what it is that we see with our mind's eyes, and we can trust that Spirit always has our end result in mind is when the fun happens. Really. It might not always seem so, but this is the truth. When we are hurting and confused, yes, that is Spirit, proverbially trying hard to make it gentle, the cutting of the teeth of the Soul through trial. When we are angry, again, Spirit, teaching us like a good parent teaches their young ones to not run out into the street to chase a ball but to let the passing cars go by and then retrieve the ball so as not to get hit by one of those passing cars. When we can believe within ourselves that we are good enough to receive what it is that is symbolized by our mind's eyes, that which we dearly desire and when we can let go of the symbol of the picture of the thing that we want that is representing the energy that we are in need of, and when we can let go of expectation and can deal with the thing that we see possibly not being the only way it can be, but better, and when we can just take it all in, relax and chill and go on about our lives, this is when we are allowing, when we are seeing the law of detachment in action.

The Universal Law of Detachment is the fuel which starts the fire

Believe it or not, it is not only the energy that is the Love behind the thought that produces the symbol that is our greatest desires, but also, it is the letting go of outcome, of anything in the past, of everything that hurt us and that still hurts us and that we think we cannot bear to be without. We expend so much energy toward resisting our evolution that we are too tired to be able to practice the art of letting go. And it is, indeed, an art and one that must be learned. We learned as children to depend on people, because we had to. Then when we started becoming teens we went out and formed bonds that taught us how to let go of things back then when our friends hurt us. When we became adults we are then our own greatest proof that letting go is needed, that growing beyond what we believe in the past as it applies to right now is all and only what we have, but that is not the truth.

Where it is that we hurt, we do not realize that we are being given the gift of rehabilitation from heart ache that was before right now, and the gift in that reconstitution of our selves is the chance that we have now to think about and wonder what it is that we are learning now and how what happened in the past applies. It does apply, because in the past you were brand new at loss and you held on to that loss as though it was the only thing that you learned from it. It was not the only thing you learned from it. From that pain you learned Love, that you are worthy to Love you and that all you really need to do is learn to trust that inner voice, the one on the inside screamin' at you and telling you, over and over again that you can do WAY better than THAT !

I know this, because in my world that inner voice is named "Gabby," and Gabby is always right there, where a guardian angel should be, right there, next to me, not telling me what I do not need to know, but reminding me that I am strong enough to allow the fire in the belly to be what it is for me, for my life, and telling me always that the pain is like the pain of loss turned inside, out and that when I am able to look at it that it will make sense. I might not like it at the moment, but Gabby has not really ever let me down, ever. Of course, she has taken me the long way, the scenic route, on the Path, but always I have been guided to other people who are just like me....damaged, but worthy, and Loved beyond measure, not only by Spirit, or by ourselves, but the Grand Universe, where there is always room for one more thought, one more dream and one more life to be made whole again.

The Universal Law of Detachment teaches us that in order to have the new, we must let go of the old, and in order to see that symbolized energy become the reality in our life, we must let go of the picture that we keep referring to as being the only thing that we are made of and the only thing that we are good enough for.

We are good enough for the Heavens to not forget to open up to us every night, and show us Her grandness and her glory in the diamonds we have named "stars" and the milky whiteness that is the glow of the white bright, sometimes full moon that does not ever leave us but remains there as the gentle reminder of how much we are needed in this lifetime. We are good enough to see the sun rise every morning, or perhaps the rain fall from the sky when it is time to. We are good enough to recognize the screeching Hawk, the chattering Crows, the happy buzz that is life all around us.

If we see all this proof that we are loved beyond measure and that really, all we have to do is let go in order to see it all for real, then, too, the idea that we have dreams and we see these symbols in our thoughts would also be the evidence that we need and all the proof that there would need to be that we are special enough to be reminded by the alarm clock called Nature, every day of our lives.

Kinda way cool when you really think about the idea that if Spirit makes this all happen, every single day for every single one of us, then, too, Spirit must also have some pretty danged big stuff waiting for us all, as long as we are able to finally let go, stop thinking and believing that we can do better than the all forgiving Mother Goddess who has never ever left us, not even once.

It was when you cried the hardest that Mother was letting us know, through those tears, that it was all going to be how it is meant to be and that really, we are dearly and absolutely safe within her Arms.

Proof is that you are reading this, that you are breathing and alive and thinking now about what letting go of outcome means and more, how much good letting go and releasing your dreams into the wild, wild Universe can do for you.


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The Universal Law of Desire

Whatever it is that you are desirous of, you will...

"Will what?" you might ask

No, silly...it is not the verb "will" in the sense that you are used to knowing it, but the action that is also "willing" something. When we are desirous of something in our life, regardless of who, or what is the symbol of what it is that you are willing, you are activating the Universal Law of Desire. In Webster's Dictionary and Thesaurus, one of the definitions for the word "desire" is "...(1) A strong wish: LONGING... to long or hope for...exhibit or feel desire for... (2): REQUEST.." 

In that same text, the definition for the word, "Will," is "(n)  (1) Wish or desire often combined with determination..."

In order for us to receive what we wish for, there must be a few components involved, and the two most important ones are both the desire as well as the will to go out into the world and retrieve what it is that we each want in our lives. NOW, please...PLEASE do NOT confuse these things with the idea that what you want, you will have in the exact manner that you see it in your head - that is SO not how Spirit does things. What it is that we see with our mind's eyes, through the imagination and the conjuring of the perfect example of the energy that we will into our lives through the energy that is desire is JUST a SYMBOL of that energy. It really is NOT the EXACT THING THAT WE SEE THERE !

I get asked the question of "Why doesn't this thing/person/place/whatever come into my reality in the manner that I want it to and in the manner that I imagine it?" That is because, number one, when we are wishing and hoping for things, and those things involve other people and their free will to choose, we are impeding on their right as spiritual beings to be everything they are meant to be, even if that means that we are not directly involved in the manner that we see with our mind's eyes. This one was a VERY difficult one for me to deal with and it was because of a mechanic that I thought very highly and dearly of, often, and it was nothing more than a symbol of the strong, free-willed person who I am and a reminder of also, more importantly, what I am not and what I am not meant for. Let me repeat that for you - the manifestation of this person and the willing of this person to be a part of my life did happen, but not in the manner that my silly Ego thought it should. The manner that I imagined that I would want him in my life turned out to be the thing that I so did not need, not for any other reason than that (ready for this?) while my ego thought he was just fine and dandy, my soul (along with my two closest best chick pals...you both know who you are and I Love You both so very damned much) knew that he would never be able to live up to who I am for real.

When I ignored my Soul's inclinations toward what it was that I thought I wanted, I realized, one day, because of the word "maybe," that I was being taught about myself. I wanted to know more about me, which, for a lot of people, seems ridiculous, but when you think about it a bit deeper, we all begin to realize the things that we were not wanting to look at because it was only congruent with what our Ego told us we MUST have. Lots of folks believe that if something hurts us, that we have to work harder to have it and that the work involved with having it will be the best reward. Actually, it is the work that is the gift, along with the pat on the back that we have to give ourselves, not after we get a clue, but when we accept said clue. 

When I realized that the only things there that I was looking at were the symbols of monetary success, were the symbols of the things that I could have on my own (because when we see something in someone else that we are attracted to, we are also and either able to do those things, too, OR, the symbol is JUST a symbol of that which we are working toward seeing materialize in our lives.) was when, for real, because through the pain and the ridiculousness that I had put myself through, I was able to accept that I could have the security, the comfort, the Life that I saw, no, not with this person, but with myself. It was one of those days that I won't ever forget, because it was one of those days that I was granted the gift of knowing, my self, and that is more precious than is a lot else. 

The Truth of The Energy that backed the Desire

What I needed was to see the sameness that was me in this person. What my Ego thought was fine and good, my soul knew was not. Where it was that this other person had, seemingly, everything, there was and still is the one thing that is the Void in their life - the mirror, no, not that is me (and that won't ever BE me), but that is the sameness of someone who is as clueless as they are. Cluelessness plays a huge part in our lives, and how sad it is in this healer's mind that people would sooner embrace the chosen clueless nature of themselves rather than face what is there in front of them, choosing not to free themselves from trying hard to make things that are not for them, theirs, at least in their minds. It is sad to me that there are brilliant people on this planet who cannot see their own brilliance because they are so taken with the brilliance that is not theirs. They draw themselves to the pomp and circumstance, to the symbolism behind the energy that they are witnessing, never bothering to also see what is really there for them and that is golden.

Desiring things in our lives is not bad, at all, but it can make us feel that way if we are trying hard to make the will of others bend to what is our will and only to what we want in our lives that we think will make our lives better. We are not thinking about what we want having a possible negative impact on those whose will we wish would bend to our own. There is no practicing person of The Craft who is right-minded who will tell anyone that it is okay to do things, wish for things, want things and people in our lives, and that to make it all happen, all we have to do is mess with their free will. Free will IS the truth in freedom. I know this because I asked them, those Crafty women in my life and they told me a lot, but the thing that they told me that stayed with me is that Love is not to be kept or to feel like you are being kept. Love is freeing, but it is symbolic on this plane. It is not romance, is not the kisses stolen in secret - it is within us, not outside of us. What drives me almost crazy sometimes is when people confuse what they want Love to Be, with what is symbolized by it in their heads, and is also present in reality so that those who feel like this can confuse Real Truth in Love with what the Ego wants us to believe is Love.

Desire is very different, but takes a bit of Love for it to happen. We must Love ourselves before we know what Love is with or for anyone else. This is also the truth of the things in our lives, the situations in our lives, the material reality in our lives - all of this depends on our Will to see it happen, which is fueled by the Love within us for our very selves. There are a lot of things, people and situations that I dearly want and desire to be part of my life.

Yet, I know, in the reality of things, that right now it is just not time for ALL of those things, but this does not mean that on the inside, I am not seeing to the things that I want to see manifested in reality for myself. When it materializes for myself I will know that the rest is to follow. 

Directing the Energy toward your own will

We have all been raised in a society which glorifies bullies, glorifies a winner over a loser, and glorifies having a big fat tantrum just so that we can have our way. As many parents know already - there is no tantrum that is bigger or meaner than is the energy that created it. The energy behind the tantrum of a child is the same energy behind the underhandedness of an adult. Either way, each one of those entities is trying dearly to break and bend the will of others. This is not anything that is new to any one of us, but in it - this strangeness of energy - you will find the things that you need in order to have the life you desire, and hell yeah - simply by redirecting the angry energy in to Love energy toward yourself.

Anything and everything that we desire in our lives is meant, and those things and that life do not come from our whiling away our good energy on the things that we keep on trying to make fit into our life the way that we want it to. This is something that the mechanic I mentioned earlier in this writing taught me that said mechanic never really knew about. Where it was that I believed one thing, the actuality of it was that the thing, the situations, and most of all, the people, including the mechanic, were all indicative of my Self and what my inner Self knew then and knows now - that I am all those things that the mechanic was not, is not, will never be, and also, am everything that the mechanic is that is good in him that also lives in me.

The reason that I know all of this is because in that energy that was the "maybe" was also contained the very seeds, through what was symbolized as hurt, as anger at myself, as all of those things that no one likes to feel, and was eventually channeled elsewhere, into my own creating the life that is no longer out of reach and damned surely NOT dependent on anyone outside of me. This is my Kuleana, as much as it is anyone else's Soul's Responsibility to take care of who we each and on our own, are. When we choose to care for ourselves, choose to create what we eventually figure out is the truth of Love and of Being - this is also when we have chosen to have what we know is also the truth of us.

Choosing what is also the truth of us 

We have been trained by the media to equate desire with love, or lust, or both, and that is only a very small, biological, in one way, energy of the all of it. The all of it includes a Love for the Self that is the kind that does not die, the kind that only gets bigger, and the kind that cannot be found because it was never lost. It was only there beneath the rubble that you think is the truth. There are a lot of people with us on this planet who are more inclined to believe that what they want is outside of them, to believe that other people have to bring it to them, and this is not the truth. The truth is that, again, other people are merely symbolic of the things that we want in our lives. Where it is that we feel like we need another person to make us whole, there is another part of us that screams out, almost in spiritual pain, at the idea that many of us human type beings do not trust ourselves as we do others to take care of what we need for us. Yes, we need Love, but we need it from us, first. If we are desirous of Love with another person, we first have to have that same sort of desire that is in another form that is only and all for us. We cannot know real Love until we first know and believe that we are worthy of it. There is no person on this planet who will make this more real for us THAN us.

To be frank, no woman will ever complete a man, and no man will ever complete a woman. Not one of us is born with the thought in our heads that we are going to seek out that perfect other person because we are not good enough on our own to survive. True, it is nice having someone there to always travel along our Path with, but what we are not thinking about is that we travel with many people, but the Path we choose is singularly our own. No one can walk it for us. Along the Path, we find out much about ourselves, and sometimes other people point it out to us, and while those things might hurt our feelings, maybe even break our hearts, the truth of it all is that we, alone, are who is responsible for ourselves. There is not a man alive who loves a needy woman, and no woman I know wants a man who cannot take care of himself. If we are needy, we are going to make these people not want to be with us. If a man is controlling, he will make the woman who is his intended target and who symbolizes what his desire might look like not want to be with him because no human alive likes being controlled, by anyone, for any reason, at all.

To be frank, no person in their right mind would agree to being with another person given the history they have if anyone at all...no matter who it is...friend...lover...co-worker...it doesn't matter who it is - no right-minded, thinking or thoughtful person is going to go headlong into a situation where, once again, they will end up being controlled, NOT by the person who is allowed to, but more by the energy that is guilt, that is "you owe me," that is ANYTHING but LOVE.

To be frank, when those among us who share the air with us decide that they want to be all they can be, that they can change their energy to match the vibration of not the symbol of what they want, but themselves, and they allow Spirit to be the Part of them that brings to them the perfect pieces to the puzzle that is their life - THIS IS WHEN WE KNOW THE REALITY THAT IS THE MANIFESTATION OF TRUE DESIRE! And it is NEVER ever before this happens.

In order to have all that we desire to have in our lives, we first must desire to be whole, on our own, without help, yes, through the tears and the bullshit, so that we can, through the completion of allowing the windows of the soul to become cleaned and cleared by those tears that we thought would kill us, we have GOT TO BE right minded, with right intent, so that we can know what is to the will of the Higher Self versus what it is that the lower self...also known as the Ego...calls "desire." Ego likes keeping score. Soul likes smiling. Ego likes using guilt. Soul only knows Love.

Ego wants us to fail so that we can prove who we are through it.
Soul wants us to know that no matter what, as long as it is with Love, these things that we want to do in order to have what we desire, we cannot lose.

Of course, Ego will tell us that we have lost, but Soul will make it known, somehow, that there are no winners, no losers...only Love.

And that, really, is what we desire...Love, in all its ways, shapes, and forms...

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The Universal Law of Divine Purpose

DHARMA...

Dharma can be and has been defined as being "the essential function or nature of a thing." Dharma has to do with our Purpose in Life, and is the thing toward which our talents are meant to be given. Artists, musicians, dancers, poets, writers...basically anyone who has been thought to be strange, to be artistically inclined and who has the energy within that tells them that their gifts are meant to be shared with (rather than only seen by) the entirety of the whole of mankind...these are the ones in our midst who we should take our lessons in Life Purpose from. Included in this set of people are those whose lives are lived nourishing others through culinary delights, are those who literally talk to the animals, those who creatively live in the energy that is Love, not only for the rest of us, but more importantly, for the gift that they possess that they, we, I, are and am too happy to share, liberally, all the time, with everyone.

Our Divine Purpose is that one thing that we do, the one thing that we are most noted for. A long time ago I thought that thing was dance, but it turns out that it is communication with other people on all levels. While I can dance the dance of the ancients, it is in love with the exchange of communicative energies that I most am. I can tell the story of a million and one ocean voyages with my hands, just not always in the same way that I can string words together like anyone's auntie can string leis from things that no one would think to string leis from!

Such as the one my mother did for my cousin which was made up of Portuguese Sausage...just because he wanted one, and just because his wife asked her for one.

This is called Divine Purpose in Action.

Divine Purpose in Action

You might be in a band that is singing to the masses about environmental issues, or you might be an artist whose works are those which depict the darkness in life. You might be a poet whose voice in the words are that of protest. You might be a dancer who chooses to dance in a modern fashion to an ancient drum, just to remind people of the place within you are coming from. You might be a photographer who captures your own life in still and shares your rendition of what a half eaten plate of noodles looks like and call it "happiness," or you might be an actor who can deliver a message of Love like nobody else.

You might be a whole lot of things, but the one thing that you are is unique in every way, meaning that even as there are a lot of other people on this planet who can and do and should call themselves what they are, even though they are fantastic at what they do, so, too, are you. You are fantastic, we hope, at least by this point in time, at being you, and if you are living your own truth it will show itself in your talents and gifts.

A lot of people want the entirety of the artistic world to settle down and get a "real" job, but not one of those whose lives are wrapped up in the lie that is forced civility would do the same. They would never not be fantastic at what they do, even if what they do is nowhere near agreeable to the greater whole of mankind. While it is that they are lending to the greater whole of heartache, it is nothing for light workers whose lives are lived creatively to be lived in the manner, not that is dismissive, but instead who can and do "see" things through the eyes of Love. It is only through the eyes which have seen hurt and heartache, that have been witness to the things that mar the majority for the sake of the few, that have been proverbially poked again and again all for the sake of naysayers and those who would rather not grow, would rather and only keep things in the manner that they are.

We can look at things in many ways, but no one can see the world through the eyes that are the ones which belong to those of us considered to be "a little off" in our ways of thought and our ways of doing things. I have always loved other creative people, others like me who are here and know, for sure, that we have a grand purpose, a mission, if you will, to help bring enlightened healing to the Soul of Mankind. We know that it is not through our singular abilities that this happens but through our combined efforts of those gifts and that energy that is all Love that we also know we have been blessed in many ways and that those blessings have come to us through our talents.

We were not born to use our talents ONLY for the purposes of creating wealth, but we are born with those talents to help create a collective abundance. Wealth and abundance are not the same. Wealth has its own energy, as does abundance. While they are not the same, they work in tandem to help each other flourish in ways that, without the weird people of the world, there is a specific void created that is made especially to be filled with the love created by those gifts and by the love that is shown in thanks to the people who created it for the world to enjoy, to love and also to share. This is our purpose, in a big fat way - to share who we are through what we do creatively. Our Divine Purpose is created through those gifts and talents which are ours, which we have placed our own special energy to and which we have honed and made excellent throughout the course of this lifetime. When we sit in quiet contemplation, or perhaps in impatient frustration because we cannot find the word, cannot strum the tune, cannot create the count of 8 is when it is that our own human-ness comes screaming at us, reminding us that we are perfect in our imperfection and telling us that without a doubt, that we are trippin' cause our stuff ain't right in our minds. Our need for our own sense of this imperfect perfection is the reason that we are gifted in the manner that we are. Our need for the beauty that we create to be this imperfect vehicle of perfection to be seen is what we who live pulled by the strings of our own Divine Purpose is what it's all about!

Don't be afraid to use it

Believe it or not, a lot of people are scared of their own abilities. You read that right. Many of us here on planet Earth are scared to death of being successful and we are scared because we know that the other side of that success is failure. Failure, when you think of it in another manner, can be thought of as being more like a strainer through which we pour the grief caused by what symbolizes our failure into and turn it into something that is palatable, which can be thought of as us thinking of that 'failure' in terms of being weights on the ankles of a sprinter, or weights hung off of the back of any athlete as they practice what is their Divine Gift. The perception that is the failure is not really a failure but a way to see where it is that the thing we have created is not flawed, but really where a step was missed. It merely means that we have an opportunity to redo it better, and keep redoing it better until it is our version, not of "finished" but of "perfect," even with its imperfections.

Do not fear failure. If you fear failure you will not really know what it is like to have success born of that failure. If you are too afraid to not be perfect, never realizing that you are already perfect even with all of your imperfections, you will not ever know what it is like to have had to work toward what is acceptable to you, will not ever know the reality of your own abilities and you will not ever really know what it is to have a truth in depth for your abilities. If you continue to fear failure, you will not so much fall out of Love with who you are, or what you are ably gifted to do, but the fire that is there for the Love that is the thing that you do so well will be the first thing which will turn into the ashes brought by the smoldering embers which started it all for you to begin with. All those years ago when you were a child, and all that time that you spent doing the thing that you loved then and that you also love so much to do now is the thing that you are scared to fail at and the thing that, in my head, makes no sense that you would be afraid to fail doing imperfectly.

You fear not being perfect because you have been listening to and believing what is someone else's version of perfect. Trying to apply someone else's expectations to your own self is like trying to squish your own circular self into a square ability that is not your own. This is something that too many people have, over the course of history, forced onto themselves and more, onto others. It is the reason that we are seeing what we are seeing at this time in our lives, and it is the reason that we have all of this political crap that we are all watching at this time, and it is the reason that so very many of us seem to be so very unhappy. We have collectively been trying hard to be someone else's thought of things when all we really ever had to do and still have to do is just be who we really an each absolutely are. When we choose to be ourselves, to glorify in who we are and what we have been forever, and when it is that we have come to this point where who we are does not match the status quo and we find ourselves at that crux in our own minds that tells us that we are this way because we know of no other way - this is when we are meant to come out of our fear and into the light that we are.

Don't let other people tell you who you are, and don't let their misunderstanding of who you are and what you are really all about be the thing that guides you. We have ALL done this, and lots of us, myself, too, have all gotten upset, gone to words we did not mean, did things outside of who we really are, and for what?

For the simple fact that that which we are not able to understand is also what we believe is wrong, and that which we have never tried to understand, because it is not congruent to who we are and what our purpose in life is, it is also wrong.

It is not wrong. At all. It is just not that which we prefer for ourselves or can do for ourselves because it might not be that which we are meant for, period. This is what has happened to us as a collective whole. Now, please don't take this to mean that no one needs to work, or that no one needs to have a 'real' job, because for sure that would be irresponsible of me to tell anyone that they don't need to do what they need to do, but it is also not my telling you that you never get to do what you are SUPPOSED to be doing, and what you are SUPPOSED to be doing IS tied to that one thing that you are so magically and wonderfully awesome at.

Divine Purpose...it's that thing you are so magically deliciously talented at doing

NEVER allow anyone who does not know the way of the Light Worker, the way of the enlightened, the way that is anything other than your own tell you that you are wrong for NOT following what is accepted by the rest of the world. I am not accepted by the rest of the world, but in my world I fit in just fine. Sure, there are always gonna be those times when I wish that I were able to have a job that I myself did not create for me, and there will always be times when I will wonder what it is like for real to fit my fluidity into something a lot more fixed, but I always come home to myself, no matter what. I have a Divine Purpose, and when it is time for things to click, they will just click because Divine Purpose is always in partnership with Divine Timing. When we finally allow ourselves to do that one thing that we are all and each meant to do, and we do it according to the Plan that we have made with Spirit and carry that same energy with us along the Path that we each follow, regardless if alone or with traveling partners, we cannot go wrong.

We can never go wrong when we choose to do that which is in line with our Divine Purpose.

The Universal Law of Divine Purpose tells us that we know what it is that we were born, literally, to do with ourselves, our lives, and on our Path.

It also will not ever allow anyone, no matter what, to not be who we each and all are for real, and who we each and all are is absolutely priceless.

Now get on out there and be Fabulously You - just like all the other things that we gotta do on our own, this, too, is one of them

Be, in Love, and fabulously so

I LOVE YOU ALL !
ROX

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The Universal Law of Duplication

LISTEN UP ! IT AIN'T COOL and I HAVE HAD ENOUGH!

I thought I might NOT feel like this today, but apparently and until I let it out, I am going to feel this way. I am going to say it, so deal with it, because there are PLENTY OF PEOPLE on this planet who are duplicating what they will and it is all for their own purpose ONLY instead of their higher purpose. Our higher purpose is the reason that we each breathe, and I am positive that Spirit never intended for the majority of people on this planet to wake up in that energy, everyday even, that tells them that they are here to make sure that they do not sink into the depths of whatever is their greatest fear, even if that means that they are to step on others on their way up the ladder of success. Hurting other people to get where you want to be, and using them for their greatest talents, and then making sure to it that you make up all those pretty excuses so that YOU can feel better is not making anything karmic for me, but you sure as hell are not making the karmic credit card in your hand any more usable in the manner that you THINK is okay. You already know that the Karmic Credit Card has no limit...okay, maybe you don't, but you should, because I, and I KNOW my fellow Professional Weirdos as well, ALWAYS MAKE IT BLATANTLY CLEAR, ONE SURE THING...

USING PEOPLE IS NOT OKAY, EVER! 

And you have, through the help of other people who are as soul-sordid as you are and who also use people to get ahead, followed the pattern of abuse that is you needing to get ahead, no matter what, and no matter what your sorry excuse is or who you are willing to blame it on and make carry the load, ended up making your karma bigger than you realize and more, you have bought into the idea that you need to...NEED TO use people, hurt people, then act like they ain't real people, just to get ahead. Ain't nobody on this planet who I know would be cool with it. It is SO not cool for you to do what you are doing. You have no real clue of the soul danger that you are creating, but ask me if I care anymore. You won't like the answer as much as I am enjoying my "Christ cleansed the temple" feelin' I have at the very moment.

I have been used, again and again, and I am not the only one who has been, and it is for those who have been taken a very dear advantage of that I am SO PISSED OFF TODAY. My good graces have been mistaken, once again, as my weakness, when in reality, you have allowed your own human and arrogant and egotistical bullshit to be what guides you rather than what you know is right and good and FAIR. DO YOU EVEN KNOW THE MEANING OF FAIRNESS? Oh well...it is NOT my Karmic bed to lay in and yes, you guessed....Soul workers and Light workers we see you coming a mile away, and we know what your real intent is at the onset, even though we don't know what your ultimate plan is. This is the good thing about us, by the way, that we cannot be fooled about the truth of anybody. That's right - I said it. Deal with it. I have been onto a WHOLE LOT OF YOU from day one, and while there are those who willingly tell me what they do, willingly DO NOT LIE TO ME in order to make themselves feel better, willingly take it upon themselves to follow what they asked to know, by me or any other healer in the trades, there are still those ones who will pick our brains and then only use the parts of that picking to screw other people over, for whatever reason they will, and it is not true success but rather and only and TRULY A FAILURE. SERIOUSLY ! 

THIS IS NOT OKAY! You have, the majority of you, learned VERY WELL what it means to duplicate, and duplication is the name of the game when it comes to creating your own life from your thoughts and doing so WITHOUT STEPPING ON OTHER PEOPLE FOR IT! Then there are those of you who I USED to be beamingly PROUD of but who CHOSE to slide back into what your ego wants and that only leads me to ask what the hell have you duplicated? YOU HAVE DUPLICATED USING THE HELL OUT OF EACH OTHER FOR YOUR OWN GAIN, which YOU DID NOT LEARN FROM ME and have had zero thought about who you used to get to what you think is the top. Nope, it is not the top - essentially, it is the bottom, but it is the highest level of the bottom, and when you get to the highest level of the lowest rung on the ladder there really IS only one way to go - DOWN, and I used to feel sorry for people like that, but now?

Now I am just really very angry because while a bunch of people sit there knowing that the strife is meant to be so that we can appreciate the successes that we are all bleeding from the Soul for, there are those who are still very elementary in their thinking about what is the truth of success. You use people to get where you think you need to be, but it is only on the outside. Did no one tell you that in order for your success to be true that you actually have to put work into it, have to lose something else and that you cannot do it alone and that the moment that you feel like you have to take anything from anyone else is the very moment of the start of your fall from grace? 

Your truth is not hurting people and it will never be. It is too bad that you don't realize this and that when you do realize it, it is often too late and no, I will not be there to catch you when you fall, at least not the manner that I was before, and you can also forget about all the others in my network of healers and professional weirdos. You will not use me or them anymore. At all. If you don't believe me, TRY ME...you suck and you suck because you use people, brutalize them to get what you want, ask and ask and ask and expect from them, get what you want, and then have no energy that says to you that the piper is interested in getting some leverage, and said piper WILL get her leverage, and no, I am not said Piper....that would be Spirit, and She NEVER loses. You are about to find this out. It will not be pretty. Don't expect good people to be there for you anymore, free of charge, when the shit hits the fan...and I promise you that it is already in the catapult.

I didn't, other healers didn't...no one but YOU put it there. You used people, and now you will be used. That is not my law, neither that of my fellow professional weirdos, but that of the UNIVERSE! 

THE TRUTH OF SUCCESS IS NOT USING PEOPLE TO GET THERE

Congratulations. You have reached the top of the lowest rung of the ladder of success. You copied all those selfish sons of bitches who decided that the only way to the top was to make sure that you used the right people, that you lied to those who helped you the most and who you somehow believe is your glory. In reality it is not your success that you are glorifying in because that is NOT success. Success that is STOLEN from others by you not giving a damn about who you have already hurt is NOT SUCCESS, it is simply the layaway effect of having used people. You are not the one who is governing the outcome only, because you do not believe it when weirdos like myself tell you that you are strong enough to make it on your own. Nope. You want to get to wherever it is that you think is success, no matter what, and no matter what, I am here to tell you that you are duplicating the thing that you have said that you loathe.

You loathe other people being hurt for the gain of others, but you, yourself, pretend like you are somehow original. No, you are not - in fact, you are not at all an original, because it takes very little to swipe from the souls of other people, and the way that you do that is to drag them down by making sure that they know, not that they have lost, but that you have won. Way to go, moron! You have duplicated being a douche bag quite well, and it shows. You have duplicated the pretty words, and the hollow sweetness that is the silent pat on the back to your own self, all whilst rubbing the space in the backs of others where you planted your blade, thinking and believing that what you thought was right and good was anything BUT that, and now you are again in duplication of what it is that you think is success.

You are not successful if the only thing that you are duplicating for someone else is the idea that you have won. You only think that way because of the material part of it, but in the process what you do not realize you have duplicated is the pain that you have suffered that you did not want to deal with but that you are willing to duplicate for someone else. You are not untouchable. You are not above the Universal Laws and while you might believe that you are all skating around them, the reality is that you are actually taking the scenic route to where you actually belong, which is the opposite of what you want to call "Duplication of Success."

Duplication of Success does NOT MEAN DUPE-PLICATION

Yup. I am on a mad rampage today. I am pissed OFF because while the majority of people on this planet we all call 'home' are doing right by each other, there are still a whole lot of people here who really believe that the world is theirs to play pick-a-part with, and that it is alright, too, to take from others what they need, or think they need, for their own life. Do you jack offs NOT realize that you have left a void elsewhere? Are you sure you know what you are doing to yourself? Do you realize that what you have left those other people with is just another void to fill all while ingesting into your own lives the black mark called "The Truth of You" and that the truth of who you are is somehow dastardly, is dark and vile, is disgusting to feel because it is also and equally if not MORE disgusting to look at through the eyes that are the Soul?

JUST BECAUSE you are a master at being in disguise all the time it DOES NOT MEAN that you have to, all the time, be that one person who feels like he or she NEEDS to get one over on people because that totally is NOT what this life is all about? Are you as blatantly aware of things as you keep on lying to other people about or are you even remotely SURE that you feel okay and within your rights as a spiritual being to have wronged (YEAH I SAID IT NOW DEAL WITH IT!) another, no matter if wronging them was something that you feel they might have deserved? WHO THE HELL ARE YOU?

I'll tell you who the hell you are - NOT THE PERSON WHO DESERVES TO HAVE THE THINGS THAT YOU HAVE TAKEN AWAY FROM OTHERS, NO MATTER WHAT YOU THINK OR WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE ! NO ONE DESERVES TO BE FOOLED, and NO ONE DESERVES TO BE USED, and NO ONE - NOT EVEN YOUR SORRY ASS! - deserves to hurt or be hurt, and my thought is that you have no clue how dearly and ugly your karma will be. And at this point the other question I have is "how the hell do you look at yourself in the mirror each day, knowing that this is how you are, and knowing that you keep on lying to everyone, but mostly, your very sorry ass self?"

The Universal Law of Duplication is one of those things that we are meant to have the tiniest bit of Karmic knowing, the tiniest bit of that which is not "DUH" about the way that what we choose to use our energy to duplicate ANYTHING AT ALL, but namely that which we want to label as being our Success. Our successes in life DO NOT COME FROM when we feel we have been made victorious through making things harsh on other people. It is not okay to make it known to the world that you have somehow reigned victorious over someone else, NOT because they screwed up, but more because your line of bullshit to whomever it was that you lied to in order to get your way was felt on some level by the person who you shoveled it into their ears and souls and who had trusted you. Then you went and broke that trust by making them feel like what they had done for you in the past was somehow not enough, that their work or energy put forth on your behalf was not enough by your standards when in reality, those people cannot ever have that time back that was spent on what they thought was you being sincere. Those people cannot NOT live in the shame that was the lie you told, or emitted energetically, just to get what you wanted out of them.

Using people, duplicating what is their success through your own manipulations is not okay. Lying to them to get your way, and making false promises to them, whether verbally or otherwise, is wrong and will cause you to have to clear up your Karma while they are clearing theirs that you helped create for them while you were taking from them what you were too lazy and shady to do for yourself. It is, no doubt, LOTS easier to siphon what you can from other people, and there are a shitload of you who do this and who think that you are somehow above these people who you have hurt. You will not ever have their trust again, ever, and that is only part of the harshness that is the reality of the Karma that we each create for ourselves.

If you feel like the ONLY way to duplicate success is to duplicate the underhanded nature of some of the people who you are hung on their noose by, perhaps it is not time to continue using people to get what you want but more is time to cut the rope by which you hang loosely from the end of. You can't see it that way. Your own material mindedness and your own need to be the winner even if there really was not a loser until you created one, thereby duplicating being a douche bag of the highest degree, is what caused you to worry that you would not have enough, because you did not believe me when I told you that we always have enough and that when we feel like we don't it is because we are not thinking right.

I thought that by this point in time, you would have been able to already and on your own NOT pander to what you know you are going to hit me up about again in the future to help you clear it out.

I will...but it's going to cost you ...to the tune of a lot more than just your words telling me that you know and always knew the difference between what is truth in success through the Universal Law of Duplication. Those days are over with.

You have always known, way down deep inside, the difference between what is right, and what is whatever it was that you were thinking was wrong. What you are doing is wrong. Yup..again.. I said it, will keep saying it, and mine will be the voice ringing in your head, the words that you are not longing to hear but will, until you make it right again with anyone and everyone.

Those words are "I TOLD YOU SO!" and yeah, while it is SO outside of my way of being, I will dance naked beneath the wide and bright full moon, laughing in the shadows and sending that energy of knowing in the direction of those who know the Law of Duplication so well that they have mastered it to the ugliest, nastiest, most unforgiving degree that they could possibly have tried and SUCCEEDED AT DOING.

So, see, you are not a complete failure...you have succeeded in disgusting me to the very Bones of The Soul.

...I DO LOVE YOU ALL, but there are a whole lot of you who still just prefer to be douche bags...

I LOVE YOU ALL !
ROX

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