The Interim is where we sit petulantly and impatiently (and where it is fine to do so)
I am impatient. I have always been. Yet, I am not impatient enough to make a fool of myself anymore just to not be bored because I am impatient. Not a lot of people would know this about me if I didn't say it. It is because I have either learned how to deal with my impatience in terms of waiting for things to happen in my life...or I really have just grown out of it and am now learning how to grow out of that thought that people who have known me a long, long time about my being very dearly impatient.
And I am impatient because my entire life has been a remarkable show of people telling me one thing and me getting happy and anticipating the outcome and then when I am let down, because I got overly happy about things without regard to the idea that things that are great and things that we desire and things that we are manifesting no matter what they are take time for them to happen. This is not news. This is not something that we do not know. This is not something that has not been around for as long as humans have been on the planet to see the sun rise and set. Impatience. It is something I know well, is something that I wear well (because I am so good at not showing my impatience) and it is something that all of us knows is not going to go away anytime soon...at all.
It is called "The Interim."
The Interim
This would make a great name for a new thrash metal band or for the title of an album by a thrash metal band, but in reality, the Interim is that place where all those great things that we want to see in our lives that are meant to come along and fill that Void we all dislike so much brew or simmer and come to their full fruition. It is that place where our impatience and our doubt and everything that scares us like so many spiders, lives, and it is where all of those things that we don't like and don't want to face are at. The Interim is that thing where, just like being upset at the idea that we are told that we have to check in for our flight hours in advance, only to have to deal with our flight being delayed (and now we are heavily annoyed at the idea), we are meant to think about if what we see with our mind's eyes is really worth the wait, is worth the pain that we know we have to endure in the soul and is that place where, without it, we would have nothing worth having.
Of course, when we are in the Interim we are not thinking this way. In fact, when we are in the Interim, we are doing and thinking anything other than why we are in the Interim. And the truth is that while we are there, a whole lot of doubt is there, too, and so is a whole lot of thinking that maybe what we are asking for...that maybe we are not worthy of it.
Well of COURSE we are worthy of it, all of it, no matter what it is. If we know that it is what we are headed for, and we know, too, that who we are deserves what we want, and we know that what we want is ours anyway and that all we have to do is brew over it in the Interim, and the Interim is that place where who we are matters the most, then why would we not see the Interim as somehow being a valuable and worthy place to be? Why is it that we are not realizing that we are waiting for our very selves in the space called "The Interim"? The Interim is that place where what we are made of is put into practice long before the reality of the Void which needs to be made full with the Truth of us is made full. It is that place where all of those dreams and all of those desires and everything we have ever wanted is at, but is a mess, just like we will be when we are in the Interim.
It is the ultimate void
The Interim is the ultimate Void in that without it, we would be too well aware of the idea that the actual void is what is being seen to at that moment. It is that place within that feels empty, and that place where what we think we want versus what we know we need can become the same thing if we are willing to ponder it as the truth in manifest. When we can see things from a new point of view and when we are able to truly accept things as they are and look at them everyday and every time as being a brand new sheet of paper upon which the end of the story, we know, does not change, the way to getting there can.
The Interim is that place within where we keep our tears and our anger and also where it is that we believe we are meant to hurt and to feel like a fool. In reality it is like the Great Cave, the great space in which those blessings and those wishes and dreams are able to become all they are meant to, right there in the meantime which is also and can be thought of as the Interim. It is that place where, in times of the greatest trials we are talking to the angels, and understanding, eventually, that the pain is meant because without the pain we will not know what is not pain.
We cannot know what is loss without the Interim, because loss does not come about without our having something to lose. We cannot know what it is to have our heart broken if we also do not know what it is that we want to believe is Love but is not and never was. The Interim is a place of wonderment and finding out things that we have only heard about and is where we get the messages from Spirit in the most magnificent ways and in ways that before the Interim, we would never bother to believe were meant to be what they are.
The Interim is where we are told by our soul that we are not right intended and that while it is that we know what we want is great and awesome and good, it might not be what is right for us at all and at that point the Interim is a place where, like a good mother does her children, we get schooled by the Universe. It is that place where we do not want to be patient, and where, like a kid at a birthday party who waits for cake and ice cream eventually gets their piece of cake but when they do, it is no where near what it was when we first wanted a piece of cake and it sucks because it is our birthday cake and still, we were made to wait.
The next time that any one of us has a "why me" moment, and we want to know why it is that we are hurting, and why it is that we are seeing everyone else get what they wanted for so long and so badly, remember that in the Interim is where we are, and in the Interim is the thing that has to be in order for us to know our value through our measure of strength and our measure of character. The Interim is where our integrity is tested, and the Interim is the place where how strong we are matters, and how patient we are also matters. It is where we know that we are supposed to be, even though we also know for sure that it sucks, a lot.
The Interim is like the dentist's office...no one wants to go there, but sometimes, the pain of going there is lots less horrible than is the thought to have to go without what it is that we know we are headed to.
What we are headed to, by the way, and no matter who thinks or says what, is going to be anyway, no matter what. In my case, the Interim is filling the void. In my case, the Interim is seen as being more of a place where I am creating the reality that is in manifest and in the Interim that is my own are also the bricks which lay upon the foundation which heartache and loss and disappointment and shame built.
The Interim is that place where we get to have control, of everything...even though we think otherwise. The Interim is that place where really, we can tell ourselves and believe that what we initially thought, the part of us that tells us that whatever is going to happen and is meant to happen is going to happen anyway...that part gets to have fun and have a party and be happy that, in the Interim, we are the star of the show and we get to direct the flow of things.
And unlike Las Vegas, what happens in the Interim never, ever stays in the Interim, because one day, it becomes what was the Void.
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Saturday, October 26, 2013
Friday, October 25, 2013
Accommodation of the Void
THE VOID
The Void. Ugh!
Even thinking about it in terms that can be thought as even being semi-friendly makes a lot of our brains itch. We loathe a void. A void means that we are empty of something and that the void demands to be filled. What we are not realizing is that there is a reason for the void and once it is that we understand the reason, there will be no more void. Too many of us are not accepting this. Too many people believe that a void is a bad thing when in reality it is only a neutral thing and doesn't carry any negative energy until we choose to believe that it is something other than what it truly is, which is merely and only a void.
Nothing in existence did not first come from a void. A void is really only an empty space that is waiting for the right and matching energy to come through to it and fill it. The reason that there is a void created is because that which was there to begin with no longer fits and neither does the energy that used to be there.
It is very easy to become upset by the emptiness that we think is there that the Ego creates in making it seem as though SOMETHING needs to be there to fill the space of emptiness within. It is not that the void is there to make us feel like there is nothing there because, again, the void is just that - an empty space. It does not have any bearing on whether or not what is there when it is refilled is what we want there and when it comes right down to it all, the reason that we feel like it is an emptiness is NOT because of anything other than the cultural conditioning that we have always been subjected to.
The Culture of Having to Have
The Egotistical culture that we have all been witness and party to has taught the majority of us that in order to be whole we have to have things because the energy of having things creates a real energy of wealth. Wealth is not the same as abundance. The reason that we are so not at peace with the void is because we have, for a whole lot of generations, been conditioned to believe that when we are without something tangible and when we have no proof that there need not be any'thing' in the void that somehow, we are not complete. It is not that we need to fill the Void, but that we believe that without the void being full all the time that we are not whole. The truth is that without the void we cannot create the energy which fills the void. Ours is a culture that glorifies "having" instead of Being.
When we are Being, we are not in need of having. Yes, it is as simple as that. When we are just being and doing so in the manner that is doing what we do and getting along in life and not being needy to fill a void that does not yet require being full is when we are getting it essentially right. It is in the void that we are at our most creative, and when we are in creation mode it is at that time that we are being who and what we are meant to be. When we worry about the void not being full is when we are filling the void with negative energy. The negative energy creates within us a feeling of lack, and when we have a feeling of lack we feel the things that we desire the most that we are still not yet ready for.
The one thing that most of us do not realize is that when we are trying to fill the void with energy that is not the correct energy we are doing ourselves no big favors. We are not meant to fret over the void. The void is there and meant to be like a clean canvas upon which an artist creates a new masterpiece, or perhaps is the silence that is the beat between notes in a song. The void is meant as a piece with which we are turning the blackness that is the nothing into the colorful beauty that is ourselves. Some folks believe themselves to be lonely, and in that loneliness they also believe that they need to have someone else fill that void, when in reality, all that is happening is that the Soul-You is prepping that space for the right person and the right time and the right conditions in the sense that is "Soul." This same thing is also applicable to anything at all.
The problem with the void, which really is not a problem until someone else reminds us that there is nothing in the void (thereby making it a negative thing), and a lot of the time the someone who it is is our very selves. I know a few people who think that the void that has been created by them by the past actions of their former selves requires that whatever or whoever was there not very long ago is meant or supposed to be there now. What is not understood by these people is that there is a reason that we have created that void and the reason is always that we know we deserve better than what was there. This is not to say that the thing or the person that was there in the past is not somehow lesser in means of what is valuable or not valuable. It is to say that what they and their energy brought to us was meant to help create the void so that we could also and in turn create newness in the absence of that which was there before.
We have been taught to fear the nothingness that is the Void. We have been conditioned to believe that when there is essentially "no thing" that we have less. Sometimes it is the no-thing created that gives us more. We are scared to death, not of finding out about how little we are able to do or to have, but more, of our power. We are afraid to know that we have been powerful all along and we are afraid to face the nothing that is there because in the nothing we are responsible for creating the something that we want to know is there. What we are not aware of, at least from the ego point of view is that we are always creating in the no-thing. We are always making our lives be what they are, and it is when we have effectively been able to create the void that we become afraid and we are afraid because we know that we are magnificently and truly able to make the life that we see in our thoughts. We are scared to know what we are capable of, and in the void, rather than creating energy that is going to propel us forward and into the next stage of growth, we remain in the void with the idea that we have to fill it with tangibles, and the tangible is only the last part of the thing that is the Void. When the tangible is created, we create another void.
We are scared of the void because we are responsible for it. We are responsible for it and that terrifies us because we do not want to create the wrong thing but what we are not realizing, again, is that there is nothing that we can do within the void that is wrong if we create in that space that which is brought by Love. We are scared of the power that is the freedom that we paradoxically love and loathe. We love it because it means that we can be and do whatever we wish, and we loathe it because we believe that we have to fill it with something that will impress other people. This is not the truth. We are not meant to create for others, but with others, the life that we see in our heads and want with our souls.
We can see the Void as merely a void, as a space to create that which is not yet here and present and in manifest.
You can accommodate the void by not accommodating it but by rather and only accepting it as it is, or you can accommodate the pain that you have the option to fill the void with.
Either way, the Void's presence is proof of your power as a Creator...
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The Void. Ugh!
Even thinking about it in terms that can be thought as even being semi-friendly makes a lot of our brains itch. We loathe a void. A void means that we are empty of something and that the void demands to be filled. What we are not realizing is that there is a reason for the void and once it is that we understand the reason, there will be no more void. Too many of us are not accepting this. Too many people believe that a void is a bad thing when in reality it is only a neutral thing and doesn't carry any negative energy until we choose to believe that it is something other than what it truly is, which is merely and only a void.
Nothing in existence did not first come from a void. A void is really only an empty space that is waiting for the right and matching energy to come through to it and fill it. The reason that there is a void created is because that which was there to begin with no longer fits and neither does the energy that used to be there.
It is very easy to become upset by the emptiness that we think is there that the Ego creates in making it seem as though SOMETHING needs to be there to fill the space of emptiness within. It is not that the void is there to make us feel like there is nothing there because, again, the void is just that - an empty space. It does not have any bearing on whether or not what is there when it is refilled is what we want there and when it comes right down to it all, the reason that we feel like it is an emptiness is NOT because of anything other than the cultural conditioning that we have always been subjected to.
The Culture of Having to Have
The Egotistical culture that we have all been witness and party to has taught the majority of us that in order to be whole we have to have things because the energy of having things creates a real energy of wealth. Wealth is not the same as abundance. The reason that we are so not at peace with the void is because we have, for a whole lot of generations, been conditioned to believe that when we are without something tangible and when we have no proof that there need not be any'thing' in the void that somehow, we are not complete. It is not that we need to fill the Void, but that we believe that without the void being full all the time that we are not whole. The truth is that without the void we cannot create the energy which fills the void. Ours is a culture that glorifies "having" instead of Being.
When we are Being, we are not in need of having. Yes, it is as simple as that. When we are just being and doing so in the manner that is doing what we do and getting along in life and not being needy to fill a void that does not yet require being full is when we are getting it essentially right. It is in the void that we are at our most creative, and when we are in creation mode it is at that time that we are being who and what we are meant to be. When we worry about the void not being full is when we are filling the void with negative energy. The negative energy creates within us a feeling of lack, and when we have a feeling of lack we feel the things that we desire the most that we are still not yet ready for.
The one thing that most of us do not realize is that when we are trying to fill the void with energy that is not the correct energy we are doing ourselves no big favors. We are not meant to fret over the void. The void is there and meant to be like a clean canvas upon which an artist creates a new masterpiece, or perhaps is the silence that is the beat between notes in a song. The void is meant as a piece with which we are turning the blackness that is the nothing into the colorful beauty that is ourselves. Some folks believe themselves to be lonely, and in that loneliness they also believe that they need to have someone else fill that void, when in reality, all that is happening is that the Soul-You is prepping that space for the right person and the right time and the right conditions in the sense that is "Soul." This same thing is also applicable to anything at all.
The problem with the void, which really is not a problem until someone else reminds us that there is nothing in the void (thereby making it a negative thing), and a lot of the time the someone who it is is our very selves. I know a few people who think that the void that has been created by them by the past actions of their former selves requires that whatever or whoever was there not very long ago is meant or supposed to be there now. What is not understood by these people is that there is a reason that we have created that void and the reason is always that we know we deserve better than what was there. This is not to say that the thing or the person that was there in the past is not somehow lesser in means of what is valuable or not valuable. It is to say that what they and their energy brought to us was meant to help create the void so that we could also and in turn create newness in the absence of that which was there before.
We have been taught to fear the nothingness that is the Void. We have been conditioned to believe that when there is essentially "no thing" that we have less. Sometimes it is the no-thing created that gives us more. We are scared to death, not of finding out about how little we are able to do or to have, but more, of our power. We are afraid to know that we have been powerful all along and we are afraid to face the nothing that is there because in the nothing we are responsible for creating the something that we want to know is there. What we are not aware of, at least from the ego point of view is that we are always creating in the no-thing. We are always making our lives be what they are, and it is when we have effectively been able to create the void that we become afraid and we are afraid because we know that we are magnificently and truly able to make the life that we see in our thoughts. We are scared to know what we are capable of, and in the void, rather than creating energy that is going to propel us forward and into the next stage of growth, we remain in the void with the idea that we have to fill it with tangibles, and the tangible is only the last part of the thing that is the Void. When the tangible is created, we create another void.
We are scared of the void because we are responsible for it. We are responsible for it and that terrifies us because we do not want to create the wrong thing but what we are not realizing, again, is that there is nothing that we can do within the void that is wrong if we create in that space that which is brought by Love. We are scared of the power that is the freedom that we paradoxically love and loathe. We love it because it means that we can be and do whatever we wish, and we loathe it because we believe that we have to fill it with something that will impress other people. This is not the truth. We are not meant to create for others, but with others, the life that we see in our heads and want with our souls.
We can see the Void as merely a void, as a space to create that which is not yet here and present and in manifest.
You can accommodate the void by not accommodating it but by rather and only accepting it as it is, or you can accommodate the pain that you have the option to fill the void with.
Either way, the Void's presence is proof of your power as a Creator...
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Thursday, October 24, 2013
Sometimes, she talks to spiders
Fear is empowerment gestating
There is no one on the planet who does not know that I do not like spiders one little tiny bit. I mean, yes, if I have to tell you guys this then I will-I had a "pet" spider who the kids and I named Chuck and who used to live in the blinds above my kitchen sink for a very long time (in terms of spider time, that is) - it is not truly that I 'hate" spiders, but that I fear them immensely. The reason that I fear them immensely is that when looking at one, and in thinking about how big we humans are to something that small, at least in terms of spiders that the majority of us see cruising around in our reality, we can only think that some of those tiny little critters with 8 legs...some of them can kill us.
Painfully.
In the ugliest possible way.
Immediately.
I cannot stand them because I am scared of them. I do not want to suffer a deadly bite, and I do not want to go through the things that I have read about how deadly some spider venom is. However, over the years, because I have educated myself about the most deadly ones to my locality, I can, in my fear, also feel a bit of empowerment in that even as I cannot control the spiders, I can protect myself from them in just knowing what it is that I know of them and can act accordingly.
We forget sometimes that this is their world, too, and we forget that everything in the natural world is meant to teach us through whatever characteristics they hold that make us afraid of things that are not bigger than the nail on my big toe. I say that I hate spiders, but in reality I have great fear of them, of what some of them can do, but when I think in terms of relation to me and my smallness on the planet and how many other people are here and sharing the Cosmic web with us, I can see clearly some of the lessons that the spiders teach me.
What the spiders told me
Yes, there are some of you reading this who know that there is a joke behind my telling people that I "talk to the spiders," and in different circles it has different meaning and energy. One circle is, at this time, and those within that circle are likely beside themselves with laughter just knowing what that phrase means and that we all have that one memory of me (ahem) "talking with the spiders." Then there is another group for whom the phrase "What the spider told me" carries a much more important energy and one which is nourishing and healing and one, paradoxically, that tells me that rather than be only afraid of the power of the venom of some spiders, that I need to learn what lessons and teachings these creatures hold for me.
It is not the fear that they could kill me, but that I would not see them coming or perhaps would not feel it if I were sleeping, and that I could get bit by one. It is not really that they scare me so much as that they are really not very beautiful to look at but are, instead, very menacingly beautiful when really studied. And there is a reason that they are menacing and a reason that now, I realize, they are what they are and they do what they do, and yes, this is what the spiders told me.
They tell me that these very intricate creatures speak to the fear of everything that I cannot see or yet foretell. They tell me that even though my fears might seem small, that they are, as well, quite powerful. They tell me of my own Power and the creative nature of the Feminine Divine and they tell me that my own destiny is mine to create alone and that on my own I am and have the very power to be a Divine force in Life. They tell me that I Am dearly a creative dominatrix, but not where that word would apply but rather, out in the Light, unafraid to be as intimidating as I have been told I am but cannot see because I do not believe that I have an intimidating, neither threatening nature unless it is that I have, myself, been intimidated or feel the tiniest bit threatened. They tell me that, as this 'dominatrix' who is not what people think it is or I Am in the sense that anyone might be thinking, I am the very one who is creative in thought which allows me also to be creative in the manifestation that follows.
Spiders tell me that mine is a world that is completely within my power to create, that I alone must create it and that no one else will survive for me and that I must create the reality that I need to have so that, in tandem with my needs, the things that are desired will also be what is manifested. They tell me of the great depth of patience that I am possessed of, and of the things that I am meant to create, not only for me, but for those with whom I share my own world. They speak to me of secrecy and hidden places in the darkness and of the ugliness that creates the beauty in life. They tell me that my power is not in the things that I speak only, but those aspects which are completely and totally the darkness of me that can only tell the intimidating truth of me. They tell me that the reason that, for years, I have felt as though I have been hated, that really, I have not been hated, but rather, misunderstood.
Once we have the ability to look at the things that scare us we can begin to ask why they scare us and how they apply to who we are. Who we are is a collection of everything we have been through in our lives, of all of the events in our lives, good, bad, neutral, and it is the web of power that we create for ourselves through our fears and the things that broke our hearts and made us cry, brought us to our knees and made us beg for mercy in the silence that is the tears which roll down our faces in the middle of the night, staring in the darkness at the invisible ceiling that we know is there, and hoping that the faceless yet beautiful entity on the other side of that ceiling somehow will hear us, finally, and that somehow will see our broken state and will salve us so that we can save ourselves.
These critters will always be foreboding to me, will always carry a bit of a threatening intimidation for me, no matter what, but they will also always tell me that the reason that they are these things to me is also that in many peoples' eyes, I am like the spider who showed up one day, revealed the fear that lurks within and through the venomous nature that is the intimidation that others perceive to be there, I am able to make different the thought about people who, like me, know things before we are meant to, know your whole life story and exactly who you are at that moment in time, for real, and who, by my very nature, even as I have a darkness in me that is stinging and hurtful, am really only scary until you realize through learning about who I am for real, that I am anything but.
All this I learned while in conversation with the Spiders....
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There is no one on the planet who does not know that I do not like spiders one little tiny bit. I mean, yes, if I have to tell you guys this then I will-I had a "pet" spider who the kids and I named Chuck and who used to live in the blinds above my kitchen sink for a very long time (in terms of spider time, that is) - it is not truly that I 'hate" spiders, but that I fear them immensely. The reason that I fear them immensely is that when looking at one, and in thinking about how big we humans are to something that small, at least in terms of spiders that the majority of us see cruising around in our reality, we can only think that some of those tiny little critters with 8 legs...some of them can kill us.
Painfully.
In the ugliest possible way.
Immediately.
I cannot stand them because I am scared of them. I do not want to suffer a deadly bite, and I do not want to go through the things that I have read about how deadly some spider venom is. However, over the years, because I have educated myself about the most deadly ones to my locality, I can, in my fear, also feel a bit of empowerment in that even as I cannot control the spiders, I can protect myself from them in just knowing what it is that I know of them and can act accordingly.
We forget sometimes that this is their world, too, and we forget that everything in the natural world is meant to teach us through whatever characteristics they hold that make us afraid of things that are not bigger than the nail on my big toe. I say that I hate spiders, but in reality I have great fear of them, of what some of them can do, but when I think in terms of relation to me and my smallness on the planet and how many other people are here and sharing the Cosmic web with us, I can see clearly some of the lessons that the spiders teach me.
What the spiders told me
Yes, there are some of you reading this who know that there is a joke behind my telling people that I "talk to the spiders," and in different circles it has different meaning and energy. One circle is, at this time, and those within that circle are likely beside themselves with laughter just knowing what that phrase means and that we all have that one memory of me (ahem) "talking with the spiders." Then there is another group for whom the phrase "What the spider told me" carries a much more important energy and one which is nourishing and healing and one, paradoxically, that tells me that rather than be only afraid of the power of the venom of some spiders, that I need to learn what lessons and teachings these creatures hold for me.
It is not the fear that they could kill me, but that I would not see them coming or perhaps would not feel it if I were sleeping, and that I could get bit by one. It is not really that they scare me so much as that they are really not very beautiful to look at but are, instead, very menacingly beautiful when really studied. And there is a reason that they are menacing and a reason that now, I realize, they are what they are and they do what they do, and yes, this is what the spiders told me.
They tell me that these very intricate creatures speak to the fear of everything that I cannot see or yet foretell. They tell me that even though my fears might seem small, that they are, as well, quite powerful. They tell me of my own Power and the creative nature of the Feminine Divine and they tell me that my own destiny is mine to create alone and that on my own I am and have the very power to be a Divine force in Life. They tell me that I Am dearly a creative dominatrix, but not where that word would apply but rather, out in the Light, unafraid to be as intimidating as I have been told I am but cannot see because I do not believe that I have an intimidating, neither threatening nature unless it is that I have, myself, been intimidated or feel the tiniest bit threatened. They tell me that, as this 'dominatrix' who is not what people think it is or I Am in the sense that anyone might be thinking, I am the very one who is creative in thought which allows me also to be creative in the manifestation that follows.
Spiders tell me that mine is a world that is completely within my power to create, that I alone must create it and that no one else will survive for me and that I must create the reality that I need to have so that, in tandem with my needs, the things that are desired will also be what is manifested. They tell me of the great depth of patience that I am possessed of, and of the things that I am meant to create, not only for me, but for those with whom I share my own world. They speak to me of secrecy and hidden places in the darkness and of the ugliness that creates the beauty in life. They tell me that my power is not in the things that I speak only, but those aspects which are completely and totally the darkness of me that can only tell the intimidating truth of me. They tell me that the reason that, for years, I have felt as though I have been hated, that really, I have not been hated, but rather, misunderstood.
Once we have the ability to look at the things that scare us we can begin to ask why they scare us and how they apply to who we are. Who we are is a collection of everything we have been through in our lives, of all of the events in our lives, good, bad, neutral, and it is the web of power that we create for ourselves through our fears and the things that broke our hearts and made us cry, brought us to our knees and made us beg for mercy in the silence that is the tears which roll down our faces in the middle of the night, staring in the darkness at the invisible ceiling that we know is there, and hoping that the faceless yet beautiful entity on the other side of that ceiling somehow will hear us, finally, and that somehow will see our broken state and will salve us so that we can save ourselves.
These critters will always be foreboding to me, will always carry a bit of a threatening intimidation for me, no matter what, but they will also always tell me that the reason that they are these things to me is also that in many peoples' eyes, I am like the spider who showed up one day, revealed the fear that lurks within and through the venomous nature that is the intimidation that others perceive to be there, I am able to make different the thought about people who, like me, know things before we are meant to, know your whole life story and exactly who you are at that moment in time, for real, and who, by my very nature, even as I have a darkness in me that is stinging and hurtful, am really only scary until you realize through learning about who I am for real, that I am anything but.
All this I learned while in conversation with the Spiders....
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Monday, October 21, 2013
The Universal Law of Discipline
Unbridled, but Disciplined - this is how we should be, but this is how we are not
You need to take a look at your damned self and know that you are so not the cat's okole that you think you are
Get over yourself already, seriously. There are a whole lot of people on this planet who seem to think that they are just THE cat's ass and you are not. If you were, you would not need to be out in the world and telling people that you are the cat's ass. The "cat's ass" is that person who thinks that they are just the best at everything, who does not screw up, who thinks they know better and more than most do. I am sorry, geniuses, but there are no people on the planet who are able to not screw up. Period. You are not that great at a whole lot of things and you KNOW you are not, because we all know we are not all great at everything that we do. We have been great at a whole lot of things, all of us has been, but we cannot now nor ever say that we have always done everything perfectly.
The difference between excellence and perfection
No one is perfect, but everyone has the opportunity at being their most excellent at anything they do, and all it takes is being focused. Being able to focus on anything takes discipline. Parents know that teaching very young children not to be distracted is not an easy job and it requires discipline on both the part of the parent and the child. The parent has to be disciplined enough to not lose their patience with their kid as they learn to focus, and the young child has to not lose focus on learning whatever it is that he or she is learning, and all of disciplined behaviors take TIME and PATIENCE and a LOT of screwing up, over and over and over again until everything that you are trying to learn is at its best and highest level of excellence that it can be.
No one can ever be perfect. Perfection is meant for those of us who have gone on to the next consciousness, and also for those who like being made crazy by not wanting to believe that they are not perfect. There are a LOT OF PEOPLE on this planet who think they are perfect, and more who, if you tell them that they are not, will end up coming unglued with you because you had the guavas to say it. This is why discipline in learning your own soul's mission and purpose are SO important. If you already think you are so perfect, and then someone else comes along and tells you otherwise, and you get ass hurt because of it, that might be a sign that you already know the truth and the truth is that you know that you are not all the cat's ass that you think you are.
You are anything but perfect, really
Perfect is boring, pretentious and snooty. Perfect is someone trying to hard to be better than anyone else, but the truth is that no one is better than me, or you, or anyone, really. The pursuit of perfection will drive a person to the brink of madness and the pursuit of perfection is something that we are taught by someone else, usually our parents.More than that...perfect is a lie, because no one is and no one can be truly perfect. To be perfect means that you are without flaws, and last I checked we all have the ability to screw up. Without the ability to screw up, then and only then are any one of us on this planet perfect.
Perfection and excellence in the things that we do are different. We can hope for a perfect outcome of something, but to get to that outcome, the conditions must be excellent for it. We can be perfectly matched with people who could help us with the things that we do in our lives and in our work, but we, ourselves, are not now and nor will any one of us be truly perfect unless we are talking in terms of being imperfectly perfect. Then we are as perfect as we can imperfectly be.
To be excellent, you just have to learn to focus, and to learn to focus takes discipline
Humans are the most undisciplined group on the planet. We are this way because we have the ability to reason, and the ability to reason makes it so that we have the option to be, or not be, a douche bag perfectionist. No one taught or teaches a perfectionist how to not see what is not there - they only see what is not perfect and already there, and they judge it. This is the reality of someone who thinks that they are perfect. Perfection means that you have no flaws and that who you are is the standard that everyone else must live up to or be told is not good enough. The mark of a perfectionist is the same one that says that yours is good, but they know someone else's that is better, and normally it is theirs.
Yet, to be excellent (yes...hello to all of my San Dimas, California friends !! Bill and Ted RULE !!) requires diligence, the sort that it takes to get the job done. To be able to discipline one's self to that point of being able to focus on one thing at a time, knowing that all of the 'things' involved in the entirety of the whole, no matter what it is, will benefit. Yes, you will screw up, but no one doesn't. You will make a fool out of yourself, but no one doesn't. You will do a whole lot that is less than attractive and you will be horribly and terribly dismayed at the idea that you are not perfect. You will think that the only person in the world who is as big a loser as you think you are is you and that you are alone in that loser energy. Lemme tell you this much, you are not a loser if you are trying your hardest, and you are not a loser if you know you have done your best and have done all that you are capable of doing. You are not anything that you know you have never been on the negative side of things as long as you know you are on the right Path to wherever it is that you are meant to be.
No, you do not now nor have you ever had to be perfect. Perfect can not ever be, because perfect means that we have to die from this life time, and we - the all of us - we have a whole lot of work to do still.
The Universal Law of Discipline makes us have to go from the coal, which is rough and wild and harsh and dirty, to the gem contained within, which is brilliant and shiny and gorgeous. We have to make it through the fires of refinement, also known as the hard times, in order for us to become the person who we are meant to be.Heartaches hurt us, but they teach us, and adversity makes us know that there are times when we have to think quickly and be on top of things.
I Love You All !!
ROX
You need to take a look at your damned self and know that you are so not the cat's okole that you think you are
Get over yourself already, seriously. There are a whole lot of people on this planet who seem to think that they are just THE cat's ass and you are not. If you were, you would not need to be out in the world and telling people that you are the cat's ass. The "cat's ass" is that person who thinks that they are just the best at everything, who does not screw up, who thinks they know better and more than most do. I am sorry, geniuses, but there are no people on the planet who are able to not screw up. Period. You are not that great at a whole lot of things and you KNOW you are not, because we all know we are not all great at everything that we do. We have been great at a whole lot of things, all of us has been, but we cannot now nor ever say that we have always done everything perfectly.
The difference between excellence and perfection
No one is perfect, but everyone has the opportunity at being their most excellent at anything they do, and all it takes is being focused. Being able to focus on anything takes discipline. Parents know that teaching very young children not to be distracted is not an easy job and it requires discipline on both the part of the parent and the child. The parent has to be disciplined enough to not lose their patience with their kid as they learn to focus, and the young child has to not lose focus on learning whatever it is that he or she is learning, and all of disciplined behaviors take TIME and PATIENCE and a LOT of screwing up, over and over and over again until everything that you are trying to learn is at its best and highest level of excellence that it can be.
No one can ever be perfect. Perfection is meant for those of us who have gone on to the next consciousness, and also for those who like being made crazy by not wanting to believe that they are not perfect. There are a LOT OF PEOPLE on this planet who think they are perfect, and more who, if you tell them that they are not, will end up coming unglued with you because you had the guavas to say it. This is why discipline in learning your own soul's mission and purpose are SO important. If you already think you are so perfect, and then someone else comes along and tells you otherwise, and you get ass hurt because of it, that might be a sign that you already know the truth and the truth is that you know that you are not all the cat's ass that you think you are.
You are anything but perfect, really
Perfect is boring, pretentious and snooty. Perfect is someone trying to hard to be better than anyone else, but the truth is that no one is better than me, or you, or anyone, really. The pursuit of perfection will drive a person to the brink of madness and the pursuit of perfection is something that we are taught by someone else, usually our parents.More than that...perfect is a lie, because no one is and no one can be truly perfect. To be perfect means that you are without flaws, and last I checked we all have the ability to screw up. Without the ability to screw up, then and only then are any one of us on this planet perfect.
Perfection and excellence in the things that we do are different. We can hope for a perfect outcome of something, but to get to that outcome, the conditions must be excellent for it. We can be perfectly matched with people who could help us with the things that we do in our lives and in our work, but we, ourselves, are not now and nor will any one of us be truly perfect unless we are talking in terms of being imperfectly perfect. Then we are as perfect as we can imperfectly be.
To be excellent, you just have to learn to focus, and to learn to focus takes discipline
Humans are the most undisciplined group on the planet. We are this way because we have the ability to reason, and the ability to reason makes it so that we have the option to be, or not be, a douche bag perfectionist. No one taught or teaches a perfectionist how to not see what is not there - they only see what is not perfect and already there, and they judge it. This is the reality of someone who thinks that they are perfect. Perfection means that you have no flaws and that who you are is the standard that everyone else must live up to or be told is not good enough. The mark of a perfectionist is the same one that says that yours is good, but they know someone else's that is better, and normally it is theirs.
Yet, to be excellent (yes...hello to all of my San Dimas, California friends !! Bill and Ted RULE !!) requires diligence, the sort that it takes to get the job done. To be able to discipline one's self to that point of being able to focus on one thing at a time, knowing that all of the 'things' involved in the entirety of the whole, no matter what it is, will benefit. Yes, you will screw up, but no one doesn't. You will make a fool out of yourself, but no one doesn't. You will do a whole lot that is less than attractive and you will be horribly and terribly dismayed at the idea that you are not perfect. You will think that the only person in the world who is as big a loser as you think you are is you and that you are alone in that loser energy. Lemme tell you this much, you are not a loser if you are trying your hardest, and you are not a loser if you know you have done your best and have done all that you are capable of doing. You are not anything that you know you have never been on the negative side of things as long as you know you are on the right Path to wherever it is that you are meant to be.
No, you do not now nor have you ever had to be perfect. Perfect can not ever be, because perfect means that we have to die from this life time, and we - the all of us - we have a whole lot of work to do still.
The Universal Law of Discipline makes us have to go from the coal, which is rough and wild and harsh and dirty, to the gem contained within, which is brilliant and shiny and gorgeous. We have to make it through the fires of refinement, also known as the hard times, in order for us to become the person who we are meant to be.Heartaches hurt us, but they teach us, and adversity makes us know that there are times when we have to think quickly and be on top of things.
I Love You All !!
ROX
Sunday, October 20, 2013
A needed break from the Universal Laws of Spirit.
It is time, you folks...
Kokua me, yeah?
I needed to take a break from the teachings of the Universal Laws for a moment. While I will not divulge to anyone what my day was like - it was not great, not bad, but there was a lot of heavy, negative emotions that I went through, and yes, all of it regarding the collective heartache that is the soul of the majority of people who are my age, who were raised as though your backyard was Turtle Bay or some other awesome Hawaiian town, even if it wasn't, I am calling on you all, right this moment. I noticed something about my thoughts today, and it was all about my kids, and a lot of stuff came to the surface for me today. Yesterday, I was talking with Danni about someone we both know whose issues are all tied to the people who we each grew up with. You see, and this is not saying that my parents were awful...there is a difference between awful and what was my ..."vanilla plain" life, unless I imagined it in my own head all that time and just dearly adjusted.
Maybe I am way off, and I know that there are a lot of you right now hating on me, acting like I was talkin' stink about your Mom Guys, but I am not. What I am about to say is the truth, and it is the truth that not too many of us can deny. Our childhoods, while they were fun because it is fun being a Hawaiian kid and growing up with all your uku-billion cousins - all dat small keed time stuffs...yeaaaaah, brah...dassit...you know it!! Come with me, let's go, you folks, all the way back to our childhoods, with the old Hawaiian ways and the old Hawaiian Rules, that, while I will always have respect for rules, I cannot respect the idea that who we are, for many years, has been based, not on a mutually earned respect between the children who we were, and the adults who used to be our parents. Now, I am not - NOT saying that they did a bad job, because the other side of what I am going to write about next is awesome.
But I will leave that "awesome" til later on in this writing. Right now, I do not want you to think that I am chewing anyone out. I am reminding us all that we do not have to use intimidation, you know..."dirty kine leekenz..." the kine leekenz you get wit' one komoboko slippah...red...size 12... I didn't realize when I was a little girl that it was the energy of respect "earned" from scaring the daylights out of us was what I always felt. As a child, I always felt the feelings that other people had for me. I always knew who I could trust and who I could not, but because of the blood relation, I was forced to trust people who I knew better than to.I have prevented it with my children, and people KNOW to NOT GO THERE, because I do not and WILL NOT hit my kids. They are good kids. They deserve my Respect and I deserve Theirs. It is a mutually agreeable energy and Love between my children and I.
I know that they know that I am never going to turn my back on them, that I am never going to try to make it seem as though what I have to go through is because of them, because it isn't. I have raised my three, thus far, to be the best them that they can be, no matter what.
I was, like many of us Hawaiian raised children, while we are who we are, and proudly so, and they taught us that pride, I will say that I notice that a whole lot of my island friends, and especially my cousins and I, we chose to do it different this time. When it came to be our turn to raise the children, to live up to our collective Kuleana, we did not fail the 'Aumakua. Our Ancestors, the Elders, The Wise Ones, the Gods, The Guides...my beloved Nana...(I Love You!)...we listened to them. We took from that collective harshness that was good leekenz, and we turned that tragedy into Love. I don't know about you guys, but I do not recall being able to describe my most vivid memories of this fearful respect as ever being anything other than something to make my little soul want to run and hide. I can see every single one of these people who, when I was a little girl, threatened to hurt me, physically, by "geeving" me "leekenz wit' da' spoon/slippah/belt.:..whatever was there. There was even one time when I witnessed someone - an adult - ball of their fist and punch her kid in front of a bunch of us other kids. That ain't cool. That's the kind of people who a whole lot of us were raised with.
The sort who scared the shit out of us, just so that we would "Respect" them. I don't know about you, but I think I will take the actual respect that I get from my kids, than the sort that collectively, we have, many of us, for a lot of way too old school kanakas who are in their winter time now who did this. While I will not divulge the name, I can only guess what the hell else went on when I was not around. I saw a lot when I was around. I heard a lot of threats and I heard a lot of name calling and I heard a lot of things that no kid should have to hear.
I am not the only one, either, and in many cases, a lot of us still use this sort of ...whatever the hell you want to call this...it won't matter, because it is abuse, period.
The jokes about "gon' get gooood leekenz," and my favorite, when another family member would laugh when he found out about what happened to me, and made comments about the "two carnation leis around the eyes." And I dare you to NOT try to think about it, or that fucker, now that I said that, about a carnation lei. Yup, this is the other kind of thing that we all grew up with - adults who wanted respect but were like this, all the time, and bullying us and making us cry. It was like they enjoyed it, all of them. And please, don't sit there and act like I am the only one who felt or feels like this, because I am not. It is a sick joke to think that most of the time we were told that this was normal and acceptable and it is not. GENERATIONS of island people have made abuse, using religion and whatever the hell could be used, acceptable, and in some peoples' minds - humorous. It was not humorous to me to hear it. It was not humorous to me to be afraid of these people. It is not humorous now to me that there are people with whom I share blood who look back and laugh.
It is not funny, but it is sad. It is sad because this was acceptable. This was acceptable because until now almost all of us were afraid to stand up and say something.I am not scared anymore. I cannot speak for us all, but I could and likely am saying the words that they don't want to say. I am not scared. I was terrified as a kid but as an adult it is my Kuleana to the children who are my blood, and, as well, all of the other children of my heritage, to show them that the peaceful way is the better way. I am angry. I look back and see that there were a lot of things in my childhood that were very dearly abusive and that I am not the only one for whom this is the truth. There are a lot of eyes on this right now, a lot of Maoli eyes, and there are some who are hating these words, possibly me, too, and there are those eyes which are like mine.
Always wet. Always thinking that you will never be good enough, that you could have done a better job. The emails that I receive daily tell me this, that I am not the only one, and asking me to address it. Here it is.We grow up being told to value our family, and then we grow up into these adults who are angry and don't know why because the truth is that we know we have nothing to be angry about that we can do anything about. That is where the grand dividing line is. My generation of Hawaiian parents is NOT scared to change for the better. We are not afraid to not trust our kids enough to be who they are while still respecting us. We are not scared to know that they Love us, that they Love us without being afraid of us. We are not afraid to be different than the generations which preceded our own.
I was brought up to hear phrases like "I don't care who says what, but in my house, you will respect me, because I command respect." Wow! Those are some REALLY BIG Words which are loaded down with a VERY HEAVY ENERGY. I know that I am not the only one right this moment who is feeling that old, tight, harsh energy, because you are thinking about the same things that I am, and that means you have a "Wild Auntie" or two and they scared the shit outta you. Well, guess what? There is a NEW wild auntie in town, and she loves rock and roll, and she loves to eat burgers, and she likes being good to her kids and to her nieces and nephews. If I could go back to all those times that I was afraid, that I felt small in the spirit, that I was so nervous all the time at screwing up and fearing being called "lolo" (stupid), or something as equally soul crushing as it is to feel like if WE screwed up (you know...were KIDS????) that somehow, it was because we were STUPID and NOT CHILDREN WHO WERE STILL LEARNING. I heard "you will eat what I fixed and put in front of you and like it or you will starve," a whole lot. This is not getting real respect, because years later, when we are all adults at the same time, we look back and realize, a lot of us that is, that we were all somehow scared to disrespect.
This is what a whole lot of us went through, and I have heard stories that break my heart about so many other things that are so much more terrible than what I recall and what I am being asked to write about. But we did it, you guys...our generation, we did it. We broke out of that cycle, at least a lot of us have. And it is a beautiful thing, indeed.
I am reaching out to all of the rest of the Island Chains, from Old Hawai'i Nei, all the way down into the lower parts of the planet, to the Maori tribes of New Zealand. We are the generation of parents who have been, for twenty years now, rebuilding what it means to be a parent who's children do not need to respect them for fear of being hurt if they are not afraid. Our kids are not scared of us. This is a good thing. We have brought into this awareness the beauty that is Ohana without the ugliness that is placing fear into people.
There is no need for that at all.
Please, Kokua Me, and remember our Kuleana that is Aloha and not fear. Fear is not respect, and the respect caused by fear is not the truth of respect. It is the respect that we have to have for all of Life, even and especially the lives which are the ones which we brought to this planet. They are ours to raise and then to send out, not as example of who we are through them, but more, as the product of Love through the Soul come to life. They are ours to Love, not to make afraid of us.
To all of you Kanaka Parents, Island parents, who see your own childhood here in these words, remember that fear and know that the reason you let it go is because you believe that this is the reality that is respect. No, it is not. It is not your truth, but someone else's.
You have the option to change it, and, as well, you own family history...
Think about 'em, yeah?
I LOVE YOU ALL
ROX
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Kokua me, yeah?
I needed to take a break from the teachings of the Universal Laws for a moment. While I will not divulge to anyone what my day was like - it was not great, not bad, but there was a lot of heavy, negative emotions that I went through, and yes, all of it regarding the collective heartache that is the soul of the majority of people who are my age, who were raised as though your backyard was Turtle Bay or some other awesome Hawaiian town, even if it wasn't, I am calling on you all, right this moment. I noticed something about my thoughts today, and it was all about my kids, and a lot of stuff came to the surface for me today. Yesterday, I was talking with Danni about someone we both know whose issues are all tied to the people who we each grew up with. You see, and this is not saying that my parents were awful...there is a difference between awful and what was my ..."vanilla plain" life, unless I imagined it in my own head all that time and just dearly adjusted.
Maybe I am way off, and I know that there are a lot of you right now hating on me, acting like I was talkin' stink about your Mom Guys, but I am not. What I am about to say is the truth, and it is the truth that not too many of us can deny. Our childhoods, while they were fun because it is fun being a Hawaiian kid and growing up with all your uku-billion cousins - all dat small keed time stuffs...yeaaaaah, brah...dassit...you know it!! Come with me, let's go, you folks, all the way back to our childhoods, with the old Hawaiian ways and the old Hawaiian Rules, that, while I will always have respect for rules, I cannot respect the idea that who we are, for many years, has been based, not on a mutually earned respect between the children who we were, and the adults who used to be our parents. Now, I am not - NOT saying that they did a bad job, because the other side of what I am going to write about next is awesome.
But I will leave that "awesome" til later on in this writing. Right now, I do not want you to think that I am chewing anyone out. I am reminding us all that we do not have to use intimidation, you know..."dirty kine leekenz..." the kine leekenz you get wit' one komoboko slippah...red...size 12... I didn't realize when I was a little girl that it was the energy of respect "earned" from scaring the daylights out of us was what I always felt. As a child, I always felt the feelings that other people had for me. I always knew who I could trust and who I could not, but because of the blood relation, I was forced to trust people who I knew better than to.I have prevented it with my children, and people KNOW to NOT GO THERE, because I do not and WILL NOT hit my kids. They are good kids. They deserve my Respect and I deserve Theirs. It is a mutually agreeable energy and Love between my children and I.
I know that they know that I am never going to turn my back on them, that I am never going to try to make it seem as though what I have to go through is because of them, because it isn't. I have raised my three, thus far, to be the best them that they can be, no matter what.
I was, like many of us Hawaiian raised children, while we are who we are, and proudly so, and they taught us that pride, I will say that I notice that a whole lot of my island friends, and especially my cousins and I, we chose to do it different this time. When it came to be our turn to raise the children, to live up to our collective Kuleana, we did not fail the 'Aumakua. Our Ancestors, the Elders, The Wise Ones, the Gods, The Guides...my beloved Nana...(I Love You!)...we listened to them. We took from that collective harshness that was good leekenz, and we turned that tragedy into Love. I don't know about you guys, but I do not recall being able to describe my most vivid memories of this fearful respect as ever being anything other than something to make my little soul want to run and hide. I can see every single one of these people who, when I was a little girl, threatened to hurt me, physically, by "geeving" me "leekenz wit' da' spoon/slippah/belt.:..whatever was there. There was even one time when I witnessed someone - an adult - ball of their fist and punch her kid in front of a bunch of us other kids. That ain't cool. That's the kind of people who a whole lot of us were raised with.
The sort who scared the shit out of us, just so that we would "Respect" them. I don't know about you, but I think I will take the actual respect that I get from my kids, than the sort that collectively, we have, many of us, for a lot of way too old school kanakas who are in their winter time now who did this. While I will not divulge the name, I can only guess what the hell else went on when I was not around. I saw a lot when I was around. I heard a lot of threats and I heard a lot of name calling and I heard a lot of things that no kid should have to hear.
I am not the only one, either, and in many cases, a lot of us still use this sort of ...whatever the hell you want to call this...it won't matter, because it is abuse, period.
The jokes about "gon' get gooood leekenz," and my favorite, when another family member would laugh when he found out about what happened to me, and made comments about the "two carnation leis around the eyes." And I dare you to NOT try to think about it, or that fucker, now that I said that, about a carnation lei. Yup, this is the other kind of thing that we all grew up with - adults who wanted respect but were like this, all the time, and bullying us and making us cry. It was like they enjoyed it, all of them. And please, don't sit there and act like I am the only one who felt or feels like this, because I am not. It is a sick joke to think that most of the time we were told that this was normal and acceptable and it is not. GENERATIONS of island people have made abuse, using religion and whatever the hell could be used, acceptable, and in some peoples' minds - humorous. It was not humorous to me to hear it. It was not humorous to me to be afraid of these people. It is not humorous now to me that there are people with whom I share blood who look back and laugh.
It is not funny, but it is sad. It is sad because this was acceptable. This was acceptable because until now almost all of us were afraid to stand up and say something.I am not scared anymore. I cannot speak for us all, but I could and likely am saying the words that they don't want to say. I am not scared. I was terrified as a kid but as an adult it is my Kuleana to the children who are my blood, and, as well, all of the other children of my heritage, to show them that the peaceful way is the better way. I am angry. I look back and see that there were a lot of things in my childhood that were very dearly abusive and that I am not the only one for whom this is the truth. There are a lot of eyes on this right now, a lot of Maoli eyes, and there are some who are hating these words, possibly me, too, and there are those eyes which are like mine.
Always wet. Always thinking that you will never be good enough, that you could have done a better job. The emails that I receive daily tell me this, that I am not the only one, and asking me to address it. Here it is.We grow up being told to value our family, and then we grow up into these adults who are angry and don't know why because the truth is that we know we have nothing to be angry about that we can do anything about. That is where the grand dividing line is. My generation of Hawaiian parents is NOT scared to change for the better. We are not afraid to not trust our kids enough to be who they are while still respecting us. We are not scared to know that they Love us, that they Love us without being afraid of us. We are not afraid to be different than the generations which preceded our own.
I was brought up to hear phrases like "I don't care who says what, but in my house, you will respect me, because I command respect." Wow! Those are some REALLY BIG Words which are loaded down with a VERY HEAVY ENERGY. I know that I am not the only one right this moment who is feeling that old, tight, harsh energy, because you are thinking about the same things that I am, and that means you have a "Wild Auntie" or two and they scared the shit outta you. Well, guess what? There is a NEW wild auntie in town, and she loves rock and roll, and she loves to eat burgers, and she likes being good to her kids and to her nieces and nephews. If I could go back to all those times that I was afraid, that I felt small in the spirit, that I was so nervous all the time at screwing up and fearing being called "lolo" (stupid), or something as equally soul crushing as it is to feel like if WE screwed up (you know...were KIDS????) that somehow, it was because we were STUPID and NOT CHILDREN WHO WERE STILL LEARNING. I heard "you will eat what I fixed and put in front of you and like it or you will starve," a whole lot. This is not getting real respect, because years later, when we are all adults at the same time, we look back and realize, a lot of us that is, that we were all somehow scared to disrespect.
This is what a whole lot of us went through, and I have heard stories that break my heart about so many other things that are so much more terrible than what I recall and what I am being asked to write about. But we did it, you guys...our generation, we did it. We broke out of that cycle, at least a lot of us have. And it is a beautiful thing, indeed.
I am reaching out to all of the rest of the Island Chains, from Old Hawai'i Nei, all the way down into the lower parts of the planet, to the Maori tribes of New Zealand. We are the generation of parents who have been, for twenty years now, rebuilding what it means to be a parent who's children do not need to respect them for fear of being hurt if they are not afraid. Our kids are not scared of us. This is a good thing. We have brought into this awareness the beauty that is Ohana without the ugliness that is placing fear into people.
There is no need for that at all.
Please, Kokua Me, and remember our Kuleana that is Aloha and not fear. Fear is not respect, and the respect caused by fear is not the truth of respect. It is the respect that we have to have for all of Life, even and especially the lives which are the ones which we brought to this planet. They are ours to raise and then to send out, not as example of who we are through them, but more, as the product of Love through the Soul come to life. They are ours to Love, not to make afraid of us.
To all of you Kanaka Parents, Island parents, who see your own childhood here in these words, remember that fear and know that the reason you let it go is because you believe that this is the reality that is respect. No, it is not. It is not your truth, but someone else's.
You have the option to change it, and, as well, you own family history...
Think about 'em, yeah?
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There is no need for them to feel like they are meant to be scared.
No Child Should ever be scared all the time.
Thursday, October 17, 2013
The Universal Law of Detachment
Detachment isn't a negative thing until you make it that way
Detachment. We hear about it and talk about it a whole lot in the world of the weird, as much as we dislike it, the act and the art of letting go of the end result that we see in our heads, that our Ego wants but that our soul knows is not always what we see in our minds. What we see with our mind's eyes is, as I mentioned in a blog about desire, only symbolic, most of the time, and that when we see what we see there it is only indicative of the energy of what we see symbolizes for us. With my mind's eyes, I see myself, really, debating with a certain "civil rights activist" whose last name has made me refer to said person as "The Sharpy." Laugh all you want, but I see it, because that is the thing that I most so enjoy - making it known to people that perhaps their ideal of what is "equal" needs to include more than just the simple hatred that someone plants in the world and makes the reality of certain people be what it is. If I never get to that televised debate I will not die, but I can imagine that it is there, and I can draw from that energy that which I will need to further my own cause, which is really only the world getting a clue about getting along and getting what we all need so that we can all collectively get on with life in a harmonious way.
Then there is that other thing that I see with my mind's eyes, the one that looks like a sprawling home on a couple of acres of land, not so that I can host big fat gnarly parties (okay maybe so I can do that but who is counting, really?) but more, so that I can finish raising my children in the manner that is being gentle to the earth, the manner that is learning to respect life and living, the manner which is helping others if they can, and the manner that is an energetic exchange with Mother Gaia as she helps us raise our own food and live off of the land that is ours, regardless if the paperwork, the deed, has a landlord's name on it.
And still, there is more than just those two things, but those are pretty big things, and those two things mean a lot to me, and the truth is that I will be more disappointed if I keep the thought in my head that I MUST have those things in the manner that I see them or else I will be prone to having large, adult-sized two year old tantrums. Had this been last year, right around August, and while it was that there was a whole lot of new change coming into my life and while it was that there were people coming into my life as there were also people leaving it, the one thing that I learned throughout this last year and a few months is that in order to have what we need, we must detach from what we see, because if we stay focused only on that one thing, we will be disappointed at the end result because we were not open and neither willing to trust that Spirit has us well protected in Her hands, that who we are depends fully on how much we trust what we see there as being only the symbol of what it is that we are desirous of, and that most of all, Spirit, in all of Her grandness and glory, never does not Know what She is doing, namely when it is on our behalf.
And it is ALWAYS on our behalf, no matter how crappy the things that you are going through are. Never in your life will you have the permanent experience of life being crappy at all times and at a constant. This is called being attached to what you are going through right now, and this is also part of the Universal Law of Detachment.
Letting Go
Letting go is never what a person who is not familiar with the ways of Spirit, the ways of the Soul within us each, understands because to them, being new, spiritually, to all of these things and terms and such, letting go of anything means that they are losing something, and to a point they are correct.
The thing that they are losing is the better chance at being disappointed in the outcome, and a lot of the time, the outcome that we see in our heads cannot compare in terms of way coolness to the actuality that is on its way to us. This is what I mean when I say that we cannot outdo Spirit, because She never does not know what She is doing. Spirit, the Great Mother, Grandmother Spirit, Na 'Aumakau....no matter what you refer to the Great Big Universe as Being...Spirit ALWAYS KNOWS AND DOES BEST, which is why we need to learn to trust. Not only in Spirit, but in ourselves.
When we can trust that we are good enough to have the things that are symbolized by what it is that we see with our mind's eyes, and we can trust that Spirit always has our end result in mind is when the fun happens. Really. It might not always seem so, but this is the truth. When we are hurting and confused, yes, that is Spirit, proverbially trying hard to make it gentle, the cutting of the teeth of the Soul through trial. When we are angry, again, Spirit, teaching us like a good parent teaches their young ones to not run out into the street to chase a ball but to let the passing cars go by and then retrieve the ball so as not to get hit by one of those passing cars. When we can believe within ourselves that we are good enough to receive what it is that is symbolized by our mind's eyes, that which we dearly desire and when we can let go of the symbol of the picture of the thing that we want that is representing the energy that we are in need of, and when we can let go of expectation and can deal with the thing that we see possibly not being the only way it can be, but better, and when we can just take it all in, relax and chill and go on about our lives, this is when we are allowing, when we are seeing the law of detachment in action.
The Universal Law of Detachment is the fuel which starts the fire
Believe it or not, it is not only the energy that is the Love behind the thought that produces the symbol that is our greatest desires, but also, it is the letting go of outcome, of anything in the past, of everything that hurt us and that still hurts us and that we think we cannot bear to be without. We expend so much energy toward resisting our evolution that we are too tired to be able to practice the art of letting go. And it is, indeed, an art and one that must be learned. We learned as children to depend on people, because we had to. Then when we started becoming teens we went out and formed bonds that taught us how to let go of things back then when our friends hurt us. When we became adults we are then our own greatest proof that letting go is needed, that growing beyond what we believe in the past as it applies to right now is all and only what we have, but that is not the truth.
Where it is that we hurt, we do not realize that we are being given the gift of rehabilitation from heart ache that was before right now, and the gift in that reconstitution of our selves is the chance that we have now to think about and wonder what it is that we are learning now and how what happened in the past applies. It does apply, because in the past you were brand new at loss and you held on to that loss as though it was the only thing that you learned from it. It was not the only thing you learned from it. From that pain you learned Love, that you are worthy to Love you and that all you really need to do is learn to trust that inner voice, the one on the inside screamin' at you and telling you, over and over again that you can do WAY better than THAT !
I know this, because in my world that inner voice is named "Gabby," and Gabby is always right there, where a guardian angel should be, right there, next to me, not telling me what I do not need to know, but reminding me that I am strong enough to allow the fire in the belly to be what it is for me, for my life, and telling me always that the pain is like the pain of loss turned inside, out and that when I am able to look at it that it will make sense. I might not like it at the moment, but Gabby has not really ever let me down, ever. Of course, she has taken me the long way, the scenic route, on the Path, but always I have been guided to other people who are just like me....damaged, but worthy, and Loved beyond measure, not only by Spirit, or by ourselves, but the Grand Universe, where there is always room for one more thought, one more dream and one more life to be made whole again.
The Universal Law of Detachment teaches us that in order to have the new, we must let go of the old, and in order to see that symbolized energy become the reality in our life, we must let go of the picture that we keep referring to as being the only thing that we are made of and the only thing that we are good enough for.
We are good enough for the Heavens to not forget to open up to us every night, and show us Her grandness and her glory in the diamonds we have named "stars" and the milky whiteness that is the glow of the white bright, sometimes full moon that does not ever leave us but remains there as the gentle reminder of how much we are needed in this lifetime. We are good enough to see the sun rise every morning, or perhaps the rain fall from the sky when it is time to. We are good enough to recognize the screeching Hawk, the chattering Crows, the happy buzz that is life all around us.
If we see all this proof that we are loved beyond measure and that really, all we have to do is let go in order to see it all for real, then, too, the idea that we have dreams and we see these symbols in our thoughts would also be the evidence that we need and all the proof that there would need to be that we are special enough to be reminded by the alarm clock called Nature, every day of our lives.
Kinda way cool when you really think about the idea that if Spirit makes this all happen, every single day for every single one of us, then, too, Spirit must also have some pretty danged big stuff waiting for us all, as long as we are able to finally let go, stop thinking and believing that we can do better than the all forgiving Mother Goddess who has never ever left us, not even once.
It was when you cried the hardest that Mother was letting us know, through those tears, that it was all going to be how it is meant to be and that really, we are dearly and absolutely safe within her Arms.
Proof is that you are reading this, that you are breathing and alive and thinking now about what letting go of outcome means and more, how much good letting go and releasing your dreams into the wild, wild Universe can do for you.
I Love You All !
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Detachment. We hear about it and talk about it a whole lot in the world of the weird, as much as we dislike it, the act and the art of letting go of the end result that we see in our heads, that our Ego wants but that our soul knows is not always what we see in our minds. What we see with our mind's eyes is, as I mentioned in a blog about desire, only symbolic, most of the time, and that when we see what we see there it is only indicative of the energy of what we see symbolizes for us. With my mind's eyes, I see myself, really, debating with a certain "civil rights activist" whose last name has made me refer to said person as "The Sharpy." Laugh all you want, but I see it, because that is the thing that I most so enjoy - making it known to people that perhaps their ideal of what is "equal" needs to include more than just the simple hatred that someone plants in the world and makes the reality of certain people be what it is. If I never get to that televised debate I will not die, but I can imagine that it is there, and I can draw from that energy that which I will need to further my own cause, which is really only the world getting a clue about getting along and getting what we all need so that we can all collectively get on with life in a harmonious way.
Then there is that other thing that I see with my mind's eyes, the one that looks like a sprawling home on a couple of acres of land, not so that I can host big fat gnarly parties (okay maybe so I can do that but who is counting, really?) but more, so that I can finish raising my children in the manner that is being gentle to the earth, the manner that is learning to respect life and living, the manner which is helping others if they can, and the manner that is an energetic exchange with Mother Gaia as she helps us raise our own food and live off of the land that is ours, regardless if the paperwork, the deed, has a landlord's name on it.
And still, there is more than just those two things, but those are pretty big things, and those two things mean a lot to me, and the truth is that I will be more disappointed if I keep the thought in my head that I MUST have those things in the manner that I see them or else I will be prone to having large, adult-sized two year old tantrums. Had this been last year, right around August, and while it was that there was a whole lot of new change coming into my life and while it was that there were people coming into my life as there were also people leaving it, the one thing that I learned throughout this last year and a few months is that in order to have what we need, we must detach from what we see, because if we stay focused only on that one thing, we will be disappointed at the end result because we were not open and neither willing to trust that Spirit has us well protected in Her hands, that who we are depends fully on how much we trust what we see there as being only the symbol of what it is that we are desirous of, and that most of all, Spirit, in all of Her grandness and glory, never does not Know what She is doing, namely when it is on our behalf.
And it is ALWAYS on our behalf, no matter how crappy the things that you are going through are. Never in your life will you have the permanent experience of life being crappy at all times and at a constant. This is called being attached to what you are going through right now, and this is also part of the Universal Law of Detachment.
Letting Go
Letting go is never what a person who is not familiar with the ways of Spirit, the ways of the Soul within us each, understands because to them, being new, spiritually, to all of these things and terms and such, letting go of anything means that they are losing something, and to a point they are correct.
The thing that they are losing is the better chance at being disappointed in the outcome, and a lot of the time, the outcome that we see in our heads cannot compare in terms of way coolness to the actuality that is on its way to us. This is what I mean when I say that we cannot outdo Spirit, because She never does not know what She is doing. Spirit, the Great Mother, Grandmother Spirit, Na 'Aumakau....no matter what you refer to the Great Big Universe as Being...Spirit ALWAYS KNOWS AND DOES BEST, which is why we need to learn to trust. Not only in Spirit, but in ourselves.
When we can trust that we are good enough to have the things that are symbolized by what it is that we see with our mind's eyes, and we can trust that Spirit always has our end result in mind is when the fun happens. Really. It might not always seem so, but this is the truth. When we are hurting and confused, yes, that is Spirit, proverbially trying hard to make it gentle, the cutting of the teeth of the Soul through trial. When we are angry, again, Spirit, teaching us like a good parent teaches their young ones to not run out into the street to chase a ball but to let the passing cars go by and then retrieve the ball so as not to get hit by one of those passing cars. When we can believe within ourselves that we are good enough to receive what it is that is symbolized by our mind's eyes, that which we dearly desire and when we can let go of the symbol of the picture of the thing that we want that is representing the energy that we are in need of, and when we can let go of expectation and can deal with the thing that we see possibly not being the only way it can be, but better, and when we can just take it all in, relax and chill and go on about our lives, this is when we are allowing, when we are seeing the law of detachment in action.
The Universal Law of Detachment is the fuel which starts the fire
Believe it or not, it is not only the energy that is the Love behind the thought that produces the symbol that is our greatest desires, but also, it is the letting go of outcome, of anything in the past, of everything that hurt us and that still hurts us and that we think we cannot bear to be without. We expend so much energy toward resisting our evolution that we are too tired to be able to practice the art of letting go. And it is, indeed, an art and one that must be learned. We learned as children to depend on people, because we had to. Then when we started becoming teens we went out and formed bonds that taught us how to let go of things back then when our friends hurt us. When we became adults we are then our own greatest proof that letting go is needed, that growing beyond what we believe in the past as it applies to right now is all and only what we have, but that is not the truth.
Where it is that we hurt, we do not realize that we are being given the gift of rehabilitation from heart ache that was before right now, and the gift in that reconstitution of our selves is the chance that we have now to think about and wonder what it is that we are learning now and how what happened in the past applies. It does apply, because in the past you were brand new at loss and you held on to that loss as though it was the only thing that you learned from it. It was not the only thing you learned from it. From that pain you learned Love, that you are worthy to Love you and that all you really need to do is learn to trust that inner voice, the one on the inside screamin' at you and telling you, over and over again that you can do WAY better than THAT !
I know this, because in my world that inner voice is named "Gabby," and Gabby is always right there, where a guardian angel should be, right there, next to me, not telling me what I do not need to know, but reminding me that I am strong enough to allow the fire in the belly to be what it is for me, for my life, and telling me always that the pain is like the pain of loss turned inside, out and that when I am able to look at it that it will make sense. I might not like it at the moment, but Gabby has not really ever let me down, ever. Of course, she has taken me the long way, the scenic route, on the Path, but always I have been guided to other people who are just like me....damaged, but worthy, and Loved beyond measure, not only by Spirit, or by ourselves, but the Grand Universe, where there is always room for one more thought, one more dream and one more life to be made whole again.
The Universal Law of Detachment teaches us that in order to have the new, we must let go of the old, and in order to see that symbolized energy become the reality in our life, we must let go of the picture that we keep referring to as being the only thing that we are made of and the only thing that we are good enough for.
We are good enough for the Heavens to not forget to open up to us every night, and show us Her grandness and her glory in the diamonds we have named "stars" and the milky whiteness that is the glow of the white bright, sometimes full moon that does not ever leave us but remains there as the gentle reminder of how much we are needed in this lifetime. We are good enough to see the sun rise every morning, or perhaps the rain fall from the sky when it is time to. We are good enough to recognize the screeching Hawk, the chattering Crows, the happy buzz that is life all around us.
If we see all this proof that we are loved beyond measure and that really, all we have to do is let go in order to see it all for real, then, too, the idea that we have dreams and we see these symbols in our thoughts would also be the evidence that we need and all the proof that there would need to be that we are special enough to be reminded by the alarm clock called Nature, every day of our lives.
Kinda way cool when you really think about the idea that if Spirit makes this all happen, every single day for every single one of us, then, too, Spirit must also have some pretty danged big stuff waiting for us all, as long as we are able to finally let go, stop thinking and believing that we can do better than the all forgiving Mother Goddess who has never ever left us, not even once.
It was when you cried the hardest that Mother was letting us know, through those tears, that it was all going to be how it is meant to be and that really, we are dearly and absolutely safe within her Arms.
Proof is that you are reading this, that you are breathing and alive and thinking now about what letting go of outcome means and more, how much good letting go and releasing your dreams into the wild, wild Universe can do for you.
I Love You All !
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Wednesday, October 16, 2013
The Universal Law of Desire
Whatever it is that you are desirous of, you will...
"Will what?" you might ask
No, silly...it is not the verb "will" in the sense that you are used to knowing it, but the action that is also "willing" something. When we are desirous of something in our life, regardless of who, or what is the symbol of what it is that you are willing, you are activating the Universal Law of Desire. In Webster's Dictionary and Thesaurus, one of the definitions for the word "desire" is "...(1) A strong wish: LONGING... to long or hope for...exhibit or feel desire for... (2): REQUEST.."
In that same text, the definition for the word, "Will," is "(n) (1) Wish or desire often combined with determination..."
In order for us to receive what we wish for, there must be a few components involved, and the two most important ones are both the desire as well as the will to go out into the world and retrieve what it is that we each want in our lives. NOW, please...PLEASE do NOT confuse these things with the idea that what you want, you will have in the exact manner that you see it in your head - that is SO not how Spirit does things. What it is that we see with our mind's eyes, through the imagination and the conjuring of the perfect example of the energy that we will into our lives through the energy that is desire is JUST a SYMBOL of that energy. It really is NOT the EXACT THING THAT WE SEE THERE !
I get asked the question of "Why doesn't this thing/person/place/whatever come into my reality in the manner that I want it to and in the manner that I imagine it?" That is because, number one, when we are wishing and hoping for things, and those things involve other people and their free will to choose, we are impeding on their right as spiritual beings to be everything they are meant to be, even if that means that we are not directly involved in the manner that we see with our mind's eyes. This one was a VERY difficult one for me to deal with and it was because of a mechanic that I thought very highly and dearly of, often, and it was nothing more than a symbol of the strong, free-willed person who I am and a reminder of also, more importantly, what I am not and what I am not meant for. Let me repeat that for you - the manifestation of this person and the willing of this person to be a part of my life did happen, but not in the manner that my silly Ego thought it should. The manner that I imagined that I would want him in my life turned out to be the thing that I so did not need, not for any other reason than that (ready for this?) while my ego thought he was just fine and dandy, my soul (along with my two closest best chick pals...you both know who you are and I Love You both so very damned much) knew that he would never be able to live up to who I am for real.
When I ignored my Soul's inclinations toward what it was that I thought I wanted, I realized, one day, because of the word "maybe," that I was being taught about myself. I wanted to know more about me, which, for a lot of people, seems ridiculous, but when you think about it a bit deeper, we all begin to realize the things that we were not wanting to look at because it was only congruent with what our Ego told us we MUST have. Lots of folks believe that if something hurts us, that we have to work harder to have it and that the work involved with having it will be the best reward. Actually, it is the work that is the gift, along with the pat on the back that we have to give ourselves, not after we get a clue, but when we accept said clue.
When I realized that the only things there that I was looking at were the symbols of monetary success, were the symbols of the things that I could have on my own (because when we see something in someone else that we are attracted to, we are also and either able to do those things, too, OR, the symbol is JUST a symbol of that which we are working toward seeing materialize in our lives.) was when, for real, because through the pain and the ridiculousness that I had put myself through, I was able to accept that I could have the security, the comfort, the Life that I saw, no, not with this person, but with myself. It was one of those days that I won't ever forget, because it was one of those days that I was granted the gift of knowing, my self, and that is more precious than is a lot else.
The Truth of The Energy that backed the Desire
What I needed was to see the sameness that was me in this person. What my Ego thought was fine and good, my soul knew was not. Where it was that this other person had, seemingly, everything, there was and still is the one thing that is the Void in their life - the mirror, no, not that is me (and that won't ever BE me), but that is the sameness of someone who is as clueless as they are. Cluelessness plays a huge part in our lives, and how sad it is in this healer's mind that people would sooner embrace the chosen clueless nature of themselves rather than face what is there in front of them, choosing not to free themselves from trying hard to make things that are not for them, theirs, at least in their minds. It is sad to me that there are brilliant people on this planet who cannot see their own brilliance because they are so taken with the brilliance that is not theirs. They draw themselves to the pomp and circumstance, to the symbolism behind the energy that they are witnessing, never bothering to also see what is really there for them and that is golden.
Desiring things in our lives is not bad, at all, but it can make us feel that way if we are trying hard to make the will of others bend to what is our will and only to what we want in our lives that we think will make our lives better. We are not thinking about what we want having a possible negative impact on those whose will we wish would bend to our own. There is no practicing person of The Craft who is right-minded who will tell anyone that it is okay to do things, wish for things, want things and people in our lives, and that to make it all happen, all we have to do is mess with their free will. Free will IS the truth in freedom. I know this because I asked them, those Crafty women in my life and they told me a lot, but the thing that they told me that stayed with me is that Love is not to be kept or to feel like you are being kept. Love is freeing, but it is symbolic on this plane. It is not romance, is not the kisses stolen in secret - it is within us, not outside of us. What drives me almost crazy sometimes is when people confuse what they want Love to Be, with what is symbolized by it in their heads, and is also present in reality so that those who feel like this can confuse Real Truth in Love with what the Ego wants us to believe is Love.
Desire is very different, but takes a bit of Love for it to happen. We must Love ourselves before we know what Love is with or for anyone else. This is also the truth of the things in our lives, the situations in our lives, the material reality in our lives - all of this depends on our Will to see it happen, which is fueled by the Love within us for our very selves. There are a lot of things, people and situations that I dearly want and desire to be part of my life.
Yet, I know, in the reality of things, that right now it is just not time for ALL of those things, but this does not mean that on the inside, I am not seeing to the things that I want to see manifested in reality for myself. When it materializes for myself I will know that the rest is to follow.
Directing the Energy toward your own will
We have all been raised in a society which glorifies bullies, glorifies a winner over a loser, and glorifies having a big fat tantrum just so that we can have our way. As many parents know already - there is no tantrum that is bigger or meaner than is the energy that created it. The energy behind the tantrum of a child is the same energy behind the underhandedness of an adult. Either way, each one of those entities is trying dearly to break and bend the will of others. This is not anything that is new to any one of us, but in it - this strangeness of energy - you will find the things that you need in order to have the life you desire, and hell yeah - simply by redirecting the angry energy in to Love energy toward yourself.
Anything and everything that we desire in our lives is meant, and those things and that life do not come from our whiling away our good energy on the things that we keep on trying to make fit into our life the way that we want it to. This is something that the mechanic I mentioned earlier in this writing taught me that said mechanic never really knew about. Where it was that I believed one thing, the actuality of it was that the thing, the situations, and most of all, the people, including the mechanic, were all indicative of my Self and what my inner Self knew then and knows now - that I am all those things that the mechanic was not, is not, will never be, and also, am everything that the mechanic is that is good in him that also lives in me.
The reason that I know all of this is because in that energy that was the "maybe" was also contained the very seeds, through what was symbolized as hurt, as anger at myself, as all of those things that no one likes to feel, and was eventually channeled elsewhere, into my own creating the life that is no longer out of reach and damned surely NOT dependent on anyone outside of me. This is my Kuleana, as much as it is anyone else's Soul's Responsibility to take care of who we each and on our own, are. When we choose to care for ourselves, choose to create what we eventually figure out is the truth of Love and of Being - this is also when we have chosen to have what we know is also the truth of us.
Choosing what is also the truth of us
We have been trained by the media to equate desire with love, or lust, or both, and that is only a very small, biological, in one way, energy of the all of it. The all of it includes a Love for the Self that is the kind that does not die, the kind that only gets bigger, and the kind that cannot be found because it was never lost. It was only there beneath the rubble that you think is the truth. There are a lot of people with us on this planet who are more inclined to believe that what they want is outside of them, to believe that other people have to bring it to them, and this is not the truth. The truth is that, again, other people are merely symbolic of the things that we want in our lives. Where it is that we feel like we need another person to make us whole, there is another part of us that screams out, almost in spiritual pain, at the idea that many of us human type beings do not trust ourselves as we do others to take care of what we need for us. Yes, we need Love, but we need it from us, first. If we are desirous of Love with another person, we first have to have that same sort of desire that is in another form that is only and all for us. We cannot know real Love until we first know and believe that we are worthy of it. There is no person on this planet who will make this more real for us THAN us.
To be frank, no woman will ever complete a man, and no man will ever complete a woman. Not one of us is born with the thought in our heads that we are going to seek out that perfect other person because we are not good enough on our own to survive. True, it is nice having someone there to always travel along our Path with, but what we are not thinking about is that we travel with many people, but the Path we choose is singularly our own. No one can walk it for us. Along the Path, we find out much about ourselves, and sometimes other people point it out to us, and while those things might hurt our feelings, maybe even break our hearts, the truth of it all is that we, alone, are who is responsible for ourselves. There is not a man alive who loves a needy woman, and no woman I know wants a man who cannot take care of himself. If we are needy, we are going to make these people not want to be with us. If a man is controlling, he will make the woman who is his intended target and who symbolizes what his desire might look like not want to be with him because no human alive likes being controlled, by anyone, for any reason, at all.
To be frank, no person in their right mind would agree to being with another person given the history they have if anyone at all...no matter who it is...friend...lover...co-worker...it doesn't matter who it is - no right-minded, thinking or thoughtful person is going to go headlong into a situation where, once again, they will end up being controlled, NOT by the person who is allowed to, but more by the energy that is guilt, that is "you owe me," that is ANYTHING but LOVE.
To be frank, when those among us who share the air with us decide that they want to be all they can be, that they can change their energy to match the vibration of not the symbol of what they want, but themselves, and they allow Spirit to be the Part of them that brings to them the perfect pieces to the puzzle that is their life - THIS IS WHEN WE KNOW THE REALITY THAT IS THE MANIFESTATION OF TRUE DESIRE! And it is NEVER ever before this happens.
In order to have all that we desire to have in our lives, we first must desire to be whole, on our own, without help, yes, through the tears and the bullshit, so that we can, through the completion of allowing the windows of the soul to become cleaned and cleared by those tears that we thought would kill us, we have GOT TO BE right minded, with right intent, so that we can know what is to the will of the Higher Self versus what it is that the lower self...also known as the Ego...calls "desire." Ego likes keeping score. Soul likes smiling. Ego likes using guilt. Soul only knows Love.
Ego wants us to fail so that we can prove who we are through it.
Soul wants us to know that no matter what, as long as it is with Love, these things that we want to do in order to have what we desire, we cannot lose.
Of course, Ego will tell us that we have lost, but Soul will make it known, somehow, that there are no winners, no losers...only Love.
And that, really, is what we desire...Love, in all its ways, shapes, and forms...
I LOVE YOU ALL !
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"Will what?" you might ask
No, silly...it is not the verb "will" in the sense that you are used to knowing it, but the action that is also "willing" something. When we are desirous of something in our life, regardless of who, or what is the symbol of what it is that you are willing, you are activating the Universal Law of Desire. In Webster's Dictionary and Thesaurus, one of the definitions for the word "desire" is "...(1) A strong wish: LONGING... to long or hope for...exhibit or feel desire for... (2): REQUEST.."
In that same text, the definition for the word, "Will," is "(n) (1) Wish or desire often combined with determination..."
In order for us to receive what we wish for, there must be a few components involved, and the two most important ones are both the desire as well as the will to go out into the world and retrieve what it is that we each want in our lives. NOW, please...PLEASE do NOT confuse these things with the idea that what you want, you will have in the exact manner that you see it in your head - that is SO not how Spirit does things. What it is that we see with our mind's eyes, through the imagination and the conjuring of the perfect example of the energy that we will into our lives through the energy that is desire is JUST a SYMBOL of that energy. It really is NOT the EXACT THING THAT WE SEE THERE !
I get asked the question of "Why doesn't this thing/person/place/whatever come into my reality in the manner that I want it to and in the manner that I imagine it?" That is because, number one, when we are wishing and hoping for things, and those things involve other people and their free will to choose, we are impeding on their right as spiritual beings to be everything they are meant to be, even if that means that we are not directly involved in the manner that we see with our mind's eyes. This one was a VERY difficult one for me to deal with and it was because of a mechanic that I thought very highly and dearly of, often, and it was nothing more than a symbol of the strong, free-willed person who I am and a reminder of also, more importantly, what I am not and what I am not meant for. Let me repeat that for you - the manifestation of this person and the willing of this person to be a part of my life did happen, but not in the manner that my silly Ego thought it should. The manner that I imagined that I would want him in my life turned out to be the thing that I so did not need, not for any other reason than that (ready for this?) while my ego thought he was just fine and dandy, my soul (along with my two closest best chick pals...you both know who you are and I Love You both so very damned much) knew that he would never be able to live up to who I am for real.
When I ignored my Soul's inclinations toward what it was that I thought I wanted, I realized, one day, because of the word "maybe," that I was being taught about myself. I wanted to know more about me, which, for a lot of people, seems ridiculous, but when you think about it a bit deeper, we all begin to realize the things that we were not wanting to look at because it was only congruent with what our Ego told us we MUST have. Lots of folks believe that if something hurts us, that we have to work harder to have it and that the work involved with having it will be the best reward. Actually, it is the work that is the gift, along with the pat on the back that we have to give ourselves, not after we get a clue, but when we accept said clue.
When I realized that the only things there that I was looking at were the symbols of monetary success, were the symbols of the things that I could have on my own (because when we see something in someone else that we are attracted to, we are also and either able to do those things, too, OR, the symbol is JUST a symbol of that which we are working toward seeing materialize in our lives.) was when, for real, because through the pain and the ridiculousness that I had put myself through, I was able to accept that I could have the security, the comfort, the Life that I saw, no, not with this person, but with myself. It was one of those days that I won't ever forget, because it was one of those days that I was granted the gift of knowing, my self, and that is more precious than is a lot else.
The Truth of The Energy that backed the Desire
What I needed was to see the sameness that was me in this person. What my Ego thought was fine and good, my soul knew was not. Where it was that this other person had, seemingly, everything, there was and still is the one thing that is the Void in their life - the mirror, no, not that is me (and that won't ever BE me), but that is the sameness of someone who is as clueless as they are. Cluelessness plays a huge part in our lives, and how sad it is in this healer's mind that people would sooner embrace the chosen clueless nature of themselves rather than face what is there in front of them, choosing not to free themselves from trying hard to make things that are not for them, theirs, at least in their minds. It is sad to me that there are brilliant people on this planet who cannot see their own brilliance because they are so taken with the brilliance that is not theirs. They draw themselves to the pomp and circumstance, to the symbolism behind the energy that they are witnessing, never bothering to also see what is really there for them and that is golden.
Desiring things in our lives is not bad, at all, but it can make us feel that way if we are trying hard to make the will of others bend to what is our will and only to what we want in our lives that we think will make our lives better. We are not thinking about what we want having a possible negative impact on those whose will we wish would bend to our own. There is no practicing person of The Craft who is right-minded who will tell anyone that it is okay to do things, wish for things, want things and people in our lives, and that to make it all happen, all we have to do is mess with their free will. Free will IS the truth in freedom. I know this because I asked them, those Crafty women in my life and they told me a lot, but the thing that they told me that stayed with me is that Love is not to be kept or to feel like you are being kept. Love is freeing, but it is symbolic on this plane. It is not romance, is not the kisses stolen in secret - it is within us, not outside of us. What drives me almost crazy sometimes is when people confuse what they want Love to Be, with what is symbolized by it in their heads, and is also present in reality so that those who feel like this can confuse Real Truth in Love with what the Ego wants us to believe is Love.
Desire is very different, but takes a bit of Love for it to happen. We must Love ourselves before we know what Love is with or for anyone else. This is also the truth of the things in our lives, the situations in our lives, the material reality in our lives - all of this depends on our Will to see it happen, which is fueled by the Love within us for our very selves. There are a lot of things, people and situations that I dearly want and desire to be part of my life.
Yet, I know, in the reality of things, that right now it is just not time for ALL of those things, but this does not mean that on the inside, I am not seeing to the things that I want to see manifested in reality for myself. When it materializes for myself I will know that the rest is to follow.
Directing the Energy toward your own will
We have all been raised in a society which glorifies bullies, glorifies a winner over a loser, and glorifies having a big fat tantrum just so that we can have our way. As many parents know already - there is no tantrum that is bigger or meaner than is the energy that created it. The energy behind the tantrum of a child is the same energy behind the underhandedness of an adult. Either way, each one of those entities is trying dearly to break and bend the will of others. This is not anything that is new to any one of us, but in it - this strangeness of energy - you will find the things that you need in order to have the life you desire, and hell yeah - simply by redirecting the angry energy in to Love energy toward yourself.
Anything and everything that we desire in our lives is meant, and those things and that life do not come from our whiling away our good energy on the things that we keep on trying to make fit into our life the way that we want it to. This is something that the mechanic I mentioned earlier in this writing taught me that said mechanic never really knew about. Where it was that I believed one thing, the actuality of it was that the thing, the situations, and most of all, the people, including the mechanic, were all indicative of my Self and what my inner Self knew then and knows now - that I am all those things that the mechanic was not, is not, will never be, and also, am everything that the mechanic is that is good in him that also lives in me.
The reason that I know all of this is because in that energy that was the "maybe" was also contained the very seeds, through what was symbolized as hurt, as anger at myself, as all of those things that no one likes to feel, and was eventually channeled elsewhere, into my own creating the life that is no longer out of reach and damned surely NOT dependent on anyone outside of me. This is my Kuleana, as much as it is anyone else's Soul's Responsibility to take care of who we each and on our own, are. When we choose to care for ourselves, choose to create what we eventually figure out is the truth of Love and of Being - this is also when we have chosen to have what we know is also the truth of us.
Choosing what is also the truth of us
We have been trained by the media to equate desire with love, or lust, or both, and that is only a very small, biological, in one way, energy of the all of it. The all of it includes a Love for the Self that is the kind that does not die, the kind that only gets bigger, and the kind that cannot be found because it was never lost. It was only there beneath the rubble that you think is the truth. There are a lot of people with us on this planet who are more inclined to believe that what they want is outside of them, to believe that other people have to bring it to them, and this is not the truth. The truth is that, again, other people are merely symbolic of the things that we want in our lives. Where it is that we feel like we need another person to make us whole, there is another part of us that screams out, almost in spiritual pain, at the idea that many of us human type beings do not trust ourselves as we do others to take care of what we need for us. Yes, we need Love, but we need it from us, first. If we are desirous of Love with another person, we first have to have that same sort of desire that is in another form that is only and all for us. We cannot know real Love until we first know and believe that we are worthy of it. There is no person on this planet who will make this more real for us THAN us.
To be frank, no woman will ever complete a man, and no man will ever complete a woman. Not one of us is born with the thought in our heads that we are going to seek out that perfect other person because we are not good enough on our own to survive. True, it is nice having someone there to always travel along our Path with, but what we are not thinking about is that we travel with many people, but the Path we choose is singularly our own. No one can walk it for us. Along the Path, we find out much about ourselves, and sometimes other people point it out to us, and while those things might hurt our feelings, maybe even break our hearts, the truth of it all is that we, alone, are who is responsible for ourselves. There is not a man alive who loves a needy woman, and no woman I know wants a man who cannot take care of himself. If we are needy, we are going to make these people not want to be with us. If a man is controlling, he will make the woman who is his intended target and who symbolizes what his desire might look like not want to be with him because no human alive likes being controlled, by anyone, for any reason, at all.
To be frank, no person in their right mind would agree to being with another person given the history they have if anyone at all...no matter who it is...friend...lover...co-worker...it doesn't matter who it is - no right-minded, thinking or thoughtful person is going to go headlong into a situation where, once again, they will end up being controlled, NOT by the person who is allowed to, but more by the energy that is guilt, that is "you owe me," that is ANYTHING but LOVE.
To be frank, when those among us who share the air with us decide that they want to be all they can be, that they can change their energy to match the vibration of not the symbol of what they want, but themselves, and they allow Spirit to be the Part of them that brings to them the perfect pieces to the puzzle that is their life - THIS IS WHEN WE KNOW THE REALITY THAT IS THE MANIFESTATION OF TRUE DESIRE! And it is NEVER ever before this happens.
In order to have all that we desire to have in our lives, we first must desire to be whole, on our own, without help, yes, through the tears and the bullshit, so that we can, through the completion of allowing the windows of the soul to become cleaned and cleared by those tears that we thought would kill us, we have GOT TO BE right minded, with right intent, so that we can know what is to the will of the Higher Self versus what it is that the lower self...also known as the Ego...calls "desire." Ego likes keeping score. Soul likes smiling. Ego likes using guilt. Soul only knows Love.
Ego wants us to fail so that we can prove who we are through it.
Soul wants us to know that no matter what, as long as it is with Love, these things that we want to do in order to have what we desire, we cannot lose.
Of course, Ego will tell us that we have lost, but Soul will make it known, somehow, that there are no winners, no losers...only Love.
And that, really, is what we desire...Love, in all its ways, shapes, and forms...
I LOVE YOU ALL !
ROX
Operation SoulShine
Follow Me On Twitter
"Like" and "Share" and Wear Your Shades and help us raise awareness for Domestic Violence...go to the PROJECT:Shades facebook page and get involved ! #PROJECTShades #WhatsYourStory
Buy my book "The Bones of the Soul" for eReader
Buy my books in paperback from lulu.com
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