The Bridge and what I learned there...

The Bridge...

Okay, so yesterday was Christmas, and normally it is not like me to be away from the people who happen upon my Aunt Bernadette's house on Christmas Day. Normally my little cousin Drew is there and normally my other little cousin Micah is there but this year, and I am very, very grateful to have seen her, it was Kisha, and always Kisha and I have been Spirit Sisters. It is my own thinking that she was brought into this lifetime for me to have more than only one younger sibling. The same goes for both Drew and Micah. We have that Soul Matched energy of Siblingship, and it is the grandest thing in the world to me.

What else is no secret is that I can only really deal with a lot of people with whom I share DNA for VERY limited amounts of time. I don't know why this is the truth of me but it is the very and dearest truth of me. Perhaps it is Karmic. Perhaps it is my own fault for not trusting a whole lot of people because a whole lot of people, I realize and accept now, have left me. I have been abandoned by people, or at least that is what it feels like to me, many, many times in my lifetime. Yet, yesterday, as I sat meditating on the bridge in my aunt's backyard, right there with my oldest child, Jeremy, and his Spirit Twin, A.J., and after I had recited the blessing for whom I was sent there to (because I really was NOT wanting to do anything or go anywhere yesterday ...) recite blessings for, I was given a vision, and it was a grand vision that has more than only that one part to it. There is more - lots more - but I have to wait for them...

Many people there yesterday thought that I would be completely and totally drunk, but that did not happen. What happened instead was that I was shown who I am, shown that all the things that have crossed through my mind and all those energies and everything else that has culminated this year of 2012 was meant, was with purpose and yes, indeed, guys, it was meant to throw us out of our comfort zones because that is, more often than not, the way that manifestation and change just is...we always get what we need, what we ask for and we are never really sure how it is all gonna come our way. I know that I am pretty scared, but in a "OMG the BABY IS ON ITS WAY RIGHT NOW!" sorta way, and well, there is not a lot that any of us can do about it, because it is happening to all of us, right at this moment, and the texts and the emails and the chats that I have been working on this morning already tell me that I am not alone in what I was shown.

So, today, guys, I am hoping to give you all these words from Spirit that may or may not comfort you, may or may not give you peace, and may or may not be just what it is that gives you confirmation, gives you a reason to look back, even if only for a moment, and see just where you have been, just this past year of 2012.

Without further ado...here is a message that I am sure we are all waiting to have as ours...do understand, too, that yes, this is my writing but that no, this is not my message. This is a message for the collective soul of us, by the collective Soul of the All that Is...

We all need to stop worrying about what we think we are going to lose. We all need to stop the emotional hoarding, need to stop and smell the roses (or the plumerias) and we need to take a deeper look at who we each are WITHOUT the people in our lives, WITHOUT the people who brought us pain, and we need to see just how far we have come and how their influence has shaped our FEARS. We have held on to these same fearS for so long - and no matter how it ...the fear...has manifested itself, it chose to do so these last few days. In and of itself, and whether we all believe it or not, the fear that we have held onto for so long that has recently manifested itself in whatever way it has is there to teach us WHO WE ARE NOT ANYMORE. If you thought for any amount of time that you are JUST what the mirror that you stare at everyday and JUST comprised of that big fat ego of yours, think again. YOU ARE NO LONGER THAT WHICH YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE...so Merry Late Christmas for that!

WE ALL need to STOP THE RUSH TO JUDGMENT, because none of us likes being judged for what and who we are not. We all know that there has been a GIGANTIC change in all of us, both independently as well as collectively, and we have taken too much time to see what the other person and the other people in our lives are NOT. Now we have to do what we can to really think about not just who they are not, but who they are no longer to us. While there was a whole lot revealed to me on that bridge last night, the one thing that stood out the most is that we have fueled our lives in every fashion up to this point from the Ego's point of view and have not, at least a lot of us, chosen to learn to see with our Sprit's Eyes.

We each NEED BADLY TO LEARN TO SEE FROM Our Spirit's Eyes, because what we see with those very eyes and what our Soul KNOWS what it is looking at ALL THE TIME IS THE TRUTH OF US- and we cannot "do" anything to make it be otherwise, because that which we think we are avoiding we are really only putting off, and what we are putting off that comes back to us over and over again is somehow needed, and it is our own human failing as finite bodies that makes us believe that who others are is somehow not a reflection on who we really are. Let me tell you one thing is absolute and sure - all those people who have gone out of your lives, and all those situations, and everything that is no longer there - ALL OF IT AND ALL OF THEM are no longer there because their purpose in our lives is met. To keep it all up in trying to NOT let go is preposterous because we will be wasting our good loving energy on things and situations and people who will continue to no longer be purposeful and instead who will become energy vampires, stealing our good energy from us so that they can make it through their lives.

There is a VERY REAL feel to the energies right now of UNCERTAINTY, and this is because we are all UNCERTAIN about what it is that we see, feel and know, and we are uncertain about it because we are being "cleansed", in a way, of the toxins that brought us to this higher plane of awareness. If you want to test it out, think about who you were at this time last year and who you are this year and ask yourself if you like who you are now or who you were then. I am telling you that I am very happy with the new and improved version of Me. Happy because this me is stronger, this me is a lot more wily than I was, and this me refuses to suffer fools lightly. This is what I asked for. This is what I wanted. This is who I Am, and this is who I refuse to not be anymore.


YES!! Whatever it is that you see, that you keep seeing, that has bothered you, scared you, enthralled you...whatever...the answer is "YES" and the heavens tell me through the ringing in my ears that yes, it is fine...all systems go...so go for it...

Other than that ...carry on, because regardless of what any one of us thinks we want, what we need is what we are being given, because what we want is so, so, so awesome that our human brains cannot think that it is possible that what is going on is real, that what is going on is permanent. Trust it when I tell you, when you are told by others, when you have that little tiny feeling in the middle of your soul that yes, this is yours, this is for you and this is gonna change your life and your way of living...that it is the very truth, not only of me, not only of you all, but us, the world of humankind, as a whole...

Yup...exciting and scary and ...wow...all at one time !!
It's a party right now, guys, complete with drunks, drama and the idea that we all have to wake up eventually...might as well wake up sooner than later is my thinking...

I Love You All !!

(And I am sure that as we get closer to the end of this year that me and Spirit are gonna have a buttload of stuff to tell you all !!!)

ALOHA
ROX

...the gift I received from Me...

It is not often that I will write anything, do any kind of work at all on Christmas Morning...

...yet here I am, with this magnificent gift that I did not realize was a gift that so dearly I needed this morning. I could sit here and tell you all about the drama that was not mine that I walked right into, and I can sit here and tell you all the details of it all and hear the collective groan that would ensue.

Or, I can do what I have been compelled to since about 3 A.M. ...yes, it was enough to make it so that I could not fall asleep. Yes, it stayed in my head and is still in my head and while it was already posted on my Facebook wall, at the Behest of Spirit, I am again posting this beautiful piece of writing that, until last night, I saw as only an exercise in the strengthening of my Soul Gifts.

What was not apparent last night became fully apparent this morning...

There was so much that this piece of writing that I did as an exercise in broadening my own Higher Gifts told me about me, told me about my Circles and more, told me about the idea that I am fine and safe in the Arms of God, that no matter what is happening at this point in my life that I am fine, that all is as it is meant to be, and that on all levels I need to stop, smell the roses, so to speak, look into the eyes of those with whom I spend the very most time with and see myself there, in them, if for nothing else than to know that "...indeed, child, you are well Loved...they Love you...you Know they are your Soul Tribe...I Brought Them All To You So That You Would Know..." and yes, they do Know who they are, and they Know that I love them all, each and every one of them, for simply being real, not only to me, but to their very selves.

It was the thing that I longed for the most - the sight that it would take for me to Know, to See, that I am them, they are me, we are Ohana, and that is not mine but is God's because it was God Who gifted my Life with them all. While I do not, have not ever felt indebted to anyone, Namely Not God, I indeed feel very blessed, very much as though where I am right at this time in my life is where I am meant to be. Even if I do not like some of the things that I have to learn right now, I know that it is meant, that you cannot break the Cirlce, because the Circle is the Light...I Am the Light...We Are the Light...and while I make the joke of always being a traveler on the Light Fantastic, I Know now that it was never in jest that I have said it, because My Circles have proven that I have been right on it, all along, with the idea that my Circles are what keep me safe, happy and secure...

To All Of You...I Love You...To those who have helped me bring myself to this point, Mahalo...you All mean so very much to me...

" My Circles..."
Roxanne K. Cottell

"I am standing in the center of a large iridescent circle of Light. I am dressed in a pale blue dress. It is long, but not flowing and not even clingy. The Darkness, the Nothingness, is an inky blackness, yet my presence and that of the Circle seem to be just enough light...light that is a pale, pale blue. It is safe and endless. I am comforted by this Light, by this Circle.

I am now the Circle, glowing with the heavenly blueness that is Peace. I surround myself around the Me who is in the Middle of the Circle. I see that my surrounding Light comforts the Me in the Middle and makes the Me in the Middle feel safe and okay with herself, right where she is at, in the Middle of that Heavenly Blue Circle.

I am the Me in the Middle cradled by the Me Who Is the Circle and I am seeing other people and their Circles, and We Are All ourselves in the Middle as much as we are the selves that surround the Me in the Middle. I see that there are those with whom I have formed close and seemingly unbreakable bonds and it is never spoken nor assumed our places in the Circles that are each others' lives. I find that that whose Circles are most like mine are not the same color at all but we are all of the same Soul Frequency.

I am now looking at my own Circle from the outside, and I find that I am not able to look away because I am amazed at what I see there, and I know that what I see is that my Circle is well-lit and indestructible - Light cannot be destroyed...ever.

It can only expand, grow bigger, and illuminate..


...many blessings!!! 

I Love You All !!
ROX

'Tis the Season - The Most Important Gift Of All...

"Humankind has not woven the Web of Life. We are but one thread within it. Whatever we do to the web, we do to ourselves. All things are bound together. All things connect..."
(Chief Seattle, circa 1854)


I had a hard time falling asleep last night. Things happened that illuminated for me the bigness of everything happening in my life right now, and in a moment's silence, I felt the contrasting difference between what is real to me, what is not real to me, and more than that, who are the most important people to me. So, with this post, I want it to be known that yes, indeed, this is a grand and beautiful message from Spirit, but it contains things within it which are all my own, and indeed, it is a message that dearly, we all need to have and to Know, because it is a message of great Love, and, too, has contained in it the words of the Kuleana that belongs to each of us.

Do Not Shun Your Kuleana because very simply, it is a gift

"Kuleana" is the Hawaiian word for "responsibility." There are many of us who, even now, at this time in our history, refuse to believe that we created the mess that we now see, and there are many more of us who believe that what we see in front of us is not able to be corrected. I promise you, my family, that it is able to be remedied, able to be made right, able to be "all pono" and as it should be. We need to get involved in a big way, beginning Now. These are not my words, but that of Spirit, that of the collective heartbeat that was once the collective and mournful heartache of the Grander Collective Soul.

We chose to rob ourselves of the goodness that we are. For many lifetimes we shunned our own gentle nature, and it has cost us more than we know it has, but just as together we made a mess of things, so, too, will it be together that we will repair them. It will take us time and it will take us working together, but more than that, it will take every ounce of Love within us to make things right again, to make ourselves a whole Tribe and more than anything right now we all need dearly to pay strict attention to the very desires of our scarred and battered hearts. We need to convene on the Soul Level. We need to be with each other, not just physically, but more importantly, through our Souls. We need to forge a collective effort to ho'oponopono and make right that which has yet to even itself out, so to speak. We need to make things okay for us all again, and the way that we do that is to simply follow the Path mapped out by our Hearts and our Souls and follow it...follow it all the way to the place within where the monsters can no longer get to you, to the place where the fear is not there, where it is that comfort reigns and most of all, where it is that we Love.

Spirit Words

...and now, a word from the Ultimate Sponsor...

"...take heed, take heed to these words, Na Mamo, the Cherished Ones, the Children of Spirit that You all Are. Do you not know how truly Divine you are? Are you not aware of the Love that you have to offer, that you are meant to share with the entirety of the Global Ohana, of the Soul Tribe that you all are? There is not a whole lot that any of you can do that I will not see as a blessing, as a part of the grander Peace that you are a big part of. 

It is a beautiful thing to see You all as you are...Blessed...Divine...Sacred...Uniquely Important...You each are meant to Love one another, and while it is that for many, many lifetimes you have chosen war over peace, your Collective Soul has cried out, has given you all much to Learn of one another, and the thing that you learned is the opposite of Love, is the thing that has shed Light on that which makes you different from one another...

You have been taught by your living that you are meant to compete with one another, that you are meant to see that which keeps you all apart, but in the time that you were each busy learning what you are not, there was a part of you each that could feel the Divine, could see within the darkness, that could be looked at and could be looked at through the very eyes of the Soul...could be felt in the heart of Spirit...could be seen with your collective sight...through it all, you managed to bleed out the things that no longer were of good service or good purpose, not in Life, but in your own singular Lives, and you have felt the sting of that which is no longer there for you...you must know that that which hurt you was not "there for You," but was meant only to teach you who and what you are not. 

You are not a warring Tribe, for you were all created through Love, through the Love that is within for all of Na Mamo, and All of You Are Na Mamo, truly are the Cherished Ones, for it was from the collective mele a ka pu'uwai...the collective song of emotions of the heart that the very entirety of mankind has chosen at this time to come together, and you have chosen to come together at this time to help heal the wounds that so many are still keeping with them. This does not make you safe, the idea that remembering only the hurt that you went through is enough to keep you out of harm's way...what you went through was meant to teach you, to make you more aware of who you really are, and in the manner which I felt you all would, you all thought you had a better idea...

You are now seeing the grander scheme of things, and in those things you are able to see you, able to see the you which exists in everyman, in everywoman, in the Light of the Soul which is emanated from the beauty that is a child. It looks scary to you, because you are not used to such grand shows of beauty, not used to believing that this is what you have all created, because you all wished for it and made it so. You are the reason for the paradox, for the measure of shared Grace that you have had but a tiny feeling of, a tiny taste of, a tiny portion of. And the reason it is tiny is because you have been so afraid to see what you truly are. 

You are not tiny. You are big and bright, and you fear who you are...do not be afraid. Peer into the Light that is You, that is Yours. Embrace that which you are so markedly afraid of. Be The Light. Go headlong into the Light just as much as you went straightforward into the darkness, into the shadows, and Know that you are the Perfect Example of Love, of Grace, of Hope, of Belief, of Faith, of the All that Is...

Do not fear what and who you are - embrace it. Embrace it because it is you and embrace it because it is the Gift that you each gave to yourselves - the Knowing that you are all here for the greater purpose of Ho'oponopono, of making right that which is other than right. You have made it a point to be horrid to each other, perfect strangers you were until one day you chose to no longer only see just you, no longer to see just what is not you, and you thought that it would be an easy thing to see yourself for real. You found out that no, it is not. It is not easy to see what is you, especially when the You that is real is not the same you that you thought you were. You were never the shell that your physical self tells you that you are. Your physical self is the vehicle, but the real you - that is the testament to the Love that you all hold within you. You have waited for this very perfect moment, for this time in your lives collectively to be the shared Light that you are, that you are together, that you are the very Na Mamo that you all know you are, the very Cherished Ones, the Blessed Ones.... 

It is within your very heart of hearts, the very collective Soul that you are most treasured. Yours is the most infinite of gifts, for it is the gift of intangibility, is the gift that is common among you, even as your lives are markedly different - you are all the same, you are all Na Mamo, you are all Precious. You are All.

You Are All.
You Are All.
You Are All.

You have each been given the gifts of one another and for generations have believed that there was more, but how could there be more when you are all there is? How can there be more when what you all are is infinite, is the very epitome of Aloha, is the reason that you have been brought to this lifetime? You are all so very marvelous, are such perfect examples of the Love that is within, that it is a befuddlement that you cannot see your own Greatness, your own Ability, Your Very Own.

Take heed, Na Mamo, Cherished Ones, that this is the time in your own history that you must...MUST be in the company of those whose lives and purpose are aligned with your own. Know that not all will have the same purpose, but that all have a duty, a Kuleana, not just to each other but to your very own selves, to be the Light, to Lead, to Honor that which is Honorable within..you must know who you are, and the only way to Know is to ponder, to ask, to believe and to honor. Honor one another. No longer is there the need to war, for war is not a measure of the Soul. You must live your life in grand shows of Love, must bother with that which seemed like it was not worth the time and the effort for it is in those smaller things that the bigger things become what they are meant to become. There is nothing that is not important in this lifetime, not for any one of you, and the time is Now to begin to call in those who share sameness with you, to make use of their gifts, as they complement your own.

You are not what you thought you were, but you are very much more than you will ever know...embrace your own Light, your own Love, and give that Light and the Love as though your lives depend on it...because most assuredly, it does..."

To all of you...

I want those of you who reside in the closeness of my very heart and soul that you are so much a grander part of the thing you see as your life, so much more than you know, and I see it. I see all of it.

More than that, I want you all to know that what I see there is a work in progress and that we are all in this together...Know now that you are priceless, that your value to me is much more than all the treasures that this world holds, and that we are the shared Light.

May your day be merry and bright...may you know the truth that is yours...may you always Believe in that which seems so very unbelievable that rather than deny it, you ponder it.

This is the very heart, Soul, Kuleana of Na Mamo...

We are all Na Mamo...we are all The Cherished Ones...

Mele Kalikimaka e Hauoli Makahiki Hou...Merry Christmas and Happy New Year...

I Love You All !!
ROX
Na Hula O Ka Wahine 'Ui- A Sisterhood of The Soul

'Tis the Season - The Gift of Belief

Most of the time, we Believe what is not our own Truth

The most of society in America prides itself on our Constitutional rights. We have the right to do as we please here in this country, and one of those things that we carry strongly within us is our Right to Be Who We Are and to make no apologies for it. We also carry with us each the pounding and sometimes arrogant belief that singly we all believe the same things. Yet the sort of belief that I am talking about at this time has nothing to do with what a person's religious beliefs are and everything to do with what we each believe about ourselves.

Beliefs about ourselves are given to us

*Sigh*...I hate admitting it, but up until recently I was willing to believe that what others said to me and about me were the truth. I mean, in my thinking, how could what they said ( and some still say) not be the truth of me? How could it be wrong that they see me upset and tell me that I am gonna "go off," and how could it be wrong that I am way too sensitive to handle some information and how can they be wrong when they are watching me be the way that they say I am?

Trust me. They were wrong. While it is that for the majority of my life I have been quietly labeled as being "The Black Sheep," and while I know now what I think I have always known - that I am NOT "The Black Sheep" but rather and have always been more akin to the Canis Femina - the Lone Wolf - it still did not, for a lot of years, take away the sting brought to me by the opinions of others. It took me a long time to not wear that coat of inky blankness and trade it for the awesomeness that comes with the knowledge that you are quite unique, that you are unlike anyone else, that what you have is something that no one else does (and shouldn't)...it took me a lot of years to come to the conclusion that while these people with whom I share DNA and memories with are allowed to have that opinion of me, I do not have to have it, do not have to keep it, wear it, be it because I am not whatever it is that for many years I was assumed as being.

What we choose to believe about ourselves is ours alone, and we would be remiss to not take a closer look at the things that hurt us and question if whether or not we care about what anyone else thinks of us (unless of course you have gone plum nutty and decided that they are correct about you). For a long, long time, I cared about what those who I share genes with thought of me, to the point of tears, the point where I would be crippled with the idea that I had to be what someone else's version of "perfect" was, and when the time came - recently, even - and I was presented with these same issues brought by the same people who had presented them to me to begin with, I stopped myself from becoming angry, from weakening me to the point where I would be in tears because to me, the idea that I had done what I thought I should have was not enough no longer was good enough for me. I decided to let loose on those people with a Christic energy that screamed to them that they hurt me, that they were part of the reason that I was such a wreck and that what they said about me that I heard as a young child stuck with me and helped shape me to become who I am now.

While who I am now is no where near that blubbering wash of tears and heartache and hurt pride, their words and their opinion of me did not stop hurting me until I was able to form a new thought, not about what they said about me, but what I thought about me.

What we think about who we are totally matters

Women in particular have been raised to believe that we are dependent upon any man's opinion of us. If I went by the opinion of "any man" I would be right where I do not want to be, which is as some object, as a nonhuman, as a thing, if you will.

Humans need to stop trying so hard to tell other people who they are, and singularly we need to create who we are and not live in the things and ways of being that other people tell us we are. For a very long time I believed that I was not as lovable as I knew I was, and that hurt. That thinking stretched out into my life and dictated all that I did for a very long time. It was not until I was given a new thought to think about myself that I was inclined to stretch, inclined to see if what I thought of me was more truth than what the old thoughts placed by others were. When I thought about it from my own point of view, I found out that I am every bit as smart, brilliant, beautiful, funny, strong, morally upstanding...all the good things we each strive for...and more. When I chose to accept that my own DNA sharers had a different belief and that I would not be the one who would be able to change that about me with them, it made all the difference in the world.

It made me know that I was lovable, and my Soul Tribe proves it to me, and I don't even have to try to get them to accept me - they Love Me as this Me. It made me accept that I am good at the things that are uniquely mine. It made me see the truth of me as my Soul Tribe sees it, and no matter what anyone else thinks, I LOVE me. I do. I love who I am. I believe that whatever it is that I have to go through right now is temporary and that it is not God telling me that I am somehow not acceptable to anyone.

Just because someone else tells you and keeps telling you that you are not good enough for them, it does not mean that you cannot or should not be good enough for YOU!! YOU are the most important piece of the puzzle of your life, and how you feel is yours alone - not theirs. There is no permission that you need to be you, and if you try too hard to continue to fit yourself into an old thought about you then you will continue, too, to be unhappy, to feel like you somehow just do not fit in, and the truth will be that you do NOT fit in, because you will be trying NOT to fit in with your Self.

No one else but You HAS TO live with you, and as long as you continue to believe what other people are saying about you that is not healthy and will not cause you to at least question their ideal of you, you will not only continue to live with this you, but you will also be inviting those people to live with you in your head, too. They will continue to be the very thing that guides your every thought, and they will be all that they have been, all this time, and you will keep on hurting, and it will not be because of the wrongness of thought they have of you, but the very idea that you keep believing it.

Today decide to give yourself the gift of Belief in who you are. You are not wrong for being You - no one is.

In fact, you never were wrong about you...but they all were, and now you need badly to open that present for you that is from you, and that is the gift of believing something else about you.

This is not to say that you cannot believe the good things that these people say...I will admit to the fact that ALL of them have told me what an amazing writer I am, how creative and uniquely gifted I am...and I thank them for finally seeing it, or at least part of it...it is to say, however, that no one has to do like I did and be a good little girl and accept that these people feel the way that they did and some still do. It is also to say that when such an issue comes up over and over again that it is time at that point to take a really long look at the reason why anyone would say the things that they keep on saying. It doesn't make it the truth, but it makes it something that may be worth looking at.

I mean, come on...not one of us is perfect, but all of us can aspire to excellence, right? (Riiiight)...and how can any one of us aspire to anything that is new to us if we are not willing to take that look at who we are, fix what we believe to be the wrongs that others see, mess with it a little bit, and create it into something that is the same thing, but better?

I took my own pain, my own heartache, and turned it into something that will never, ever change..

I turned it all, with the help of certain others close to me, into Aloha, because Aloha...Love...is the greatest, purest, most potent medicine known to mankind. If we choose to treat our Soul's ailments with Love, choose not to judge it but more to just ponder it and see where it is that fear reigns, we will see to it, too,that we have been living in a truth that is not ours.

Live Your Truth. Be Who You Are. Be, In Love. And most of all, Be at Peace with it all...

I Love You All !!
ROX

Reverend Roxanne Cottell is the Kumu Hula and Creator of the Spiritual Hula Program for Women and the Co-Founder of Na Hula O Ka Wahine 'Ui. She is a blogger, book author, choreographer and Spiritual Adviser. If you would like information about "ROCK your NUPTIALS" Weddings or simply just to contact Roxanne for information about the Spiritual Hula Program for Women or information regarding private hula or Spiritual Guidance sessions with her feel free to send her an email.
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'Tis the Season - The Gift of Lokahi

LOKAHI : Unity. Agreement. Accord. Agreed. In Unity.
(Pukui and Elbert, Pocket Hawaiian Dictionary, (c) 1975)


In a few days we are going to be in the company of people with whom most of us have blood ties. If you are like the rest of the world, then you, like the rest of the world, including me, are one of those people who tend to have nothing in common with a lot of them other than DNA. Yet, this is not the time of year that anyone should be thinking about the division between blood ties. Yet, most of the time, we do.

Again, yes, including me. It is not because we hate them or because of anything other than that, after years of trying to figure them out, we have only come to the point where we have barely begun to figure ourselves out. This is the truth. Of all of us.

It is the reason that, a lot of the time, I won't stay at one place for too long, and this year is also no exception - I have no intention of staying at the place I normally am on Christmas day and with good cause - my little cousin is in Belize, and without that guy around, and while I ADORE the others, it just will not be the same. Rather than being with a spirit of Lokahi only at one place this year, I intend to share my own Light with others who are not at my aunt's house.

Yet this is still not the sort of Unity of which I write. The sort of unity that I am talking about is the sort that will raise the entire vibration of the planet and it simply comes down to the act of unity. The act of unity is simply our sharing in fellowship with those we share history, bloodlines, and yes, soul ties with.

Lokahi is Aloha

Being with those we care the most about is Aloha, and thinking in those terms, so, too, is Lokahi. Lokahi brings to us the feeling of belonging. It is not the sort of belonging that is quelled by being the other half of a romance, and it is not the sort of Lokahi that is the protest type, and it is not the kind of Lokahi where we have to put on our game face and face the world in the "us against them" manner.

The sort of Lokahi which I write of is the kind that prompts us to want to be with those we love the most. It makes us wistful for the things that make us human, and we want to be with other people because in them we see our very selves. When it comes to a time like the holidays, there is a whole lot of Lokahi happening, but a lot of the time it is the same ol' same ol' - you know what I mean. There is the token angry drunk uncle who fouls things up for us. Then you have the aunt who seems always to want to share their own ailments with us even though the last thing we want to hear is yet one more thing about yet one more person being sick. There are the cousins who have a whole lot in terms of jobs and homes and cars and toys but when it comes to happiness, they are whining all the time about what they don't have instead of being joyful about what they do have. I know these monsters, because I have been these monsters.

These are the monsters that make us not want to be with people period, and it is time that we changed this about ourselves as a whole. It is time that we took this time in our lives and learned that we are really not the only people on the planet, that we need each other, and that we have got to start learning...or rather...re-learning that we are meant to be with one another and that the survival of the planet and our global family depend on it.

"This Little Light of Mine..." I'm gonna let it light up the world...so, too, should you with yours

I say much of the beauty of our own Soul's gifts. We are granted the opportunity to be with people, not only for the purposes of Love and Light, but so that we can see in them our very selves. I tend to check myself through the people with whom I spend the most time, and I am honored, elated even, to know that these well-lit Souls are part of my life. Without them there I would not have the gauge by which I trek through the light fantastic called "This Life," and without them I would not have the markers needed that we all need that show us not only who we are, but more, what we are all about.

I know through those who I am with the most that I am Light, that I am the very Breath of Aloha which I seek, that I am made of all Love, made of all strength, made of the things that take time and heartache to have within me. Yet it is there, and I know it is because of the company I keep. I see it there because I see it in my Soul Tribe, the very tenets of Aloha that I am very keenly aware of that I helped them have, too.

It is with a grandness called Aloha that Lokahi is paired. Without Aloha, there can be no Lokahi. I mean, sure...you can be "together" and "unified" with people for any reason, but they will know when it is not the truth of you, which means that all of us needs badly to really think about it for a minute when we think that we "have to" be with people who insult our Soul, who want to make us feel badly about who we are because we do not measure up to their ideal. How about this year, we each take the time to forget our pride, forget how we feel, not make ridiculous conversation with people we do not bother with for the bulk of the year and try like hell to be good with them so that we can be good to them?

Why not, this year, instead of producing and promoting through our involvement in the drama, try it another way? Why not try it for real, the spreading of your own Light to those who seem to drag their darkness with them wherever they go?

This year, do it differently - instead of joining in the madness that is the darkness...try a little bit of light instead? This year, go about yourselves with the thought in your heads that you are going to spread your light, no matter what and no matter who says what to you, about you, or when you are no longer around? If they react to you the way they always have, just think to yourself how lucky you are to no longer be that way, to no longer be involving yourself in the drama that can be the holiday season. Why bother to add to the hurt when there is so much more to be had in the way of giving your Love to those who so obviously need it because if they didn't, they would not be willingly showing you where it is that they hurt so much?

This year, be the beacon that sheds light on the world rather than one who will add to the inky darkness that is so prevalent at this time of year?

Why not try it? Why not be the Light that you Are?

Give the gift of Aloha through also giving the gift, through your actions, thoughts, and words, of unity, of Lokahi...pull together this year instead of pulling apart.

You will find out that it hurts a whole lot less to have to give in to the tradition of drama. Start a new one, guys...start one that includes everyone. Practice the art of Lokahi, and include everyone in your Life a part of that Knowing.

Be the Beacon...share your Light!!

I Love You All !!
ROX

Reverend Roxanne Cottell is the Kumu Hula and Creator of the Spiritual Hula Program for Women and the Co-Founder of Na Hula O Ka Wahine 'Ui. She is a blogger, book author, choreographer and Spiritual Adviser. If you would like information about "ROCK your NUPTIALS" Weddings or simply just to contact Roxanne for information about the Spiritual Hula Program for Women or information regarding private hula or Spiritual Guidance sessions with her feel free to send her an email.
(c) 2012 Roxanne K. Cottell. All Rights Reserved

'Tis the Season - The Gift of Cleansing

Cleaning Up A Cosmic Mess

Each day we are presented with things and situations and such that test our resolve, that give us the lessons that we are not aware that we are learning, and when we are finally aware of the lesson, we are shocked by the idea that all the garbage and all the emotional stuff that just happened, to many of us, seems to have had its basis in evolving the Soul so as to ready it for its Higher Calling. We all have a Higher Calling, all have something that we are meant to do in this lifetime, and while on the Path that we each seek to travel, when we are in the midst of learning, we tend to leave a trail.

Our Emotional and Soulful Footprints

Just like it happens that people leave their garbage, their carbon footprint behind, so, too do we leave an emotional and soul footprint, and yes, those footprints have the ability to weigh heavily on our Selves if we are not careful to clean up afterward. By cleaning up our mess afterward, what I mean is that there is a lot going on at this time cosmically, Spiritually, and it is global. We are being shown who we are and when we each discovered that who we are now versus who we have seen with our minds' eyes, we really LOVED the person we saw that was in manifest. We Loved the big giant Soul, and we Loved the endlessness of the Alo'ha that was ever-present, and we Loved to look at the beauty that we are intending ourselves to Be.

But as normally humans will do, we bristled at the mess that we saw in the present, and most of us stood there staring at it as though staring at it would somehow clear it away. We realized that it is our mess, see where we have been and the evidence of the lessons we have learned are there and in our face and are represented as being the things and the ways of being and yes, the people, too, who no longer serve our grander Higher Purpose. The mess makes us ache because we hate messes. The mess makes us cry because we do not realize it that when we are doing inner work that there is a LOT of garbage that ends up being in a pile, so to speak, that when we see the pile of garbage that was once ours, we want to turn away and not look at it anymore because we see that it is filled with the pain of the past, the people who caused that pain, and most of all, the pain that we caused for ourselves in the form of missing out because we were scared of whatever it is that we thought and may still think we fear.

The hardest thing to do when working on one's self is to be able to look at the things that we have caused ourselves that have hurt us and that we allowed to continue. This is something that took me a long time to do, look at the pain that I allowed into my life, and once I faced that one thing, and even in the middle of this great big shift in consciousness that we are all going through right now, I was able to come to terms with the big, giant, fat, hairy monster in the closet and deal with it. It hurts me to have to do it this way, but not because of the person or the reason (the reason being me), but that I have a huge mess to clean up that was caused, not by my inaction but rather and only by the action taken on behalf of my own silly fears.

It was not easy to do it because I am non-confrontational these days, and am so because this is my natural state. I would not have known this if I never bothered to do something differently and NOT fight, NOT give in to the ego and all her silly crazy "oh no he DI'INT" garbage. I would have known that it was, all these years, a fight that was with myself to find out that all along, I was not all those things and ways of being that I was told I was. Yet this is not even my point with this story. My point with this story is that I chose to take action, and like when an artisan is arting it up - there is always a mess to clean up afterward. When I am creating a piece of art I am capable of making a mess that not even a large hamster can claim. In that same light, for years I created the fear that kept me locked in the closet where I hid the monster. It got bigger and uglier and messier, but none the less it was a monster of my own making, much like the messes that happen when I am in the middle of creating something of artistic magnificence.

In like manner, our lives as human souls is messy. In like manner, our lives are created by us, and in the process of creating things grand and things that will strike the heart and soul of people who are onlooking, we make a mess of ourselves. We make a mess because we rip apart all the facets of where we are now, who matters and who doesn't, what matters and what doesn't, and from the shards of what is left we create ourselves. It took me a lot of time to get here where I am, and make no mistake I had a LOT of help in the re-creation of Ms. Roxie, continue to have that help because just as the planet herself is in a constant state of evolution, so, too, are we, am I, and it, like many of my artistic creations, are a work in progress, with my own life being the biggest piece of my own creation of all!

We have gone through a whole lot lately, made a lot of choices and have found ourselves with a big fat mess to clean up. We need to clean it all up, because there are things contained in the clutter that is our collective Life, things which are singularly particular to our own personal lives that are in creation, and sometimes, when we go backward, just for a moment, we find that in the piles of garbage there are things that can be used in the creative process, and we are glad that we did not jump the gun and throw it all out without our further examination of it all. We have found ourselves disgusted at the idea of returning to the pain that made us grow and made us who we are now, and now comes the messy part of cleaning it all up, and it, like cleaning a messy house, will reveal that which we did not see and that which is still useful for us.

When the fracas came to its own slowly grinding halt this week, we find that we are not just any mess, but are indeed a beautiful mess and a creative work in progress...

All true...

I Love You All !!
ROX

Reverend Roxanne Cottell is the Kumu Hula and Creator of the Spiritual Hula Program for Women and the Co-Founder of Na Hula O Ka Wahine 'Ui. She is a blogger, book author, choreographer and Spiritual Adviser. If you would like information about "ROCK your NUPTIALS" Weddings or simply just to contact Roxanne for information about the Spiritual Hula Program for Women or information regarding private hula or Spiritual Guidance sessions with her feel free to send her an email.
(c) 2012 Roxanne K. Cottell. All Rights Reserved

'Tis the Season: The Gift of The Ancients

The Time is Nigh for The Entirety of Us To Claim Our Kuleana

This morning's Mana'o is something that came to me over the last few days, through all the emotional weight that we have all been carrying singly and collectively. This is a message from the Ancients as they speak through me with these words. Please pay attention, please  auhea wale ana 'oe - pay attention! Ukali Au! Follow Me ! 

All of us has Ancient roots. There is not one person reading this, not one person living anywhere on the planet, not one person who does not have an Ancient Past which is pregnant with magic, is filled with the Grace and the Light of the Heart and Soul of Humanity. We are all readied, waiting for the things which have thrilled us and scared us at the same time. We are all hungry for the Power that is within each of our Souls, even as we are fearful of that Power. We are all a jumbled mix of confusion, a jumbled mix of elation and terror, and all of us are very, very tired to the point of emotional exhaustion...all of us.

We come from the 'Aumakua. We are the 'Aumakua

At this moment we are all being called to relinquish our fears to the Heavens, to let Akua show us how, but in our prideful manner we humans seem to think that there is no other way than our way, and if we would look around us and see the mess that we have made from doing things our way, we would also see that the time is right now that we need to, once again, and hopefully for the last time for a long time, pick up the Shield of Light, the Sword of Truth, and to call upon the 'Aumakua Who are always with us at all times, and move forward, not looking at our fear, not looking at our pain, but only looking at ourselves as a whole Soul. We are meant to be here with each other, meant to bring to the surface of things the Truth by cutting away that which is no longer the truth of us, no longer that which serves us or our burgeoning graceful nature.

Humankind is weary from the fights that we ourselves have caused. It seems that for many generations we have bothered only to see the truth of us that hurts us, that makes us believe that we are not good enough for the things that have manifested in our lives, and this is not the truth. If it were the truth, all that we each see in our own lives at this present moment would not be ours to claim, and it is a mighty birthright in and of itself. To be who we are at this time in our history as humans is a special time indeed. We must rise to the occasion, because for so many generations we have bothered only with that which was not us, which was not ours, which insulted the very Soul within us all. We have only seen that which we want to see, and still, we insult our Souls. Still we continue to look to the past that hurt us instead of the past which has always empowered us. We look back to the insults, but not the power, and this is the thing that we keep doing, much like a dog returns to its own vomit.

We have barely scratched the surface of our Selves, have barely thought for one moment that these times are the very moments of truth that we all so dearly wished for, and here it is, right before us, and we are a muddled mess, are afraid of our greatness, are scared to death by it, in fact. It should not be this way. We were given the birthright to greatness, given the very keys to the kingdom of Heaven, and we have only tried for that which was the easiest, never thinking that perhaps the thing which is right in front of us is the very thing that was the very wish of the Soul...and for the life of us, we are clueless about what to do with it.

We do with it what we 'Know' to, what it is that the 'Aumakua who came before us did with it, as if it were not meant that we would do something with this all, we would not have it poised and ready. And we need to take it, all of it, because these are the very tools of the beginnings of this time in history, where we will need to be able to see things differently, because just as humankind has evolved, so, too, will those things that we have no idea what to do with. We asked for these things to come to us, and now we look at them as though they are supposed to tell us what we are to do, but that is not giving us proper credit for already knowing what to do with what we have been given, and what we have been given is quite a lot.

We asked for higher knowing, and since Knowledge is limited, we were given Wisdom, for it is Eternal. We asked for the soothing of the broken hearted mess that we have collectively become, and rather than a temporary salve that takes away the pain of our losses, we were given the tools with which also come the words "Physician, Heal Thy Self." We have been placed with the Tribes, the Ohanas, that we have wished for through the entirety of our own personal eternities and at this time are afraid to look at them because embodied in each other are the very seeds, the very core of the Soul which is us, singly and collectively, and our human brains cannot wrap themselves around the idea that we are who created all of this and that now is when we are meant to employ each of these Soul Granted Wishes to the very best and highest good that we can possibly.

We want so much, and we do not realize and cannot see that all that we asked for is here, is Now, and is ours.

Grab tightly, hold on to your birthright, but allow your heart, soul and your Self their wings. Let go of the things that hurt you, that scare you, that keep you afraid of the monsters which no longer have to exist, not even in your mind. Be One with the Collective Soul of the Universe, and be at peace with your own Soul, with your own Self, for these things which are before you are the very culmination of all the pain, all the heart ache, all the anger, all the messes that were left behind. You are meant as the greatness that you have always been, and together we are meant to be the Soul of the Collective Divinity, the Sacred Nature created by the Sacred Nature of the Collective Wish of the Soul for Peace, for Joy, for Love and for Lokahi, or unity. We have cried and have lost all that we thought we were, but in reality, we did not lose a thing.

We Gained Our Very Selves, and it is now time that we Live Up to the very Greatness which we are all calling our Selves into Being.


Be at Peace. Be, In Love. Be with one another. Be gentle, rather than harsh, and be careful with the choices that you make, for in those choices are the very seeds of the future and the very kuleana which will be the footprints which those who follow our lead will be guided by. Take heed to the inclinations that you should be ready to act on, and ponder the wonder that you are, for there is only one You, and You are decidedly important and a big part of the Grander Scheme of Things to Be.


"AUHEA WALE ANA 'OE!" is what they are screaming at me, reminding us all of the Kuleana that we each desired.

It is here. It is Now. This is what you asked for.

Remember your Kuleana....remember your Ancient Roots...

The 'Aumakua are with you...

Me Ke Aloha Pumehana
I Love You All !
ROX