Strangeness

There's a lot going on right now for all of us. Sometimes, we need assistance. Be nice to people - you have no idea who you are dealing with and those "people" may be of the angelic sort...

No doubt about it, things are strange these days. More and more of us are learning to use these new strange gifts that we only now have found out that a whole lot of us have. When I say 'gift,' I totally mean of the astral sort. Things that we should not know, we know, and things that we want to know, we learn, almost immediately. That which is meant to teach us comes to us like a feather on the wind. And all of these great things that come about just at the moment that we need them to, along comes into our lives these new people. Some of these new people are strange to us when we first meet them, and it is because our whole lives long we have been given to the idea that what we are told that we should believe we end up no longer believing, and this is actually a good thing. It is a good thing because too many of us want to believe that someone other than us has a clue that is more trustworthy than is our own measure of who we are.

Our own measure of who we are becomes evidenced by the people who come into our lives at this time in our collective lives. At this moment in time, collectively we are being brought to the task of elevating our very selves, because very soon the reality will be what the majority of us believes it is meant to be - globally, we will finally be One in thought, in heart, in soul, and always in Unison with one another. As it is, there are people within your own inner circle whose lives you actually feel, whose emotions you are well aware of, whose very thoughts are like your own, and this is not something that is a bad thing, because anymore now we are not so inclined to think thoughts that are damaging. I mean, yes, there are always going to be people on the planet with us who will always just roll that way, but for the majority of us right now, the truth is that we know who we are and yes, we found out this much by the new people who have arrived in our lives. Some of them are meant to be only a lesson, while others of them are permanent because at this time in our collective lives, too, there is a great awakening and soul families are reuniting on this plane for the purpose of carrying out our mission.

Included in these soul families are people who you have never known on this plane or in this lifetime but who you know upon first glance, and it is the familiarity with these people that keeps us there, because we are that same familiarity that they also know. We know each other upon first glance. There is always just something there that never leaves us, and we also have this thought in our heads, not that we will lose these people, but that we have to be able to be with them, no matter what. We have to be able to do our work in this lifetime with them because that is what is going on now - we are meeting up with our soul families, and it is a beautiful thing. The thing about a soul family is that, outside of the idea that we are all of the same spiritual "stuff," so, too are we given the thoughts in our heads that some of these people are not just human. Some of these people are Earth Angels, and all of these people serve a very important part in our lives. I can think of a few of these people in my own life right now who know that this is the truth because they also know that since we have shown up in one another's lives, no matter if it was 5 years ago or last week, that there is just something about them that we cannot ignore, will not deny and have to be around, no matter what.

It is the familiarity, the energy that is shared between us that makes this so. It is the idea that one day we cried out to the Goddess and in kind, while we were thinking that She was ignoring us, like the Mother Who She Is, Spirit sent us an angel in human form, sent to our lives someone who could, without being too hurtful to our pride and our sensitive ego, help us grow and help us evolve and help us to become who we are for real.

Who we are for real, the each of us, is the Higher Self. That we come in the package that we do is one thing, but that we just seem to know who is here to help us and more, who we are here to help, is very, very cool. That we instantly Love these new people who come to our lives is not something that is sick and demented, but literally sent by Spirit to our lives, because the truth really is that Mother Knows Best. Mother Goddess knows always what and who we need, and also knows who is to be in what roles in our lives, knows who we are for real, and wants us to also know who we are for real. This is the reason that we are sent who we are sent. This is why it is that sometimes, while we are in the throes of whatever magnificent BS we find ourselves in, when it counts and when we need them the most, Spirit sends us these people to our lives who become permanent and who are also and can totally be thought of as the Angels who we asked assistance from.

That's right - in our midst in this time in history we are literally being visited, gifted, given other people to help us understand who we are, help us see what is the truth of us, help us understand the higher thoughts we are all having at this time in our lives. It is not a midlife thing, and neither is it because you might not be with the person who you once were with, or that you no longer, by choice even, hang with the same group you once did. This is Spirit at work, is the Goddess in us each who tells us that we are so not alone, that when we cried out to Her for Her help, instead of Her being that Who came to us in our time of need, She visited us with others who are like us, who look and act like us, who love the same things that we do, who might even know the very same people we do. None of what you are seeing, feeling, hearing, knowing is a mistake. The way that you feel about these people is not unusual. There is always going to be this familiarity with them, all of them, and no matter what, wherever you are, they are there, too, and you know this because you feel it and can sense it all the way down in the bones of your soul.

We know who it is who is and will always be there for us. We know that we can count on Spirit to bring to us what it is that we need, and for the most part we also know that we can do just about anything that we try to and if we find that we are not able to get through some things, there is always someone there to assist us, no matter what. Think of the last time that you ran into something that just bothered you to no end, and that one thing kept just creeping up your okole, and then one day you cried out to the bigness that is Spirit.

Then, one day, almost magically, they showed up, almost on the wings of angels, in human form, right there in your face, and you could not believe it.

The moments that we find ourselves in the throes of anything that is ugly to us, that is hurtful to us, that makes us crazy from the sameness of it all, remind yourself that never have you been alone, and that always, somehow, there was help.

Always, somehow, Spirit knew what we each needed when we needed it, and always, as we now know, we have never been truly alone, never not been cared for ...never ever not been Loved....


I Love You All
ROX

This is how we do it...

It isn't like we don't deserve it....all of it...

"Whatever it is, the party's underway  So tip up your cup and throw your hands up 
And let me hear the party say 
I'm kinda buzzed and it's all because...This is how we do it..." ("This is how we do it" by Montell Jordan)

No matter what it is and no matter who you are, you have to admit, these last few weeks have been a very dear pain in the okole, but it was not at all for anything other than to prepare us all for right this moment. 

Right this moment

Right this moment, at least in my world, there is a whole lot going on and most of it is all change. While I do not fear change, I also am not that thrilled about it when I am experiencing it, and right now I am experiencing it on every level of my life. The things that used to bother me no longer are that big of a deal, and the things that I didn't care about suddenly need my attention. When it was that any of my friends were hurting or in need of something, I was right there for them without hesitation, but these days I find that I am very picky about who does and who does not warrant my immediate attention. Those who warrant my immediate attention know that this is their place in my life, know that when they call on me, I am right there, at the ready, no matter what, and on their behalf alongside them I will fight the good fight with them, will be there to hold their hand, to wrap my entire being around them, make sure that they are okay. They each know who they are, too, and after a long year of "oh NO! not another Shift!" I know exactly who I can trust enough to just say anything to and not have to worry about them being too offended by the idea that I had the nerve to tell them either through my words, my actions, or my energies, that I love them enough to not want to see them hurt or worried or anything that would cause them these energies.

On the other side of that is the idea that there have been a whole lot of people who have entered my life within these last twelve months who have each found out that there are some things that I will not deal with, that I will not ever accept as being okay and will not ever, ever allow into my own awareness, and without my asking them specifically to do so, they have, at least for the moment, left my life, allowing me to breathe a little, rest a little, Be who I am without having to be outshined and neither my issues not tended to because they and their giant egos were too busy taking up every bit of my every free ounce of energy that they had no right to take from me. And yes, take - when we allow people in who are not that great as human beings, they tend to take things from us, energetically and even physically at times, and it is these ones who seem to be the very parts of us that we have to clean up.

The parts that need cleaning up

I like having parties. I like going to parties. I like preparing for them, and I even like to clean up afterwards. There is just something about a gathering of people celebrating for whatever reason, or sometimes no reason, and it is this way because I love to celebrate people and their accomplishments. I love to be in the company of people who I love the most and see them being honored in a manner that is that of the heart and soul within us. And yes, I did say that I like to clean up afterwards and it is because I get to see how much of the food is left over. Left over food reminds me of the left over stuff that we have in our lives that no longer serve us, no longer lend to the learning, and it is time now that we have to clean up the messes that were left by us from the parties in the past, so to speak, and it is time for us to no longer celebrate our past victories because folks...there is a lot coming to us in the coming weeks and months ahead. Some of it is gonna hurt, and some of it is gonna suck but all of it will lead to the life that we are each meant to live, and by my count that RULES !

I would love to sit here and tell you all that it is going to be a breeze from here on out, but I can't. If all of the crap that is happening in your own personal life at this very moment is not enough to tell you that whatever it is that is buggin' in your life at the moment is meant to happen, is supposed to teach us each our own lessons of what our lives are all about. Your life is your story, is your best selling novel that doesn't ever end. This is your life, your baby, you are the creator of it. Right now we all have a bit of stuff to clean up, have things to clarify to the Universe that we want or do not want in our lives. Now is the time that we have each asked for, and there are a lot of us who are just not ready to clean. To those people I have to say that that indeed is a very sad thing, because what is about to happen for the entirety of us all is not going to happen for you if you are too busy cleaning up yesterday's trash instead of being in the center of your own universe.

STOP !

STOP being the one person who everyone leans on. This was the sin that I was in, all the time. I was overextending myself to and for all of the wrong people, people who were no way at all helping themselves out of anything and only helping themselves to my energies. This is not saying that they were not worthy of it, but that I had no business trying to save them - that is their thing, not mine. That I shared my energies with them is one thing, but for them to not learn to cultivate theirs is another thing all together. It is not and was not that they were essentially wrong in being who they are, but wrong in the sense that I cannot be used like aspirin, can't be told that I am supposed to be there for people who will not be there for themselves by the very people who are supposed to be there, on their own, yes, with my assistance, but most assuredly not my shoulder to stand on.

The time is now, guys...right now, for all of us to clean up what it is that is not yet done. This could be anything. Those of us who are already seeing the future as we want it to be are also the very ones who are prepared for this, the last part of the shift in consciousness that is upon us. We have to be prepared for it, all of it, because for a long, long time now we have all wanted dearly to see the changes that we have intuited, and lots of us are afraid to take it all on. Lots of us are just worn out from all of the evolving that we have done and we don't even see what it is that we have done, and I promise you that what has already been done was done by our own hand, by our own thought process and whether or not we believe it, was done because we called it into being. Now there are a lot of us who cannot begin to think about what is ahead of us and most of those people who cannot see what is there are also not prepared for the changes ahead. The changes ahead call for us to be ready and willing to be everything we are each meant to be. 

None of us can think to stop ourselves from having to change anything about us, because there are facets of us each that have to grow along with the things that are happening to us all, and if we are not willing to deal with it all, we will not ever be and if we are not ever going to be ready for the little things, how can we hope to be ready for the big things?

But there are those of us who have been prepared...

While we might not like it, and we might not want to have to think about there being more for us to do, the fact of the matter is that there is still a little bit of work for us to do, still a little bit more for us to deal with and all of it worth every tear, every time you went into a blind rage, every single little thing that hurt, that bothered you, anything.

There are those of us who are ready for whatever is left, and it is a beautiful thing indeed when we trip over our own selves and when it seems like there is no other way around the things that hurt us, scare us, make us ache.

...so, let me tip my cup to you all, raise the glass and voices to the grand cosmos above for those of us who know the work is worth it.

To the rest of you...well, I hope you eventually get it in terms of what you are going through.

I Love You All

ROX

Patterns

...you can see where you are going by thinking about where it is that you have already been...

There is a lot happening in the Cosmos these days. I don't want to get into a whole thing about astrology because there are a whole lot of really great ones already. And really, unless you realize it, Astrology will teach us at least what sort of pattern our lives have traveled in from the very moment that we arrived to this lifetime. 

If we bother to pay attention to the patterns that our lives travel in, we will see a chain of events that, even though the time that passes will bring into our lives new people and new experiences, if we thought about where we were about 20 years ago and compared it to now we would see that there are a whole lot of similarities between then and now. This would be the thing that can give light to the messes that we find ourselves in. The revolution of time and the time that we spend thinking that we do not understand what is happening to us at a given time in our lives are distractions of the lessons that we are presented with throughout the course of our lives. 

Our lives follow a certain pattern and when we are right inside of a monster of an issue in our lives we are less inclined to be rational about things than we are about the emotional nature of feeling like we have to throw our hands up in the air in exasperation and ask the clouds above "AGAIN??!!" 

Of course, again...that is how this works. The trick to it all is NOT throwing your hands up in the air as though you were the one to tumble the Jenga tower, but to think back to a time where what was then is also now. What helps is that whatever it was that plagued us back then, or perhaps blessed us, caused us confusion or clarity...well, take a look around you and find out that even though there may be few of the same players in the drama of your own life, the things that are happening are much the same as they were then and the difference from then to now is that right now you have had the luck of the journey of having already been in a similar situation, have had the experience of such the same mess that is your life, or perhaps it is not a mess. It is just whatever it is, and we can see it as "oh NO it is happening AGAIN!" or "Hey...this feels familiar." 

It is the familiarity which is the key to the recognition of the thing that we have already done but just at another time. It is the feeling that we know what to do and the knowing that we have already done this in the distant past. It is also the knowing one thing that not a lot of people think about - in the time that has passed, you have pondered the thing that was 20 years ago, and your soul recognizes this as it being like the do-over, or maybe it is just a sweet reminder of where you were two decades ago. If the issues in your life at present time mirror that of what was going on in your life back then, what that means is simply that there were a few loose ends that needed to be tied up, or maybe the answer which eluded you back then has shown itself to you now and now you can heal whatever it was that made you hurt back then.

You will notice that there are a lot of same things that happen. In my case, twenty years ago I was  very dearly in love with music, particularly the indie rock scene. I was a promoter. I shared a television show with some people who I thought about through the years and who recently I have been reconnected with by Spirit. I held a dear love for rock music then much like I do now, and like then, now, too, I have a deep connection with musicians. And it makes sense that I would, because I am a dancer. Lots has happened in two decades. There have been gains and losses, and people have entered into my life while others have left and can never return because they went Home to Spirit. Yet, the things that present themselves to us all these years later are the very things that bring to us those memories of the way that we did things then.

We might have needed a reminder of who we each really are, and it was through someone else that this was found out. Some of us moved far from the places that we lived, only to have lost everything in a material sense, leading us to believe that the reason we went to those places was because we thought we'd met our twin flames or perhaps our soulmate when in reality and through those people we met our very selves, and we liked what we saw. Suddenly, the messes that were the thing that we called "life" seemed not so out of place and make sense now. When I thought I lived in the desert for one reason and a person who I could never love, I found that the actual reason was not only so that I could ultimately lose my store bought life, ultimately be shown that it was not the person who we thought it was that would have us move that far from what is familiar, and when we find out who it was that was the reason that we were brought there, we find out that we are not so disappointed after all, that Spirit knew and knows what She is doing, and that all is well when we just get the hell out of our own way.

We do not get to know what it is that we need to know - our purpose, our mission - until it is that Spirit has dragged us kicking and screaming like a spoiled petulant 7 year old to that place within where it is that we can hide from the ugliness of life, can be who we truly are and where no one will hurt us because they can't hurt us as we have risen above and have dealt with the pain of the loss, the pain of the thing that caused us humiliation, the thing that ate our lives and caused us to have to look at ourselves to see there in the mirror that is reflected back to us through other people the truth of who we each are. 

The Truth of Who We Each Are is a story that only the each of us can tell about ourselves, and we have always had the roadmap of time to show us through our past where it is that we have been, and where it is that we have the option to go.

The only option is where Spirit leads, and not where we are inclined to stomp our feet, cry out in frustration all the time about the tangible proof that we do not see and neither realize is the mirror which we look into, not only in others, but our very selves. The only option is the pattern and our paying attention to it.

The only option is to look back and see where we have been and realize that we made it here, and that here and now is familiar, and more than that, that we are perfectly fine and good and alive and well, and that really, we always were.

We were always okay. We just didn't realize it at the time. We did not know that what we were doing was not gnashing our teeth but refining ourselves as does fire with diamonds. 

We were being polished, refined, so that we could deal with the things that we met up with twenty years ago, but right now. We were brought there back then so that we would know what to do with right now.

That is a whole lot to think about, isn't it?

I Love You All !
ROX

What's Your Drug of Choice?

Seriously...physician...heal yourself...

Each of us is scared to death of something, and as odd as it will seem to read the next thing that I state - that we are all afraid to be good at something even though we know that this is the paradox of success in life- most of the time, we fail in our efforts toward wholeness because we do not believe that we will be successful at it. We all crave success, and we don't realize that once we have the thought in our heads that we will not fail as badly at a thing as we believe we will, we 
do not realize that once we make a choice to succeed, the Universe at that very moment conspires with us so that no matter what, if it is with right intent, will cause benefit with a ripple effect which will eventually benefit the entirety of the global family, if it will, for two moments in your lifetime, raise your own vibration and energy level... What you have right then and there is the only pain killer that you have ever needed.

We want to believe that there is more to it than only the weirdness, than only the thing that we wished for, and we want to believe all these people who tell us that manifesting life to be great is effortless - it is SO NOT effortless, and if you are evolved enough to know so, then you also know that no matter what, the effort is worth it all...that healing from within is what is best for us, and that we each have our own 'drug of choice,' and that it is up to us to use what is within to be our own Soul's doctor . 

There is pain involved with healing, but also there is the salve of knowing that one day, absolutely, we will heal from the pains which we choose to hang on to. Success for some people is measured in dollar bills and accolades, but there is more to it than only the material part of it. There is also the reality that we will each experience caused by the thing that we choose to call our drug of choice. 

This leads us to the question, "What's your drug of choice?" For me, it has always been art, particularly dance, particularly hula...what is your drug of choice, the one that you do a lot of when speaking in terms of your own Soul's Medicine?

"Physician, Heal Thyself," is a biblical verse which has stayed with me since I was a child. The idea that we are not able to do for ourselves what we want to believe others can is ridiculous. Sure, we might need help with it- I know that I needed help with it, and I got it, but on the whole, that which has happened to us can never rule us. We know when it is something that we cannot handle all by ourselves, and if we are wise we seek out others to help get us through the things that we cannot or do not or simply refuse to understand. Anytime that there is truth involved, namely when it is our own truth, there will always be some energy of resistance. This is because we have been taught to accept things that are not our own, and we have been shown someone else's way toward the ultimate goal of healing and wellness. No one tells us what we find out all on our own - that we alone are strong enough to be our own spiritual physician.

We alone, even when we need some assistance, are who makes our healing possible.

"What's your drug of choice? (Well, what have you got?)" (Alice in Chains, "Junkhead." 1996)

What, indeed, is your Soul's healing drug of choice? What is the way that you have always known to use that would make your temporary hurt feel better, would allow you to have a choice - to hurt, or not to hurt? What is it that you have, with the help of your soul's pleas to do something, done in order to fix that which has always plagued your soul? It is right there, right inside of you, the unique ability to heal your life. I cannot lie - it is not easy. It will not lie - it will hurt, a lot. And of course, I will never tell a person that it will be without obstacles, the healing which a lot of us chase but do not realize that we are only chasing what belongs to someone else when we seek to heal from the outside.

This is the problem with human beings, at least a lot of us - we do not want to hurt from the same old stuff that we want to no longer hurt from, but we are too scared to no longer have an issue to feel badly about, because for the most part, that is what we think is the truth of us. We think and believe that we are supposed to hurt, that we are supposed to elevate to some strange level of piety through suffering. We believe that we are supposed to be in pain, always, and we believe that if we are not hurting while someone else is, that we are somehow evil or heartless. My opinion is that we are being evil and heartless to ourselves if we are more inclined to martyr ourselves, to slay the dragons for other people without seeing that our own dragons are tired of being the scary thing in our lives. We are more inclined to let our egos make us believe that if we do not save someone else from their own pain and their own dragons that we are not good people, that we are not loving souls.

What do you do to help yourself feel better about anything? Do you prefer to blame it on everything outside of you, or are you more willing to look at the things that you see in other people as also being alive within you? Are you willing to point it out and then take it apart with others and not with yourself? Are you willing to recognize things in other people and also know that while you point your finger at them that you are giving yourself your own referral to a specialist who you do not realize is you? We are, as a whole, addicted to our own arrogance. In the thoughts which we think about other people are also there the things which are prevalent in our own lives. When we see that another person is insecure, and we voice it, we are, at that time, diagnosing what is our very own "trip."

Yet, again, most of us are way too arrogant to see it at face value, too egotistical to think that we are what we see in others. This is where our pain comes from. This is where the "Little You," also known as "The Child Within," are at odds with each other. When we hurt, it stems from a place that we have been, over and over again, and the first thought we think is NOT about what we can do for ourselves and by ourselves to make our hurts no longer be. Our first thought is to that very time in our lives many years ago when we first felt that sting of rejection, the hurt caused by another's judgment on us, the pulsating anger released through the ferreting out of our very young selves by someone in our lives who, unless they, too, were young like we were, knew better but allowed their arrogance and their ego to be who was the best judge of you. And it stuck....the pain, it stuck, with all of us, and too many of us have chosen without recognizing so, that what it is that we see in others is bad enough for us to have an opinion about and more, to voice it.

Lemme tell you this one thing - the opinion of someone else about who we are for real is never the permanent reality. Allowing an old hurt to have any sort of importance in our lives that we are not willing to change is our fault, but that someone else would be creepy enough to continually bring it up is their fault. How we handle the way that we heal from that energy is up to us and only us. We cannot expect the person who administered the disease to also be the one to heal us, because they are not able to see past their own arrogance and know that the one person who can and should heal them IS them, much as who we should know and believe is capable of healing us is our very self.

Sometimes the drug of choice for someone else is to pick on someone who they deem is somehow weaker than they are, but this is a non-truth, is something that you are not obligated to believe as YOUR truth, ever. Not even when it is technically true does it have to remain that way. We are able to change who we are by learning to believe our own truths.

It is the constant lesson that we will willingly teach ourselves about our own truths. Our medicine is not contained within a bottle, not contained within anything that is physical until we bring it out into the physical world. For some people it is the artist within who releases the demons and the closeted skeletons, and for others, is the actuality of substances which no one hurting should administer to themselves. For some it is dance, and others, music, and still others, the slow and constant loveliness that is poetry.

No matter what it is, we all have a method by which we go when speaking in terms of our own ability to heal our lives. We each have a magic within us that tells us that who we are is enough to make it through the days and nights. We know without being told, at least a lot of us do, that we are all the drug of choice we need. We are who comes up with the way to feel better, and eventually it becomes second nature for us to turn to that one thing, no matter what it is, that helps us along the Path to enlightenment. While I will not ever condone the ingestion of things that are temporary fixes to problems that have been labeled as permanently ours (by us even! Can you beat that?), I will never tell any other human being that who they are is not enough for them to know for sure that whatever it was that someone told them, or you, or anyone, really, was not the truth of them. It was not the truth of them, or you, or me, or anyone, because it was never our truth to begin with.

The next time you see something in someone else that you feel the need to say something about, say it to yourself. Say it to yourself because only in the healing of that thing within YOU will you be able to better understand the complexity of how anyone else got to where they are on their own. Say it to you because it will be the thing that you see in someone else that also plagues your own life, and say it to you so that you can finally forgive yourself for believing what you did not have to believe about you until you were able to see it in someone else. Say it to you because you own you, and say it to you because in saying it to you, you finally get to work on that one thing that maybe has been the truth told to you by someone else but is now a truth which no longer applies.

Say it to you, because if you continue to see what is in you as also being something in someone else, and you continue to point it out, and you allow it to continue to be the one thing that you always only recognize, pretty soon, you will be the only one around TO say it to.

Don't forget this!

I LOVE YOU ALL !
ROX

Can you Forgive?

Often times are we given to bouts of anger, of impatience, and of things that knock our brains around for a bit. Yet, all the emotions that we feel can eat us up from the inside, out, and the only way to stop this from happening is for us to forgive the sins of those who transgress against us. It is normal to be angry from time to time, but when we allow that anger to become hatred there is nothing good that can come of it. 

The only way toward our own return to our balance is to release the emotions knowing that eventually, if we are wise, we will see that the thing that caused us to have those emotions was a temporary thing. Sometimes, though, and there are a few of us who live this way, when we cannot let go of the pain and the angst caused by the anger, we allow it to become hatred. 

The simple energy that is Forgiveness is harder to have than it is not, but my thought is that it is easier to get over a ding to the Ego than it is to overcome tragic physical illness brought about by the harboring of negative energy. 

Not only that, when we feel like we need to forgive someone anything, it is also at that time that, too, we have to forgive ourselves....

Forgiving people is hard. I know this for sure. For a long time I had the hardest time with just letting go of my own anger with certain people. For a long time I wanted to hang on to being mad at them because I thought being mad at them taught them a lesson that only I could teach them. This did no one any kind of good at all. It would never do any kind of good at all anyway because the truth is that we can only change ourselves and no one else, and to be angry with anyone means that somehow they made us that way and too often we are inclined to stay in that mess of emotions that eventually become the hatred within us.

We want to believe that we are the victim, but volunteering things that way only serves us up with more victimization, and the harshest reality of that is we are who makes us the victim and no one else. When we are not willing to accept that it is up to us to do anything and we give our power away to other people through means of our allowing it to be the truth in our own heads that we hurt because someone else makes it that way and not because we are choosing to hang on to whatever it is that we are hanging onto, we also do not, if we are not so evolved, accept and neither realize that all along, it has been us.

All along, it has been us

All of the time that we have chosen to take and to waste on our believing and acting on energies that tell us that we are not to blame for how we feel is the same amount of time that it takes for any one of us to realize that it was not other people who needed us to let things go. It was us. Other people might be the catalyst to the things that we experience feeling, but it is not other people who make it so that we hang on to whatever it is that we feel.

We choose to not forgive, and we choose to hang on to the thing that makes us turn into a drama queen, and we are who chooses, or does not choose, to allow the thing that someone else did to go on as an unforgivable sin against all mankind. My first question to you, at least in regards to this part of forgiving people that is totally NOT forgiving people is "how come you are so cool that you think everything is owed to you, even someone else's forgiveness?" Why is it that you feel like you need rectification for something that you are hanging on to? This means that you are not ready to forgive anyone, that you are more inclined to try to bring a person to their proverbial knees instead of allowing them to forgive themselves for the thing that they did or still do to you. What is up with that?

What is up with the idea that you are so special that you have to make it real to you by cutting someone else down and making them live in your stinkiness that is unforgiveness for whatever unholy transgressions you think were done purposely against you? And even if it was done purposely, why are you bothering to care what someone who will over and over again choose to hurt you because you are too blind to see what it is that they are teaching you? Why are you looking at the hurt and why do you keep looking at the hurt, and why do you expect more from a person who might not even have a clue of the soul sickness that they keep helping you stay sick from?

What is the deal with making people feel responsible for your pain, and what is it that makes you think that you have some sort of golden power over them when in reality it is they who are powerful, more than you are, in your life, and it all boils down to the forgiveness.

All boils down to the forgiveness

If anyone read my last blog - the one where I get good and down and dirty nasty with people - you see one side of me that takes a lot for me to reveal. There are only a few people on this planet who know who it is who I am addressing, and there are only one or two who know that when I hurt, I get MAD MAD MAD, and when I am that mad, I write about it, and when I write about it, I am forced to go through the emotions of the thing that brought to me the headache that can sometimes be other people. Other people make me mad in that they ask for help, and then they expect it to be like an aspirin, as if what I am able to do is somehow theirs to be able to conduct. When I tell them that no, I am not one of those healers who will do some sort of strange magic (because we all know that there is no strange kind of magic, only energetically charged kind that is either positive or negative) to make anyone who will ask that I "do something" in order for their hurting to vanish.

Healing, Spiritual Power, and yes, even Magick...all of these things are mechanisms of the Soul, and all of them cannot be utilized effectively WITHOUT the purity of intent being that which is above all, rightly intended. But that is neither here nor there, and the reason I brought it up is because it will illustrate for a lot of people that there is no magic spell, no ritual, no anything that will make YOU feel better about how YOU feel about someone else hurting you, even if they did not intend to hurt you. You are taking too much time and effort to not feel bad by making someone else feel bad -mainly the person who you think took the time to do to you what they did not mean to, and more so when we are talking about when they do NOT know.

The last thing you want to do is NOT take the time to feel your real feelings

Not feeling one's own true feelings is the very stuff that the nightmare of addiction is made up of. No one realizes that the reality of addiction, while in part is due to what one is made up of astrologically, the other reality is that the reason that anyone will give themselves to any kind of addiction is simple - they are numbing their pain. Anger is pain. Sadness, pain. Self-loathing, pain, too. All of these things left unchecked lead to addiction. And addiction is housed in all kinds of things, and not all of those things are to be ingested. Sometimes it comes out as a sex addiction, and most of the time, substance addiction, but all of the time it is to cover up some sort of pain that we just do not want to address and see as the thing that is eating us alive.

The way that anyone feels about anything will lead them to either be stronger because they were willing to face it, or weaker, because they can only face it through the idea that painting it with an addiction will at least make it easier, and on the top of things this is the truth but overall it is the lie that is housed in the pain.

The Lie that is Housed in the Pain

The lie is that we are able to handle things without help, and by this I mean that sometimes that help comes in the form of a thought, or perhaps the form of a person who has what we need, and all the time we are so willing to believe even the lies that we hear that we know are lies that are also the lies that cover up the truth, and the truth is that when we are willing to turn our pain into something that it is not meant to be (the truth of us) we want so badly to fit a situation to who we are that we cannot see past the idea that maybe the thing that is causing us so much pain is causing us so much pain because the reality is that it hurts for a good reason, and that reason is so that we can recognize what it is that we do no like. In recognizing what it is that we are not too fond of, sometimes we find out that we are who brought it to our lives and the worst part is that sometimes we are too ready to hang on to that pain because in that pain is the "before this all happened I was fine and good with my life."

Yet, not all of us are inclined to do the things that it will take to NOT have to go through the pain so as to stay free of the things and the habits that cause us to hurt more, and when we hurt more, it shows.

In order to get over the lie housed in the pain, we have to be willing to not only see what it was that someone else brought to our lives but also how much we hurt or how unfortunately we chose to deal with the anger. Anger can become hatred, and hatred kills our souls which ultimately leads to the killing of ourselves and then our bodies. The lie that we tell ourselves is that we are not forgivable, that we are such bad people on our own that Spirit will never see to it that our lives will be magical, and the truth is that this is not the truth. It stems from the belief that in order to forgive others that they must perform great acts of kissing our okoles, and they must take our biting remarks and our energy that is angry on as the reality that we are in regards to them. Essentially we want them to bow to our sense of being hurt by them, and we want them to pay for it again and again, even though we, ourselves, would never think that this was okay were that it were us.

Can You Forgive ?

This is the ultimate question - can you forgive? Can you forgive yourselves for believing the things about you that you have always known were not the truth, and can you forgive the people who brought their opinion disguised as the lie that you housed in your pain? Can you totally give in to that pain so that from within it you can come forth and heal from it from having gone through it all? Can you give yourself the chance just once to become the imperfectly perfect absoluteness that is the example of all that is The Divine and realize that you are a part of it and that it is a part of you?

Can you bother with the idea that you are Loved beyond measure, beyond the idea that someone else finds in you a reason to hate themselves so much that they have to point out what they see in you that is also in themselves, and from that knowing, can you allow someone the freedom that is you forgiveness, not only of them but also of you?

Can you trust yourself to know what you are doing, enough so that once you have spoken your words to another person, words of forgiveness, can you also extend the same Love to yourself?


Can you do the one thing that you know is going to give you and the person who you are angry with the most Love energy that you can by simply stating one thing?

"I Forgive You"


I Love You All !
ROX

Make Room in Your Life for your own Greatness

Greatness scares people who cannot see it in themselves

You have to be able to see your own Greatness, hands down. You have to know at this very moment that what it is that you think you do that makes people leave your life is not something that has been orchestrated by you, at least not in a direct sense, and the reality is that it may not be that they are leaving your life but that they are vacating a space that is too big for their own greatness.

By this I mean that we are more inclined to see what we are not by seeing what others are.By this I mean that there are people on this planet who, for the very life and soul of them, cannot and even are not willing to believe that they have their own measure of Greatness. It doesn't matter what it is that any one of us is Great at. The only thing that does matter is that we all understand that no matter who thinks or says what about us, no matter who thinks they know who we are, and more than that, no matter who wants to compare through the Ego's idea of Greatness who is "better" than who, we all have our very own thing - and some of us a few things - that we are great at that not one other person on this planet can do quite in the manner which we can. This is not a mistake. This is not some sort of sick joke that the Universe or God or the Goddess have played on any one of us. This is nothing more than our being able to see, for real, through the fog that is the lie of someone else's sense of what is NOT great about them, that indeed we are all meant to carry out a specific and Divine Purpose, and one that, like everything else in this consciousness, is also Divinely Timed and Planned.

I am often called, by people who do not know any better, that I am the Queen of Excuses, but only because I tend to see things in a different manner. Of course, the "making excuses" thing is not really what it is and in fact is nothing more than my ability to see things as they are, my gift for helping people how to learn to elevate their own awareness, not only of things that happen in their lives but more, to see the reality that is the beauty that they are. Once it is that anyone sees who they are for real and in a different and more positive light is when the people who like to hate on other people come out of the woodwork, and they do so because of one thing - they cannot handle being out-shined by anyone else, and if we are in their line of sight, I promise you that if they are more inclined to leave your life because they are having a hard time with keeping up with you that it is not you who has to think about why it is that they left, but they who have to figure out how to strengthen the light who they are.

Greatness Is Meant to Be Ours - embrace it

The level of shininess that you have is there because you made it that way. No one else on the planet has the very same level of shiny that you have, and unless those people who call you on your Greatness and tell you that it is anything other than Greatness have the courage to no longer look at what is not theirs and choose instead to ponder their own Greatness, they will never know what it is that you know that is the truth of them, much as it is your truth - Greatness belongs to us all.

Greatness belongs to those of us who are willing to not look at what we are not and only to look at what we really are, and what we really each and all are is a testament to the fact that we are here and in each others' presence because in each others' presence we get to know who we are that is not according to ourselves. If who you are for real bothers someone else enough that they feel threatened by you or perhaps the thing that will make their ego tell the other ego-idiots in THEIR tribe that somehow, you are not good enough because something on the outside of you tells them so, that is THEIR problem and never was yours. You have no business trying to dumb yourself down so that someone who is not willing to prop themselves up so that they can see their own greatness as it really is, pits, dings and divots included, so that they can do like you have done and turn that empty hole in their lives into a container which will hold their greatness.

It is not your issue that someone else has recognized in you the thing that lives there in your Soul that they are having too many arguments with themselves as well as with other people who also have no idea of you or who you really and truly are. It is not your issue that you have done what you must in order to be where you are at this point, and if they are telling you about things that you know are not your own but that they think they see and that they feel matters more for them than for you about who you are and what you are possessed and comprised of, that is on them, not on you. It is highly creepy that there are people who will choose to make an issue about something that is awesome about anyone, turn it into a detriment just so that they can feel better about their very sorry selves, and it is not okay that people think that it is their right to opine about who they think you are in relation to them and make it anything that is "wrong" about you because it does not apply to them. My thought about that is that they need to see what they think is wrong with them because we know there is nothing wrong with you, at least not the way that anyone wants to think or to believe is essentially "wrong." You simply and only were being magnificently you and the sad fact is that there are people on this planet who feel that in order for their vibration to be elevated, they have to knock someone else's vibration down like so many dominoes.

No one has the right, and it is no one's life purpose to knock anyone else down. This creates so many negative realities for people that it is shocking that it seems that no one realizes it yet. There is no reason for anyone to feel intimidated, to feel like they are threatened, to feel anything negative when we are talking about peoples' greatness.

Our greatness does not stem from what other people tell us is the truth of us.

It never will. It will never be that way because very simply and truly, you are too grand and shiny for people to NOT notice you or who you really are, and when that happens and people knock you because of it ...well, only thing that matters at that point is if whether you ought to drop them like a hot rock or try dearly to not believe their truth as it applies to you.

Which, it doesn't. You are not beholden to anyone and you are not obligated to believe what other people say about you. You are not obligated to believe the things that make you hurt or cry, make you feel like someone took your snow-white evening gown and painted a big red "X" on it that everyone can see, point at and make you aware of. When we are dealing with people who are in our lives but are not like us and all they have to say about you or anyone else for that matter are things that they are not sure are the truth of you and according to you, it speaks a lot about what they are not rather than what you are in their eyes. In their eyes you are not good enough, and in their eyes you have to live up to their standard, but in the eyes of Spirit you are perfect and whole and lovely to see, because Spirit does not look at what we are on the outside, only the inside, and on the inside we all look exactly alike, no matter what. On the inside, physically, we are alike, and on the inside, Spiritual, we are also alike but the way that we perceive that likeness to one another will be, without a doubt, markedly different. If we were all exactly alike in terms of how we feel and how we think, there would be no reason for the world to have healers, Shaman, Kahu or Clergy, and there would be no need for a degree in Psychology. There would be no need for these things because they would not apply. We are comprised like one another, and that alone should be enough to make anyone with a huge ego realize that there are a lot more people than only themselves on this planet and a lot more chances that we will run into and have to deal with people who will try to tell us that we are not as Great as we are meant to be.

What they are really telling us is that because they do not know their own Greatness, that there can be no possible way that anyone else will know theirs and it is simply because when we are unaware of what is the truth of others we are also not able to be aware of anyone else's awareness. Let that sink in for a bit and wear it for a little while and you will see what I am saying. When we are more inclined to only see things from our own limited point of view and we are not willing to allow others to see things without our involving ourselves and imposing onto them who we are as opposed to who they are, and we impose ours onto them without allowing them to be who they are, we are wrong. Period.

Anyone choosing to see only what they think is there that will cause you to feel like you have to defend, that will cause you to think that somehow you are not the best version of you at this moment that you know you have been and have striven to be, anything that makes another person feel badly or angry...while those things might be the truth for some, they do not have to be the truth for you unless you want to believe that it is, and yes, Loves, it really is that easy to believe otherwise. No one has the right to make someone else pay for the Greatness within them that they want to see there but are not willing to work to make it shine.

To which I must say that it takes so little to clean up our own messes than it is to see that we have a mess but that we believe someone else's messes are more important for us to judge and compare ours with, when in reality what we are doing is just excusing ourselves from seeing what is there that is ours. What is there that is ours is meant to keep us from being a pain in the okole to others. What is there is meant for us to create from a mess the beauty that is there and is ours.

Most of the time though, most people are inclined to see that someone else's mess is not like ours, because if we live from the ego only, everyone else's messes are the only ones we will see because we believe ours is not a mess and that nothing needs to be cleared out.

If this is what you believe to be the truth of you, then perhaps it is not that the person who you are judging needs to clean their mess, but that you need to stop throwing more and more blankets on top of the pile of your own crud and that you really need, maybe, to call in a professional crud cleaner because while it is that you are pointing at the tightly coiled pile in your neighbor's front yard you have ignored the big stinky pile in the litterbox you hide from the view of others just long enough to make sure that the rest of the world sees the mess on the lawn and not the quiet stink which emanates from the closet which you insist there is nothing in other than things which have no use.

Okay, so you are right on one end...that those things have no use, but you are wrong in pointing out the pile your neighbor is now cleaning up while you ignore that putrid smell akin to cat litter that is not cat litter but is your Soul.

Life is indeed messy....so clean yours up because eventually while you point at the pile that is no longer in your neighbor's life, people will begin not only to smell your quiet stinkiness, but soon they will be able to see it, too. Think about it in terms of a cat litter box versus a grassy yard...one is hidden...

The other is out in view.

The other will get cleaned up.

The litterbox will continue to fill up, you will continue to ignore it, and well, yes, pretty soon....

Yup...no hiding your own stink.

I would imagine that Greatness smells a lot better than the remnants of too many cats tellin' other cats what their business is...right?

Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight

I Love You All!
ROX

Reverend Roxanne Cottell is the Kumu Hula and Creator of the Healing with Hula Program for Women and the Co-Founder of Na Hula O Ka Wahine 'Ui - The Sisterhood of The Soul. She is a blogger, book author, choreographer , Public Speaker, Domestic Violence and Emotional Abuse Survivors Advocate and Spiritual Coach. If you would like to contact her for speaking engagements, Spiritual Consultations, or for anything else, please send an email to reverendroxie22@gmail.com 
(c)  Roxanne K. Cottell. All Rights Reserved

That thing called the Life You are Creating....

All those strange things happening are not really strange at all

Call them whatever it is that you want to call them. Maybe you want to refer to them all as being coincidence, or maybe you might want to call them "miraculous" but no matter what you want to call all these things taking place in our lives at this time that seem too strange to be believable, I am telling you now that you have no choice BUT to believe that you were powerful enough to see to it that at least this part of the manifestation of the life that you have envisioned for a lot longer than you believe you have that you are now starting to actually live.

Congratulations, and welcome to the first day of the second half of your life. You have been building it to this point...and you really do not realize that you have been doing this part for a lot longer than you believe you have been.

A lot longer than you believe you have been

All those people who have come to your life this past year are there because on some level you called them into being for a particular purpose. All those things that you saw that you thought you needed but really only wanted have been replaced, at least in your mind, with something way WAY cooler than what you wanted not even a year ago. All the things that you asked for and wished for and dearly totally wanted are about to pop out of your thoughts and into your reality and the hardest part of this all is knowing that this is the truth and having to wait for those last precious few moments in Universal time....well, that, and believing that you alone were powerful enough to see it all begin to begin...like, right now even.

One of the hardest parts is that we have to wait a little bit longer (though not as hard as the believing you did this all with your creative power), even as we know the thing that we want is right around the corner, right there and waiting for us to grab hold of and take as the sign that somehow, we did things the right way, that somehow who we are matters on an entirely different level than it did for us just a few short months ago.  I know, I know...I said this all a few months ago, and I am saying it all again now, but now is different than it was 6 months ago.

Now is Different

Now is different in that you are different than you were 6 months ago. This illustrates for a whole lot of people who are reading this who do not understand the reason that, when I am coaching someone, I tell them to please go back a year from right now and think month by month about what stands out the most during those times, and then to go back 9 months, then 6 and then 3 because who you are now is a far different person than you 6 months ago. In fact, there are some of you reading this now who can go right back to April of this year, 2013, and how much has changed for all of us in that short amount of time, and see, too, that the things that we thought we wanted are no longer the same as they were.

Where the most of us thought and believed that we wanted a certain job, thought we believed that we wanted to be with a certain person, have a certain type of lifestyle, we find now that there are things within those things about ourselves that we no longer can even think are the truth of us because we have grown so far out of what it was that was comfortable that anymore now we are more inclined to think that maybe what we thought we wanted we felt that way about those things because the bottom line was that we really had little faith in ourselves as far was being able to have the reality of the dream we held near and dear to ourselves and held captive within the very soul of us. When we finally chose to wake up and accept the thing that was in front of us, took the time to think about how these new people happened upon us and why it is that they are so very important to our lives and our living, we begin to see that the truth is totally that the way we want our lives to be, we create it that way. 

The way we want our lives to be, at the moment that we know and believe that we want them to be a certain with, with certain types of people in them sharing our lives with us on whatever level it is that they share it with us, scares us, and it scares us because we see what we want, but we are not sure that we are able to fulfill what it is that we see ourselves doing with anyone or in anything, and we run. We run and we hide and we keep running and we keep hiding until one day we realize that no matter how fast we run, no matter where it is that we choose to hide ourselves from the changes we know we will have to make, change and the things we intentionally manifested into our lives catch up with us and we realize, finally and without a thought to turn away from our own dreams, we come to accept what it is that we have called into being.

Accepting what we call into our lives is easier said than just automatically done

It is hard to believe that sentence, that thought that we have to accept what it is that we call into being as ours. Yet, this is the truth and it is a very scary truth to say the very least. It is scary because when we create our own truths we are essentially and at that point the very one who is responsible for the way that things turn out and at this point there are too many of us who know that we are the ones who create our lives to this point, and in that same manner, even as we have created what we know to be the life we have lived at this point, we still have this big scary thing called "the future" and the truth is that not one of us should be or needs to be too concerned about the future because if we are savvy enough with all of these things that we do all the time we also know too that what we have done thus far and to this point is all by our own hand.

Since we know that all of these things have been done by our own hands, and since we can now believe and accept it all as being that way, we can also and now ease ourselves into these new truths. Where it was that once we thought we knew what love was to us, we now know it to be something quite a bit different, and we also know that there is real Love from people who really Love us, and there is the sort of Love that only lasts until the next better thing rolls around, and if that is the way that you see things and do things, then that is also the only way that you will ever see things - from the ego, not the soul, and it is from the soul that we all want to live from but at this time there are a whole lot of us who are still ego driven and trying to make decisions based on the ego's thoughts about what the Soul needs and wishes to grow into becoming.

The things that we each wanted, the people who we thought we would want to be with are not the same anymore. Sure, there are still the ones who were there, who will always be there, but even they are changed, and those changes, even as we might not like them for ourselves are exactly what those other people truly needed. Just like we could not change them back when this last year beginning in August of last year began, we still cannot change them now, but now we are needing more to worry about what we need else to look forward to, and I promise you - it is quite a lot.

So, just so that you realize now that it might seem like things are crawling at a snail's pace, what is actually happening is that our changes are no longer happening at a gradual pace but they are immediate, and we just don't realize it because all of these changes are happening fast, and we are a soul with less of an ego now, more than we were just a year ago, and it is the whims of our souls which are no longer guided by the physical, for the very most part, that is mattering anymore.

The things that mattered to us just one year ago now are no longer of major importance, because within the year that has passed we have come to accept that we matter, and that we matter more than we thought we did, that we matter more now than we ever have in the past, and we matter more to those who we love, but most of all, we matter the most to ourselves because in the year that has passed we realized one very important thing...

...nothing matters without us....

I Love You All !
ROX


Reverend Roxanne Cottell is the Kumu Hula and Creator of the Healing with Hula Program for Women and the Co-Founder of Na Hula O Ka Wahine 'Ui - The Sisterhood of The Soul. She is a blogger, book author, choreographer , Public Speaker, Domestic Violence and Emotional Abuse Survivors Advocate and Spiritual Coach. If you would like to contact her for speaking engagements, Spiritual Consultations, or for anything else, please send an email to reverendroxie22@gmail.com 
(c)  Roxanne K. Cottell. All Rights Reserved